I will take accountability for my behavior in my 29s, How out if control I was, while then believing I had perfect control. I was another person. I had none. But what has transpired in my 30s, what appears far more as an addiction than my actual tendency to overindulge in alcohol in my 20s (I think some call it alcoholism), I can not. How can I assume responsibility for what I didn’t do. I can’t . I’m too honest. And that’s the truth.