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I had no idea the insidious lengths the government will go to ensure they appear always in control, even when they’ve lost control of it completely . Because they forgot something

When I leave this earth? Is not up to them

It is up to God.

Were it any other way statistically speaking given how many close calls there were, I WOULD BE. AMD could go any day now . This sense of sudden urgency to ensure the whole truth and nothing but so help me God is out there before I go

So if anything I can be a voice to those who are in the dark of their cells, knowing they should not be there, not by character nor law. They are aware the same people who make his life miserable everyday are the SAME ONES RESPONSIBLE for putting him away? And we wondered why all the race riots in the 70s when putting away African Americans when the DA withheld evidence which would hahe exonerated them. Knowingly sending an innocent to death row . The last time I checked thars premeditated murder. Bit so long as THE FEDS OE DEA OR POLICE do it ; it’s ok. We forget we require the least education requirements from those we hand over all the power and guns to.

Any questions!

I do

Though I’m willing to expose my own truth and story, by no means is this a memoir or autobiography. It is what happened and what Americans need to be aware of. If they are not already. And most, conditioned to believe nothing but utmost honor and truth from anyone with a badge 

Some just don’t see how conditioned they have become. No cop is ever imprisoned thereby giving the ILLUSION they do no crime. It is well coming to light that cops committ a lot of it. Far too much. There is motive. Opportunity, the knowledge their Ass is covered. It would be like being an alcoholic but without the hangovers. Immunity from negative consequences of bad behavior only leads to more but true correction of it, the front they’ve worked so hard to create, would crumble

being an alcoholic but without the hangovers. Immunity from negative consequences of bad behavior only leads to more but true correction of it, wpuld crimble the front they’ve worked so hard to create

This is a book that has information you won’t come across anywhere else. Because what I will disclose is rarely it is ever spoken of, even amidst those who engage in it on a criminal level to tye victims of their crimesZ

They are silencedZ and if not by harsher means than defamation, and complete reputation and physical annihilation, and you will have made out well. In other words I’d you survive what I did and come out the other side free and alive, Youve did what few have

And there was a justification. And I won’t say nothing when too many before have perhaps been scared. Even those officials involved in such horrific offenses rarely utter of the reality of it. As though it makes it imaginary. But it’s all too real to the victims of it. The ones that wo t be believed when the state and federal authorities are setting the opposite about her.

People fully conditioned to have confidence in the authorities when it’s a fact they are legally allowed to lie. Bigotry and covering for one another remains all too pervasive , the chief being the one mooning into any cknolintd, often themselves apart of any misconduct. 

This book is not based on research but is more telling of the state of the transparency or f our governing forces than any number of interviews. Because no one, most especially those in law enforcement are willing to give voice to the misconduct that goes on and further still, the fact that no officer will tell on another, no matter how grievous the offense. This gives cops total power and immunity, never having to worry about the law catching up with Them. Is this truly the way to keep them accountable. My experience told me that they were at best, confounded by what to do next fork by their blue code to the other and what was right to do & worst nothing better than animals , waiting for their next opportunity.

If you decide to read this book, believe its truth, and understand that such has happened before, such as with Thomas Drake, at least I know that was his Last name. Here you will gain Information you will not elsewhere, as most who have gone through what I have been falsely incarcerated or in some other way silenced.

The best part of this book is, it is not based on research but personal experience and obtaining records which directly proved each of the elements I hope to finally in this book describe, SO many attempts made, only to flicker out, again and again, I am determined not to let that happen. I Will Face what I went through again alongside the very likelihood of even further disbelieve and stigmatization, But I am I am willing to sacrifice myself in this way as I will not allow the knowledge that I gained over the last deacde and a half of my life, knowledge that the majority of Americans are completely unware of but tat I fell truly need to know. And it is not to sensationalize what I went through as so many have faced far far worse. I can not even fathom being an african american in the 70s or even Now, having false evidence delinerately used against you, or evidence that would exonerate you withheld, so the sentive was carried out, and you? Are innocent. The sentence is 25 years/ Perhaps life. This has happened an inordinate amount of times, mainly dyring the war on drugs, or what is moreo accurately,

perspective is just that until it is backed up by evidence & logical fact, then, even in the eyes of tur law it is no longer a subjective perspective but fact. Truth.

What happened to me can be substantiated by four boxes of documentation. What Never would not could have exited exigency of the circumstances considering in my 32 years prior I’d done nothing but try As, work, get a 4.0 from college through two full time Master degrees AJD the police academy. Mainly for sake of curiosity but all for a reason. No! 

What should he known independent of the political topic or culture this paper will create; I think it should be noted, is my disposition prior the initial incident not one another couod beijg ecen unkind let alone actions or intentions out of. Yet afyer given the severity nature and lack of treatment of the injury; I was left witu a brain reduced to making it near impossible to control the reptilian part of my brain from constantly hujackijg the frontal cortex. A result all of negligence and misconduct I hage TBI, post concussive syndrome, am severely anemic; liver and kidney problems 

This became a further disabling factor in my desperate attempts to get help, when I learned the morbidity of the damage done, thouvfg there was no formal diagnosis until y years after the fact. 

I knew nothing of struggle humility or pain until these last thirteen years and its changed my outlook on life, but more importantly, my priorities. And to no longer have any desire to be apart or join the rat race is as much of a relief as a pattern ive followed my whole life. Ive always veeb a leader, That uiethe simple truth

1983 would directly prove even with immunity such a potent defense for officers, not to be applicatble for the officer whom acted against me. And I can prove that beyond ANY reasonable doubt. Most certainly because I have the original warrants which prove on three occasions he tried to finish what he started on three occasions and was turned away by the newmarket PD. Had he acted like a reasonable officer> The others wouldnt have declined his warrant, each signed bty a justice of the peace. But See, they knew he was dirty. And though they were too, they didnt want any more grimed on them now that they wre aware of the reality, 

In the middle of this nightmare beginning 13 ironically …..

After being arrested in my own home in effect of an order my ex husband put on the downstairs neighbors After we agreed upon it, it was subsequently used against me: the state police ready to Pounce and claim me apart of the tenancy downstairs when I owned the entire house. I could not be stalking the person I lived with. The person who tried every day to get me out of jail and was told on the fifth.

If you continue trying to get her out whay will happen to her will happen to you

It was as succinct it was ominous in part assured by the lack of particulars and the officer identifying himself to Doug in amy way. The encounter WASNT documented and I am sure he irked his body cam off under the guise of a ‘bathroom break’. And he took a good shit. God asshole. 

List of major ROADSBLOCKS

2011: the initial warrantless search and seizure; the accident three weeks later

2014; false incarceration; go into gritty details. People want to know what it’s like

2015; after the incarceration was officially ruled false by a judge and subsequently slapped back on my record ; was literally hit at 95mph by a black SUV without his headlights 

2017: had to get order on Doug; pd escort; left in secret; he has breakdown. Went to ER

2020d Hampton Nh; attempt to get my license since attacks on freedom and life failed and would be obvious if attempted again 2021:year of annulment; the year it was finally due for a judge to get this done. My attorney has been corrupt the whole time. Never even told me about the option to sign a petition five years earlier 

Getting rear ended four times in an attempt to get my license 

Others and details

Etc 

Examples I wrote ; duh

My first cell mate Penny? Cool. Odd. Demanding the phone ten times a day. 

My fate which had been left in the hands of the feds DEA state and local pd all whom were genuinely corrupt the rest sorely misinformed in effect of it. Ironically encounters with them were often to my benefit blowing the stereotype they’d cast aside and out the window: there was nothing they could do to provoke. It wasn’t personal and it was as though the animal in me; so weary from an ongoing struggle; was too tired to fight anyhow. It was easier to just put my head down AJD he so compliant they couldn’t have said anything to provoke me. Nothing. That was all they needed. A Reaction In response could be called assault on an officer even if you do not touch him; or resistance or even obstruction. If it were not for body came there is no question I would be dead. 

to the effect the only one I can reach out to for help is attorney general

Ir was so wide reaching every single attorney has been corrupt as opposed to derails the misconduct 

Are you a boy or a girl? She asked before they even opened the cell door

Girl I said impartially.

She came in spitting vulgaritiesof ebery sorr ar the guards…

She sits and begins to inspect me before proceeding…she gets up and begins walking around. 

Breakfast was just served. The smell of the food alone is horrific. I literally haven’t eaten in 11 days & was told on the 12th after my HR was taken I was going into shock.. this was the only reason they didn’t proceed with the transfer 

Me dead on their time would have made me a further liability. They didn’t care about me. But before the release they had to try.

I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical becuase I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be beleoced so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A so mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight. 

Americans struggle to see reality clearly in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot if reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions 

There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows jow constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ by means of hundreds of Apps which allow contact without the effort. 

I am by nature a skeptic. I have Always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when every one else

 premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.

The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure , or perhaps it truly began with mu voracious curiosity, my only offense.

More here

This book is not based on research but is more telling of the state of the transparency or f our governing forces than any number of interviews. Because no one, most especially those in law enforcement are willing to give voice to the misconduct that goes on and further still, the fact that no officer will tell on another, no matter how grievous the offense. This gives cops total power and immunity, never having to worry about the law catching up with Them. Is this truly the way to keep them accountable. My experience told me that they were at best, confounded by what to do next fork by their blue code to the other and what was right to do & worst nothing better than animals , waiting for their next opportunity. 

If you decide to read this book, believe its truth, and understand that such has happened before, such as with Thomas Drake, at least I know that was his Last name. Here you will gain Information you will not elsewhere, as most who have gone through what I have are falsely incarcerated or in some other way silenced. 

The best part of this book is, it is not based on research but personal experience and obtaining records which directly proved each of the elements I hope to finally in this book describe, SO many attempts made, only to flicker out, again and again, I am determined not to let that happen. I Will Face what I went through again alongside the very likelihood of even further disbelieve and stigmatization, But I am I am willing to sacrifice myself in this way as I will not allow the knowledge that I gained over the last deacde and a half of my life, knowledge that the majority of Americans are completely unware of but tat I fell truly need to know. And it is not to sensationalize what I went through as so many have faced far far worse. I can not even fathom being an african american in the 70s or even Now, having false evidence delinerately used against you, or evidence that would exonerate you withheld, so the sentive was carried out, and you? Are innocent. The sentence is 25 years/ Perhaps life. This has happened an inordinate amount of times, mainly dyring the war on drugs, or what is moreo accurately, the war on blacks. 

So why was I specifically targeted? I am not sure that is wholly relevant to the politics of this story,

I decides to qeirw 

This is a rough draft but it’s a sample 

The mock interview 

Was she a victim subjected to the nearly implausible and has thus far survived it, or could she have for this long Attempted to fool us, cover up her foibles with stories of misconduct and what her could blame for the losses that she suffered? 

Her story brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that. Because if she was credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility. Yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she? 

I heard her for the first time on the KC Armstrong show and didn’t believe her. She put it out there, without sensationalism, much sentiment or passion/ it’s as though in a way she had been used up. Been asked too many times and it was this dichotomy between lack of need to get attention and having a story that would that intrigued me. Was she some master of disguise?

She had been asked to interview by Armstrong and told me that with great hesitation she decided to Interview as a professional life coach. They had approached her initially inquiring for an interview for such an when she said she wasn’t active the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter.

I ask, 

How did you get on international radio on one of the most popular podcasts in America? How does that happen? Did you contact PBN? 

No. KC had messaged me months former to the call from PBN but I never received it under I decided to message him only after the shows began to air. I had to Google him to familiarize myself with his person and was flattered to learn of his celebrity status.

I often don’t check my email message or voicemail so it truly was fate I picked up the phone. With the TBI and post-concussion little things so get overwhelmed by…. such as messages of any kind

It’s not for lack of want. It’s having been stuck for so long tried everything and getting nowhere so I am just … stuck. That is why I wasn’t more in tune with his initial contact. He had been following my blog and sorry though, radio is still government-owned. I didn’t realize this until afterward. That they had truly taken a chance. And knew I had to get it out: 

I didn’t get those messages until after they called. But in them, they asked about who I was and my story. When I told PBN that I wasn’t active in practice as a professional life coach at that time, the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter, as quick as it took her to assure me, any money I spent was for press releases. 

What made you decide to interview. What motivated you?

After a decade of not being believed because it simply doesn’t sound credible, someone was paying attention. Someone was watching me struggle to articulate week after week, month after month, and year after year what was happening. 

How could someone so hurt Not get help>? When that inured. 

Because the stigmatization is too great and I was labeled an addict without a medical diagnosis and for seven years they refused to do an MRI until FORCED TO. When the damage was found it was extensive and too late…

The elements to this sorry are many but the storyline is all too pervasive within this country 

And though I found what she addressed had happened to her unbelievable, if one doesn’t get Positive attention from something they move on! If the information they are putting out is fraudulent and they are becoming even HATED for it? They stop. She didn’t because according to her? She COULDN’T. It wasn’t an option as it was the only safeguard she had against further unjust action against her. Should her last post point in the direction of them they would hesitate to pursue anything drastic. Her making note of this to the officers at certain times did change the course of their actions after whispering urgently with a Sargent before taking her back OUT of THE BACK door. 

There were so many extraneous circumstances it seems

 I haven’t even gotten to her story

Or rather she has. So many times. In many different forums over the years, she tells it mech aI ally now. No feeling. She is detached. She has told it repeatedly in different forums over the years be it podcasts, blogs, documents, etc, but this offer to go international on every major news outlet.. well..that was an opportunity.

So the interview … in hindsight was an opportunity for you? Or given the context was it a risk?

What did you have to gain? And what did you have to lose?

Both. Exactly par for par she said deliciously. To make public what she had a decade former had had severe implications on her credibility and relationships.. instead of being heard concerning the warrantless search and seizure, the resulting misconduct, and the severe head injury untreated as a result. 

Instead, she lost credibility and friends for it, was harassed, bullied by the PD, told to keep my mouth Shut

Why continue unless what I was writing was truly a Safeway for her to survive at this crucial time that had she not reported would have been consumed by like all the others. That’s right. Her attorney agreed. If no one knew, they could do… ANYTHING. They have, they DID AND THEY DO

WHAT I was most shocked by was how they simply throw away the innocent when they are aware they are wrong. how do they sleep at night? 

What did they do?

In short? Subject me  to absolute horror to start then ongoing Harassment misconduct, surveillance, false incarceration shock or pain to injuries they’re caused by their conduct 

Instead of making reparations and moving on instead, they subject the person they’ve already traumatized with false arrest search and seize interrogation build and a remake for a third transfer

I still do not know where that third transfer would have been to had they not Been forced to release me and when I got the $30,000 bill I called them up five minutes later told them I was not payment no way in hell I shouldn’t have been there and they automatically dropped it. 

But I’m getting ahead of myself. No context. But at least we are somewhere near the beginning though that’s not always the best place to start…

. to absolute horror misconduct defamation, false incarceration shock or pain to injuries though caused by their conduct 

I am taken with her not needing to be noted a certain way. Her effect belied someone struggling with demons large enough to snuff out any excitement of being heard by millions. Those are some pretty large demons to take away that joy, that hope that it meant people would listen to the truth, and she had wanted that. The defamation kills her. And in a forum in which she would be validated as nothing But credible after ten years. 

But I learned later she knew everything came with a price, and she was so tired. She quickly explained the three levels of trauma and their effects on the body. There is distress, then distress, then complete dysfunction. Due to the complexity of her story, it wasn’t easy to decipher what caused what and when.

In such a statement, while feeling defenseless., her body broke down completely. She was in a state of trauma at KC dysfunction without the slightest acknowledgment that this was the problem for seven years. 

Her medical issues are not what this piece is about but are the result of what happened and is heard; she would have the conditions she does. She now struggles with every cardiac, digestive, and other issue resulting from being in a state of dysfunctional shock for far too long. And Suddenly she became somewhat hyper defensive. I suppose perhaps because for so long her injuries had been ignored that the scar tissue that never should have been, turned into a deadly form of epilepsy that has now affected her heart and other systems due to the corrosive pharmaceutical medications she has to take. And the One that would harm her system. Her DHMC NEUROLOGIST says it wouldn’t be appealed until she was in acute organ failure. Her liver already heard the marks of someone who has a drinking problem. Except she hasn’t had a drink she was 27. She is now, at the time of the telling of this story, of what happened to her, is 43. She appears about 10-15 younger: at times it’s somewhat eerie. She declares herself a type that never ages. Fast skin cell turnover. Hereditary she guesses. But she is rarely wrong and has she been heard regarding her injuries she wouldn’t be disabled. She would have been able to get up again as she always had and be strong: now all she had were words/ tell what happened/ for the sake of safety mainly due empathizes: like Drake. She makes a quick note of… 

Methodically, she brought up her medical chart to prove to me her conditions though I didn’t know asl/. She was wise to do this because to look at her; no one would believe she was serious. She knew even if, in the Moët, she thought someone would question it if someone did not prove it later. But before me, she didn’t show anyone, she told me. She had shut down nearly completely. Drawn into herself, she almost died from heart failure.

What could do this to a perfectly healthy 32-year-old who had just completed the peace academy after two master’s degrees out in OH at KSU, who had come in third place in the physical piece despite being a woman 32 to the boys in their early 20s? She was in unbelievable condition. Now she can’t get her heart rate up, has severe anemia, kidney and liver dysfunction, lesions, cysts, stones, need reconstructive surgery on her feet; the accident took out my back, and she developed severe temporal love epilepsy and atrophy along with brain bleeds due to lack of treatment.


That is the beginning Ot my story, led off by a warrantless investigation in which all rights were infringed, and they attempted to incriminate. I realized this and fled. If I had to do it repeatedly despite the immensity of damage done to my brain and body due to it? Caused disability due to lack of adequate treatment die to the falsified report and the doctors not believing I crashed at the speed I had. Officer Goard wanted to ensure I was out in prison that night to be falsely transferred. anything under 20mph accomplishes that.

But the superior somehow Wasn’t swayed( didn’t believe he had evidence; had seen me say quietly to him. You know that is not true after he alleged he had… without anger. Because at that point, I hadn’t any. Never HAD: that fake after me worsted injuries denials of it intense life-altering defamation loss of reputation and ability to work.s what did I do? Thank rued for defending me at the end. They had a record it takes charges without ONE conviction. Because no matter how much they attempted to antagonize or entrap; it’s as though I was somehow able to dissociate from the experience and realize it wasn’t personal AJD given they have Nothing legit (never did) don’t react/

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