What?

Yeah yeah maybe ocd said it before. Well read it again! Or don’t!

Americans struggle to see reality clearly in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot of reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows how the constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ utilizing hundreds of Apps that allow contact without the effort.

I am by nature a skeptic. I have always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when everyone else
premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult before they would, as they were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.
The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure, or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

How does this apply to me? I would like to interfere with what directly occurred to me but not make it about what did.
I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit from or instead learn from reading this book is a firsthand account of the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new.

THIS is a journey of discovery. You will learn things that you will not discover elsewhere, and likely the material will make you feel uncomfortable. This is because you will be forced to change your conditioned thinking
My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that? Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are humans engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself, don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she?

While the establishments that govern our country are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer over any innocent civilian. No matter if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost a clear their freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or nonreactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

There is the argument why repeatedly write or what has discredited you because I’ve had to

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self-love, we learn to interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open. If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps
It is All? The will of God

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven years, one week, month, year at a time. Do I start in the middle and then go back to explain the hows and whys. In so many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.
So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life, and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in the effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violation and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer I not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that needs to be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original *. Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write these sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be what it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask every possible question to a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality. A mock interview in which the interviewer is asking every question that any amazingly adept prosecutor would ask, and be able to answer. So that is another way I wrote it up.
But till then many times I’ve cut and pasted and the results are less of the same bit more of what is NOT

This isn’t a story about my life, it is a story of survival, the Police, both local and state the very ones who had engaged in the very rights violations and other illegalities that then, in my innocence, made me a liability.
If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical because I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times. Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A so mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.
And I have little protection….

Americans struggle to see reality clearly, even if it happening before their eyes they may go on to choose to deny it, in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot of reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows how constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ utilizing hundreds of Apps that allow contact without the effort.

I am by nature a skeptic. I have always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when every one else
premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult before they would, as they were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.
The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure, or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

Any doubt I had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced otherworldly grace and beyond my own doing. I live now today with the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time had been up far more times than I am meant to be here and he Alive

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we can live no other choices of my own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had already injured me severely? I’ve never been one to play the victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you
truth is truth
And if I could change it, I would
If I could instead assume all responsibility as opposed to simmering in a fit of anger I’ve either asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.
Infinitely
let me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least.

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.
I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years repeated b tenfold.

They say to look and see where you are responsible. I am responsible for continuing to believe a truth that had I not spoken about could have landed me in a hell I could not have escaped or could have allowed this to slowly unfurl in other ways they had planned. What seemed better to me. What would I do differently? Nothing. Each move I made was out of defense in the effect of on of their actions, whether a third time that week again pull over, to a full-on false arrest without telling me the charges. None .to be later declared false incarceration and the changes that day dropped. Yet slapped back on my record three weeks later for five years. My public defender ran from any possibility of fulfilling her role and ran from my fiancé asking her help then failed to answer any questions regarding why a change she witnessed he deemed false was still there? To take all employment pops etc away from me. And this was after five years of their having tried everything. Well, then again the next year I’d learn everything includes murder.

I moved back here with A Masters in Counseling from Kent State, I was prepared to begin an Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing at the Seacoast Mental Health Center, a local counseling center. Three months before we were going to begin, I was in a major car accident following an amendment violating search and seizure. But first things first.

The DEA & Federal government acted without a warrant no judge’s signature and no evidence. So perhaps I should say instead it began with a young lady’s obsession with me, ultimately feeling rejected by me then saying she would tell her daddy about me. He was the ex-chief of PD in Newmarket ….

Though I’m willing to expose my truth and story, by no means is this a memoir or autobiography. It is what happened and what Americans need to be aware of. If they are not already. And most, are conditioned to believe nothing but utmost honor and truth from anyone with a badge
Some just don’t see the ironies of reveling in these
This is a book that has the information you won’t come across anywhere else. Because what I will disclose is rarely it is ever spoken of, even amidst those who engage in it on a criminal level to tye victims of their crimes
They are silenced and if not by harsher means than defamation, and complete reputation and physical annihilation, and you will have made out well. In other words, I’d you survive what I did and come out the other side free and alive, You’ve done what few have
And there was a reason. And I won’t say anything when too many before HAGE perhaps been scared. Even those officials involved in such horrific offenses rarely utter the reality of it. As though it makes it imaginary. But it’s all too real to the victims of it. The ones that won’t be believed when the state and federal authorities are setting the opposite about her.
People have been conditioned to hold great confidence in the authorities of this country. And as we have seen during times of crisis we are willing to do almost anything they tell us. They are learning what it’s taken for us to come to subject our children without reservation (COVID year T- 3) to vaccinations we would’ve never considered three years ago once that changed genotypes and that was 12 and younger would possible outcome could that have in the next generations to come but that’s not what this is about it’s not about conspiracies it’s about fact truth and what did happen.
Bigotry and covering for one another remains all too pervasive, the chief being the one mooning into any cknolintd, often themselves part of any misconduct.
This book is not based on research but is more telling of the state of the transparency or f our governing forces than any number of interviews. Because no one, most especially those in law enforcement are willing to give voice to the misconduct that goes on and further still, the fact that no officer will tell on another, no matter how grievous the offense. This gives cops total power and immunity, never having to worry about the law catching up with Them. Is this truly the way to keep them accountable. My experience told me that they were at best, confounded by what to do next fork by their blue code to the other and what was right to do & worst nothing better than animals, waiting for their next opportunity.
If you decide to read this book, believe its truth, and understand that such has happened before, such as with Thomas Drake, at least I know that was his Last name. Here you will gain Information you will not elsewhere, as most who have gone through what I have been falsely incarcerated or in some other way silenced.
The best part of this book is, it is not based on research but on personal experience and obtaining records which directly proved each of the elements I hope to finally in this book describe, SO many attempts made, only to flicker out, again and again, I am determined not to let that happen. I Will Face what I went through again alongside the very likelihood of even further disbelieve and stigmatization, But I am willing to sacrifice myself in this way as I will not allow the knowledge that I gained over the last decade and a half of my life, knowledge that the majority of Americans are completely unaware of but that I fell truly need to know. And it is not to sensationalize what I went through as so many have faced far worse. I can not even fathom being an African American in the 70s or even Now, having false evidence deliberately used against you, or evidence that would exonerate you withheld, so the sensitive was carried out, and you? Are innocent. The sentence is 25 years/ Perhaps life. This has happened an inordinate amount of times, mainly during the war on drugs, or what is more accurately, the war on blacks.

So why was I specifically targeted? I am not sure that is wholly relevant to the politics of this story,
I decide to qeirw
This is a rough draft but it’s a sample
This is a rough draft but it’s a sample

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or nonreactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self-love, we learn to interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open. If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps
It is All? The will of God

Any doubt Had had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced otherworldly grace and beyond my own doing. I live today with inner peace and the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time has been up for a while and I am still here, to times pulled through bt forces that went beyond merely me and you, Was that my perspective, No, actually by scientific weight, it Is the truth, Otherwise 99% likelihood it would have been the other way, And the words of the dead don’t write themselves. Nor the words of the damned. They don’t have the patience to uphold

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we can live no other choices of my own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had already injured me severely? I’ve never been one to play the victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you
truth is truth
And if I could change it, I would
If I could instead assume all responsibility as opposed to simmering in a fit of anger I’ve either asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.
Infinitely
let me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least.

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.
I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years by those whom I’d been conditioned. Always I ended up more damagedAmericans struggle to see reality clearly in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot of reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows how the constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ utilizing hundreds of Apps that allow contact without the effort.

I am by nature a skeptic. I have always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another and set up for chemical warfare. Oops were already there!

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