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There are three accounts. Only one is correct. Also as I’ve tried to inform the PD, I’ve received several messages and texts stating that my number is being used on a new iPhone. Then actual strangers calling angry because they infer I’ve texted them given it’s coming from my number , allegedly. And apparently whomever has hacked my accounts and phone now, has not had pleasant things to say to these strangers who calls whose number I don’t know and there is no record of my having texted on my phone which if I had there definitely would be. I need to report this ASAP before it is assumed I’ve said what I never did.

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The Matter at HAND

Free speech

Yes what was said concerned legal

IN this matter Susan attempts to use a past charge she knows was ruled false by a federal judge in 2014 against me in this case which is misleading and fraudulent. She also lied to the board which when I evidenced they then blackmailed me given their alignment with the state incentives at this time & she Will lie to you in order to show me as she well knows I am not/

There’s no way she can explain her conduct in a sense that seems legal s as it was not/ 

SHE WANTED THIS ORDER TO ENSURE MY Onmg time to give you an impression of myself is 30 minutes whereas most admit I’m well liked and other positive things she doesn’t want you to see, having painted the picture of a ‘bad seed’ by not calling me back in regards to one of the accidents except try one BEFORE THE ANNULMENT THAT would have taken it off the table: I NEVER HAD LEGAL ISSUES BEFORE. Never had a no a no trespass or ANYTHING OF SUCH A NATUE issued

For Susan Lowry to attempt to make me out as the opposite is the last and worst betrayal most especially after acknowledging it all happened and how brace I was to get through it. Of course I can’t find the email for it now..:

She says I wanted to she the state for conspiracy and the damages associated? We far as I AM AWARE there is no evidence of that nor her stating on One OCCASION SHE MAY HE WILLING TO SUE FOR DAMAGES ONCW THE ANNULLMENT WAS COMPLETE

I HAVE A many emails FROM her, which given they contradict her words to everyone else, would make anyone suspicious. She was supposed to have my back but instead ENACTED the kind attorney to not act as one in far more ways than one

OF EMAILS IN WHICH indicates THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT SHE INDICATED TO OTHERS, such as the board

Such HERE FOR EXAMPLE IS EVIDENCE of ACKNOWLEDGING THE SERIOUSNESS OF BEING HACKED AND THAT SHE WELL KNEW IT WAS HAPPENING OR WOULDNT HAVE WRITTEN IT AS SHE DID

She would never just acknowledged it as opposed to questiom my competence or whether I was being ‘paranoid’….instead she has verified the truth

YET LIKE ALL OTHER PREVIOUS MISCONDUCT SHE SAID SOMETHING IN NOT RESPONSE UT NEVER REPORTED THE MAJOR ILLEGALTKES

INVESTIGATED AS A SOLIITED ATTEMPTED MURDER by estimate of the first question the agent asked me

HERE IS EVIDENCE I TOLD HER OF A MAJOR ACCIDENT AS YOU FAN HERE see, and her acknowledgment: GIVEN WHAT WAS RULED A FALSE INCARCERATION THE YEAR BEFORE, she had every reason to report it yet she didn’t. The YEAR AFTER THE ANNULMENT I WAS REAR ENEED SEVERAL TIMES WHICH WOUKD AND COULD HAVE REVERSED IT.

He said it we a miracle I survived. I know !

‘…:/..’

But then subsequently spoke with Susan and the state whom made me out as competent ivcometent 

THOUGH I HAVE PROOF HER SHE FAILED TO DISMISS A MOTION TO

ALSO she alleged she couldn’t amnill the debate u tol 2020 to my parents yet to me her is evidence she is stating we shoukd attempt to file the petition in 2017. And as far as I know there was No good reason we couldn’t file it first thing , espeiday given it was the plentiff himself who defended me that day, had gone to the jail and pled he never filed the charges, to my to he threatened on the seventh .

Playing the victim? Yet bet

Susan is playing the victim so as to not have to face consequences for all her illegalities and role in conspiring with the state as opposed to aiding me. As was her legal obligation. I found out six years in she had been betraying me the entire time.

In the email below she is Telling me how to plead to my compete detriment. Ok a case I WAS REAR ENDED THAT SAME YEAR I WAS REAR ENDED AGAIN FOUR TIMES.

Is she bluffing? I wish I didn’t have so much evidence of it

The evening prior the last trial I called the nh attorney general and that may have been the only reason the false charges were drilled. So they literally tried the exact same thing thee time again. i tried to tell Susan-of tgis if o my to have a record I was TRying to do what WAS RIFYT AND CONTACT HET Rather than try and handle it. Had I not called him I would have ended up losing my license after losing everything else. For her to KNOW THIS and still lie to me and everyone else instead of help me get JUSTICE. It made it so I wasn’t beleoce and nearly worse still was her acknowledgement j was likely part of o my 5% sho got through what I did, Dre and alive: she will never admit to this Now. And she knows when NOT When to keep record

Susan never explained anything to me. And I am federally disabled but certainly able, with a masters degree and a ton of life experience. As far as I am aware she conspired with the state & their defamation. Otherwise she would have filed the petition for my annulment the first year she was hired not the fifth given they were all charges. No convictions . They want to charge me.

I am a liability given what was done to me in 2011. 

Charges were dropped in effect of my calling the NH attorney general AMD explaining the situation thrn and how it had been pervasive repeated and ongoing misconduct and abuse with motive . And I learned Susan, my own attorney , had been apart of that, as opposed to reporting any of the illegalities that were happening to me.

Had she I would have been spared an infinite amount of damage distress pain & injury. She was HIRED IN 2014 for a record annulment. And didn’t accomplish this until she filed the petition five years into my case, her excuse always the same. She said the prosecution was to blame. But they were just charges. No evidence ever of any crimes. Because none were committed. 

It wasn’t until the last hearing that I realized she had tried to set me up. Several times. I can explain and describe exactly how if you’d like me to.

The delay of annulling my record was repeatedly emphasized in her emails after I was rear ended in Hampton then literally blackmailed by the civil attorney to admit to being there or be sued for a million. And though she could have achieved that in the six years prior to it she is going along with the states agenda as she had always been

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What a judge needs to know; they will do anything for an indictment

SL INTENDS TO USE what she is aware is a charge ruled false by a federal judge. Along with UNWARRENTED BASELESS other accusations over the years in att

A lot of work to get ready

The state needed something.. ANYTHING THEN I CALLED SUSAN. Someone Who was my attorney for seven years until a few months ago. And she gave them something to use abaiShe acts out of Retaliation or it was something and they used it. Baseless in legal arena so I’m guessing they PLAN TO INDICT ME BASED ON AN ALLEGED PATTERN OF BAD CHARACTER & behavior. After legit report to the attorneys association, given they work for tue state they subsequently attempted to blackmail me should go forward with the case.

It took me a few, but slowly it comes together, all the false NPs,completely baseless orders that never pan out, haggard eyes officers generally serving them, carrying out orders it is clear they’d prefer not to carry out… how recent this all is to DHMCand their recent call for me to have another MRI on an ailing liver be told it was cancelled. I would have otherwise left and never called, showing up and

Giving them reason to arrest me. Easily alleging they tried to warn me not to come, havi g the officers review the message left. But they wouldn’t need to. It

Dog would be al

D tol said and do

She never reported any of the major illegalities that occurred to me, a repeated and pervasive pattern of misconduct becuase she was complicit

Went on to collaborate for five more years as opposed to annull my record in one through a petition. My being disabled we had a legal obligation to point it out . She didn’t file it for five years blaming prosecutors each year for not pushing through a perfectly reasonable case.

Attempting to INDICT ME based on false information… charges she is well aware were literally ruled as false before four competent witnesses by a federal judge on 2014 prior to the attempt ahaon on my person in 2015. Just a more drastic form *•. This can be evidenced as can the fact the state falsified the report. They were involved.

I’m a liability given the human rights violations committed upon my person in 2011 in Rockingham country, Newmarket, Hampton, Stratham, Exeter & Portsmouth, NH. I’ve moved several times in effect of the pervasive and ongoing harrassment on the state and feds end.

Also important is the fact these allegations that she are BASELESS; no actions which constitute this crime were taken; baseless like all the attempts to defame my character; just words to ensure seem as the problem. The one of bas character. 

The cops tell me just two weeks; no social media; why would that be when all I’ve written is true. So she can defame me in the a sense OF IT? That is the opposite of just. Shame on you Susan.

No social media so the EXIGENT CIRCUMSTANCES CANT BE KNOWN. As dojt jusges check social media prior to issuing something that would be on the case not only reckless but due to my medical conditions and lack of medical care of medications there must heart wouldn’t last more than three days. The epilepsy would have it. Along withthe major withdrawals from needed seizure and heart meds/ not only do they know this , they are counting on it. The measure the government takes when they want you silekt are insidious .

And am I obscene

By layman’s mind , yea

With my f*** this and that 

HOWEVER

Not legally 

As by law it’s defined by fraudulence and dishonesty. 

Susie Q KNOWS that last charge was false, and will try and use this against me, as FACT, RULED AS SUCH BY A FEDERAL JUDGE IN FRONT OF THREE WITNESSES

She alleged to me the exact opposite I’m emails as she did to the board AJD when I proved I was able to science this through her emails? I was subsequently blackmailed • literally

Told if I chose to follow through with this case? All my info, including my SS number etc would be exposed.

Just ridiculous stuff

But definitely

Ed across state likes as local PD refused to become involved

Obvious collaborations make them as guilty of the crimes as those who initially committed or are committing them.

And the repeated lying on the end of them and Susan and well everyone that is saying differently than I? Have some weong & need to cover it

It’s that simple 

Delay or Neglect

Perhaps the most common kinds of complaints against lawyers involve delay or neglect. This doesn’t mean that occasionally you’ve had to wait for a phone call to be returned. It means there has been a pattern of the lawyer’s failing to respond or to take action over a period of months. In some instances, this may result in your losing a case or losing the right to bring a case where there are time limits involved.

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This is part One; all others HACKED. I mean that.

I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they were. What the reader mainly has to benefit from or instead perhaps learn from reading this book is knowledge of the actuality . Not what the government wants you to see, propaganda it’s first weapon of choice. Then comes technology. Then the pharmaceutical industry stigmatizing people whom before they DSM came out a few decades ago there was no name for certain oddities, though now we do And ensure we have a medication for every disorder we have name that.

Is this country better since we have increased medicated and incarcerating it’s people? I’m going to have to say no, not in the least. In fact set in a never ending cycle of narcissism and egoism we will not forever repeat the past, the g
Hate Of those not like us, the wars. Just because we dress it all up differently doesn’t it is different at its core.

Cause really is it more than a mere word now? Do we mean it when we say it? Are we better people or just better liars

This is a firsthand account of an experience with the underbelly of the government and the insidious lengths they will go to cover up their crimes and liability; even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent. that’s nothing new, ever since the war on drugs deliberately withholding evidence they knew would exonerate an African-American on death row if you ask me that’s premeditated murder not to mention 2/3 of crack cocaine users or Caucasians yet every single person incarcerated for crack cocaine was African-American can somebody please explain that to me,?, you can’t but those numbers say it all.. The number said all this was not a war on drugs this was a war on blacks. And so it is again

History repeats until we beat the cycle of egoism which we won’t until we are aware we exist within it

THIS is a journey of discovery. You will learn things that you will not discover elsewhere, and likely the material will make you feel uncomfortable. This is because you will be forced to change your conditioned thinking
My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that. Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are humans engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself, don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she?

While the establishments that govern our country are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer over any innocent civilian. No matter if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost a clear their freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever. All I had was my voice. My attorney never ecen spoke up for me

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps
It is All? The will of God

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.
So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that need be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original * . Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write this sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be whay it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask every possible question a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality . A mock interview in which the interviewer is asking every question that any amazingly adept prosecutor would ask, and be able to answer, with evidence , likely. So that is another way i wrote it up.
But till then many times I’ve cut and paste and the results is less of the same bit more of what is NOT

This isnt a story about my life, it is a story of survival, the Police, both local and state the very ones who had engaged in the very rights violations and other illegalities that then, in my innocence, made me a liability.
If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical becuase I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A so mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.
And I have little protection….

Government corruption has been long throughout the ages. It didn’t just stop

Americans struggle to see reality clearly, even if it happening before their eyes they may go on to choose to deny it, in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot if reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows jow constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ by means of hundreds of Apps which allow contact without the effort.

I am by nature a skeptic. I have Always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when every one else
premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.
The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure , or perhaps it truly began with mu voracious curiosity, my only offense.

Any doubt I had had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced grace that was otherworldly and beyond my own doing. I live now today with the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time had been up far more times than I am meant to be here and he Alive

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we are able to live no other choices of my own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had Already injured me severely ? I’ve never been one to play victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your own intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you
truth is truth
And if I could change it , I would
If I could instead assume all responsibility as oppose to simmer in an anger I’ve jeher asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.
Infinitely
et me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least .

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.
I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years repeated b tenfold.

They say to look and see where you are responsible. I am responsible for continuing to believe a truth that had I not spoken abojt could have landed me in a hell I could not have escaped or could have allowed this to slowly unfurl in other ways they had planned. What seemed better to me. What would I do differently. Nothing. Each move I made was out of defense in effect of on of their actions, whether a third time that week again pull over, to a full on false arrrst without telling me the charges. None .to be later declared a false incarceration and the changes that day dropped. Yet slapped back on my record three weeks later for five years . My public defender ran from any possibility of fulfilling her role and literally ran from my fiancé asking her help than failed to answer any questions regarding why a change she witnessed he deemed false was still there? To take all employment opportunities etc away from me. And this was after five years of their having tried everything. Well then again the next year I’d learn everything includes murder. Didn’t matter that I was so agoraphobic I never left my home due to the harrassment on their end. They ended up arrested me In it despite the pleas from the local police that that was my home

I moved back here with A Masters in Counseling from Kent State, I was prepared to begin an Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing to the Seacoast Mental Health Center, a local counseling center. Three months before we were going to begin, i was in a major car accident following an amendment violating search and seizure. But first things first.

XXX

I stayed on in OH TO take a few extra classes prior to moving back and also entered the pd academy for fun. Honestly. It was. Very easy. I figured, why not.
All for a reason. There is a God.
When the indiscriminate illegal things began occurring, I learned ten times more law then i knew from the police academy thirteen years prior. And they as well. Fellow officers , to realize exactly what they were up to.

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,
While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. And does except most don’t talk about it. I made the mistake of saying yes to being on an international six series broadcast, and decided it was time for the truth to be told. Had I known the consequences that year ago I would have said no. I had no idea how threatened they would be at my telling the truth despite the fact all they had done tI and about me was lie. Repeatedly… I’m asked on the show tell it once and the DEA.l went to my DHMC Manchester medical providers and lied knowing I have severe conditions and al due for four surgeries. They were waylaid due to the fact my heart is weak and they worry about it and the effects of anesthesia.

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…
A book concerning these truths has not yet been written about though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such … my last attempt to make what happened to meet Public was met with my providers being told falsities so I was cut off of all help when I need it for surgery
I hesitate to reveal such Headey information early on given its gravity but the fact of the matter is I can ever since all of this and I will in the back of the book which will end up being hundreds of pages give and I wrote these first 200 in the last four days

I have either stated or written about what has happened to me to keep myself safe or otherwise document it so many times I cannot tell you if I were to put all of it together it would be tens of thousands of pages and that is not a not an overestimation

This isn’t a story about my life, it is a story of survival, the Police, both local and state, the very ones who had engaged in the very rights violations and other illegalities that then, in my innocence, made me a liability.
If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical because I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.
And I have little protection….
I am by nature a skeptic. I have Always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when everyone else
premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect, I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney, the attorney general, the DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.
The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure, or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

I’ll admit
I’m well adept at pointing out the very truths that make most uncomfortable. I wasnot know how
else to be. . I’ve written an immense amount of material mainly on what I’ve gone through these
last thirteen years. Though I wore quite abut before that as well, mainly about enlightenment and
how other cultures were able to gain it. That is where the filling point of the investigation began I
believe. The informant using my interests against me. A borderline pathology who daddy
happened to be the ex chief of PD. But the stalling has to shop; she had to leave and the least
thing she said is
I’m going to tell my daddy on you
I wasn’t concerned.
I knew I hadn’t dont qmuthing wrong nor planned to.’
I was wrong in my assumptions that unless they had a warrent or evidence or some form of proof
they couldn’t act. But they decided to. Stomped on my fourth and fourteenth and not once but for
fourteen days I was held against my will, a third transfer ordered . And where I would be taken
from a staye hospital it was clear I did not belong. I could tell you Amd you wouldn’t believe it.
So fine then; tell me where that third transfer would have taken me… tell me
I grew up as a tomboy, still am in many ways, with a woman for seven years and married to a man for ten. A narcissist just like dad. Soft soul at least he had. The latter. Not the sociopath a judge ordered an order again. DD as his friends eloquently called him. The surfer crew from Hampton. For three years we lived above the bagel shop right along the ocean strip, waking up every morning to the smell of surf suntan lotion breast bagels, coffee and given the situation harrassment a bail bondsman who knew me sat downstairs to protect me from when it was realky bad. 5am-12pm for two weeks straight. He likely saved my life . And must have heard what their plans had been the last time they had tried to arrest me when I had called them. When I tell them I posted what had been occurring then and previous they suddenly rake me back out the back door they had brought me in. No finger printing or any of what they generally would do/ neither the next year when I was falsely arrested and incarcerated. I was never officiated into the system and they planned that I disappear. My attorney even admitted this is what does happen. I’ll be sure to put the relevant emails in the back for fact of evidence .

Today having had the carpet pulled on the chance at work family , my health down the tubes due to severe battery. I am now severely disabled now due to misconduct on the end of those I can not prosecute. I do plan to worn again AMD if I regain my health have a child via in vitro.
Today, I am a professional in research & Development , a signature away from an official private investigators license , am a freelance content, profressional, blog, and non fiction
writer.She has been working closely with B2B and B2C businesses offering content that gains
great search engine visibility and reader attention…. Average 300k a month all together

This book will invariably surprise any reader that has not directly been through this experience
or does not work for the state, the feds or within a state or federal complex. What is ironic is I
have always hated politics to the extent that I never even picked up a newspaper or read an
article but I have learned that the less you read of the propaganda the farther away you are as
to what is actually going on . when the come to realize it is all true, The evidence in the back

disallowing any other conclusion they will most certainly be grateful for the rest them about the
actuality of our system
. If you are looking for a book where the protagonist overcomes what she should not
have have but did too after a decade find a reason to be to share it for all those whose
voice was taken and mine certainly should have been as well it is almost as though I do
not have a choice but to tell the story. And it is mine to tell. I cannot say I am not proud of
that
And when she did try to tell about the illegalities about her because she was
threatened…? ALWAYS A CONSEQUENCE. but it has been ten years . She spoke out.
The consequences were quick in coming. But at least unlike before She now has some
form of protection… people who know what is happening and did to the extent I was told
to move to a different state and not tell anyone where I am. Please let me tell you how I
got here. Let me tell you how she (I) got here And I promise you won’t be disappointed . It
is a story of one who is now living controlled by outside constructions and
circumstances she didn’t choose or want. It’s made her realize how many people feel this
way from the moment they come unto this earth
And what Of all those African Americans the prosecution deliberately withheld evidence
which would have exonerated them
I think that’s called premeditated murder. This book examines the ways in which the government systematically attempts to ensure the silence and keep the silence of those they have violated lest stories of their direct assaults be exposed as their criminality and fraudulaiance.

I’ve never been one to play victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your own intention
and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on
resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you
truth is truth
And if I could change it , I would
If I could instead assume all responsibility as opposed to simmer in an anger I’ve jeher asked for
or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.
Infinitely
let me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least .
I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.
I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years by those whom I’d
been conditioned to. Always I ended up more damaged
See
I Moved here with A Masters in Counseling from KentState, I was prepared to being an
Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area and interested in working
with me. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing to the Seacoast
Mental Health Center, a local counseling center. THree months before we were going to begin,
i was in a major car accident. But first things first.

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a
united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to
protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an
innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. In my
instance I was indicted on murder, or grand theft ardently, but on Disticution of Research
Cheimcals, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was
deemed not only a federal offense but a threat on. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a
domestic terrorist.
I will indulge the details of exactly why they not only suspected this, but had nothing else To
suspect. But the irony lies in the fact, that was the point. I had created a profile…..

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one
week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the
hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force
again without my permission.
So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations,
permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect
of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human
rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not
stand b enforce a judge. The last Tim this occurred, three officers were suspended and two
were put on leave. They are aware, I have what i need even to show they were complicit in the
2015 attempt on my life, that the state falsified the report and that more than easily proven,

would enforce, they then explain why. This would ensure many, too many, officials would be
facing federal charges, such as solicitation to murder, and well, they will do anything to avoid
this. And they did. But perhaps i was just a better strategist than the entire state and local
officers over the span of five years, or perhaps, i was meant to slide out this other side and be j
voice for those who were silenced for the same reasons they attempted to silence me. To avoid
dire consequences of their intensely illegal actions.
So what is my story
Where does it start
Where does it end
I don’t think it has ended
In the interview type form I share what happened. Also there are podcasts, for example to be on
the KC Armstrong show for a six episode series. I should have known better. After the firsr they
began going to my medical providers former to that attempting to get NO trespass orders or
ANYTHING POSSIBLE even against the well wishes of the establishment. This was toMy ex fiance went to the jail every day and pled that he never filed any domestic abuse charges on me, that I was arrested in my own home for stalking and the order he filled out was in regards to the neighbors down below. Not to mention I owned the residence I was arrested in and in which we cohabited. It is difficlt to ‘Stalk’ someone who wont let you go, is obsessive in that regards, and whom you LIVE with. How is that possible. Despite his pleas, they had finally goltten me where they needed me and as soon as I was transferred to federal tney all well knew the DOJ no longer would be involved, it would likely just be a sadistic warden. And given the insidious lengths that he had already witnessed she was spared only in accordance with some divine intervention and his will several times as well. Had it not been for my ability to surrender completely in the fact of severe amger amd amtagonism together with the will of his and my own to make right what had been so wrong. Amd all of it had been. I was after the ‘accident’, one year later afforded disablity without any application.

The answers you seek about the actual ality of the governing forces are all here I say that with full competence knowing had I not had that experienced what I did I would not apprehend the degree of insidiousness. Or lengths the federal government will go to to cover their miconduct.

Of course half of you all already are consideribg that what I write is simply too fantastical to be trye and then there are those of you who KNOW , what I say is as true as saying the sky is blye. Those who work for the state, or the federal government, attornies, those who had several times been up close and personal with state miscondict and the reason for it. Despite the fact the officers can legally lie, and despite the fact the have the least educatiom, there is not a one of them within our prison system. NOT ONE OFFICER IS WITHIN OUR PRISONS> they are immune from any type of prosecution. And many do commit offenses. NO one will tell me they do notr. Most especiallly with what I went through

You can choose to believe what I write. Look at the evidence I provide, click on the links I will ensure is on any online platform….

This hasn’t ended and it never will. I will always be considered a liability to the federal government in so much that I hold immense amount of evidence of their ongoing maleficeance, falsifications, false incarcerations, an attempt to take my voice for good.

I never wanted to tell this story, yet when I attempt to tell another, or right of something else, always I come back to what has occurred within the last 14 years of my life. His story is true as you will invariably doubt it. He had by the end of the book, I guarantee you will your skepticism will yield into belief. If this isn’t true for you I will amend this personally. Asking your doubt and providing specific evidence is needed. Years of obtaining every document related so the pervasive misconduct attempt on my life false incarcerations attempts on my freedom and to take away my voice. I have no doubt this will all sound as conspiratorial as it is true, but I cant way abpit let that stop me from telling the truth.
A perspective no longer is merely a perspective when it is backed repeatedly by evidence logic and fact. Then it becomes. Even in the eyes of the law, TRUTH. The evidence I will provide at the back of the book may be what ends up fully persuading you.

Conspiracy by definition means two or more people collaborating to achieve a certain objective in other words conspiracy so often used as a criminal term is actually a common way that people achieve things and do things productively together. We the people repeat our histories American struggle for transparency in a time of technology and systematic warfare. Ever more and increasingly we are becoming programmed to the extent we can no longer connect on a human level. I thought the science biology this would be very well known to scientists and we have to ask ourselves this is deliberate.
I speak of this because there are many things that are going on

This is a journey of discovery that will lead you into the underbelly of the government. You will learn things that you will not learn elsewhere and likely of the material will make you feel uncomfortable. This is because you will be forced to change your conditioned thinking
My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that. Because if she was credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility. Yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she?

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as opposed to redeeming the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed to ensure they are safeguarded,
While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

Ive begun this story over a thousand times, whether in attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

There is the argument why repeatedly write or what has discredited yoiZ because I’ve had to

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps
It is All? The will of God

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.
So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that need be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original * . Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write this sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be whay it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask ebery possoble question a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality . Below that is another way i wrote it up.

The international podcast I had great hesitation to be on, but who had called and asked me to do the show was named after the second episode and told to shut me down, or they would be. Why? They did not want the information I was sharing exposed. I knew this
but not the lengths they would again go to ensure my silence. If the American public were aware
of the techniques meant to disarm, disables, cripple, incriminate, defame, they would be as
horrified as I felt subjected to it,
PBN initially didn’t honor the request. They had asked me to do the Show then requested not to
expose the defamation while acting it out. The past, forever haunting me, is a part of
my story no matter how much I attempt to escape t. Once you are a liability because they acted
upon you as they did upon me in 2011, the horror does not end until you do. And so long as I I
amended, not I will speak. It is my obligation/ God’s grace. Or hate. I haven’t been able to
distinguish at times,. …but this isn’t what the story is about, It’s About a truth that brings out the
reality of the underbelly of the American government and the horrors that rest within it.

So MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO TELL…

Ive begun this story over a thousand times, whether in attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out
any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a
whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.
But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which
come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what
happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to
interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in
the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense
that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And
genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps
It is All? The will of God

Many are unaware that 1983 laws bring the potent defense of immunity to officers if it can be shown that they acted as another reasonable officer would. The second act against me was an attempt to get me on a false felony drug charge
Such a wrong gift would grant them immunity from the rights violations three weeks former in a warrantless federal investigation into what was a suspected form of terrorism.
And allow them to arrest or intend for a crime never thought of or planned to commit.
I understand why they suspected what they did but acting on information alone, even if it’s the ex-chief of police’s daughter, is not a Good idea.’ but they haven’t and won’t simply admit that. .’

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What A JUDGE SHOULD SEE ; the truth . I realize the state would prefer to shut me up already having told me No ‘social media’. Can they do that? That is very unsafe. They put me and my safety in danger. I’ll not speak of certain people but my life in general I most certainly will. Law is neither fair nor just. She has committed too many felines against me to play victim now

…when my NOW PAST attorney of six years told me MAKING WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO ME PUBLIC was likely the only means that kept me safe, free and Alive unlike the other 95%…. When I’m not threatened by an order in which I hadn’t even gone to or seen or spoken with the person more than a permissible amount given the exigent circumstances…

I’ll no longer feel the need to state what the actuality of what is happening when my attorney doesn’t betray me as she did, when my phone is no longer repeatedly hacked and my accounts aren’t either. That is what keeps me from barking on this stuff, … you…’men’ who came to my home

But THE TRUTH NOT CORRUPT LINKS WILL BE POSTED AND SCHEDULED TO POST DAILY FROM 6/15 out. From multiple accounts. Many unknown about. Freedom of speech, especially when it involves what is occurring to ME. No one can shut me down for stating my reality. Doesn’t everyone do that daily? Why are the rules different for me? Especially when not to say anything could mean my life , freedom. No more. … on here .. this site…when I go through the links I realize the extent to which the document has been hacked making me appear completely illegitimate , incompetent, borderline, not credible. All they would need me to appear in CASE A JUDGE HAPPENS RI LOOK ME UP. She won’t see the MASTERS DEGREE, the fact I went through the police academy * won’t have it. Perhaps I can’t speak of certain things and people at this time but I can certainly say I do NOT APPRECIATE MY GMAIL AND ALL DOCS ETC ASSOCIATED HACKED TEN MILLION TIMES. That’s why the posts ARE NOW IF POSSIBLE written out instead. So SUCH hacking is avoided

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My research so far on evolution of ego & consciousness

My research thus far on evolution of consciousness

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Read away if you’d like to;)

The international podcast I had great hesitation to be on, but who had called and asked me to do the show was named after the second episode and told to shut me down, or they would be. Why? They did not want the information I was sharing exposed. I knew this

I’ll throw some fun photos j took in there in my neighborhood of Ogunquit, maine

but not the lengths they would again go to ensure my silence. If the American public were aware

of the techniques meant to disarm, disable, cripple, incriminate, and defame, they would be as

horrified as I felt subjected to it,

PBN initially didn’t honor the request. They had asked me to do the Show and then requested not to

expose the defamation while acting it out. The past, forever haunting me, is a part of

my story no matter how much I attempt to escape t. Once you are a liability because they actedupon you as they did upon me in 2011, the horror does not end until you do. And so long as I

amended, not I will speak. It is my obligation/to God’s grace. Or hate. I haven’t been able to

distinguish at times, …but this isn’t what the story is about; it’s About a truth that brings out the

reality of the underbelly of the American government and the horrors within it.

So MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO TELL me…

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to documentwhat happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding outany ability for productive thought or non-reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a

whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which

comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what

happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. How self-love is taught, or nor, we learn to interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open. If we know to self-loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sensethat it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And

genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or maybe

It is All? The will of God

Many are unaware that 1983 laws bring the potent defense of immunity to officers if it shows that they acted as another reasonable officer would. The second act against me was an attempt to get me on a false felony drug charge

Such a wrong gift would grant them immunity from the rights violations three weeks former in a warrantless federal investigation into what was a suspected form of terrorism.

And allow them to arrest or intend for a crime never thought of or planned to commit.

I understand why they suspected what they did but acting on information alone, even if it’s the ex-chief of police’s daughter, is not a Good idea.’ but they haven’t and won’t simply admit that. .’

This truth I dare share is truly a journey of discovering what I never expected to find nor was ever seeking. Likely what will make you feel uncomfortable? What you will want to deny. I wasn’t and am still not allowed such luxury despite being the one injured and traumatized, disbelieved and former to it all happening, never having made a complaint, asked for help, or my word doubted. Perhaps then, because my truth wasn’t less believable than any fallacy, I could concoct, and yet still blaming the victim is what makes the world feel safe for all those ‘spectators’ out there in the world. My father from a land where to stand out meant certain death. Perhaps that’s why instead of seeking justice and being transparent regarding the actuality of the misconduct, he outright lied. Like my mother, sentenced to therapy as opposed to q felony. The judge said she was lucky. he just somehow wanted to hide me.

This book is FOR

I AM THE ONE TO WRITE IT BECAUSE it is solely due to the direct experience I had together with rampant research in the effect of it that you will Herein learn things that you will not discover elsewhere.

Exceptionally will be willing to write about what I will lay bare, my reasons applying in the fact I have already publicly exposed the truth on the advisement of the products have nothing to lose as I’ve already made it public for years then explicitly after being asked to him on an international podcast

And as in the other times, the consequences of so doing after made beyond apparent…but I’m getting ahead of myself. This discomfort you may feel as you reveal the reality behind certain veils is because you are forced to change your conditioned thinking

My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. Br of the Howard Stern show, until they were told to shut it down. They did. But hadn’t they know that? Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human, engaged in our desires, AND want more than right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do.

Why READ this Book?

I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit from or instead learn from reading this book is a firsthand account of the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new.

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

A book concerning these truths has not yet been written though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such …r

I have either stated or written about what has happened to me to keep myself safe or otherwise document it so many times I cannot tell you if I were to put all of it together it would be tens of thousands of pages and that is not a not an overestimation

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

A book concerning these truths has not yet been written though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such … my last attempt to make what happened to meet the Public was met with my providers being told falsities so I was cut off of all help when I need it most. I would love to post a list outlined by DHMC Of the disabilities but will save it for the appendix.

I hesitate to reveal such Headey information early on given its gravity but the fact of the matter is I can ever since all of this and I will in the back of the book which will evidence the major events or smaller ones as factually outlined.

PERSPECTIVE VERSUS TRUTH

A perspective is just that until it is back pervasive by evidence and logic, then even in the eyes of the law, it IS TRUTH.

A book that sells fills a gap in the market. This one does. It fills the American public in on what happens to those falsely judged in this country and the systematic way their lives are destroyed. Their person indefinitely. Defamed. Not only is the topic interesting and riveting This is A book that has a huge market at this time, given its political relevance; how it directly proves government liability and how no accountability is taken, it will be a needed shock to the American system, a true wake up call.

Perhaps we can say it is not within our government exclusively but throughout them and their constituents, the highly wealthy, the relevancy of this story politically, woven in where there once was an actual system to protect the American Citizens. Four years ago I developed an App that was subsequently patented entitled Safety for Citizens. It was developed by me for those who had been and are in the position I was and still am prone to be given I am a liability in the effect of their offense against me.

It would have allowed And will not, someone who is in the position I was in to contact one from internal investigations without alerting the very authorities which are anything from harassing to attempting to full out silencing a particular individual, namely a liability. And one becomes as such when they have been acted upon illegally by governing forces. A member of the team THEN uses the unique ID NUMBER TO ensure that citizens’ safety and an investigation BEFORE A DEPARTMENT CAN BE INFORMED. What I went through made me need to think I’m such measures

Why do I TELL!? After already being made public I have NOTHING TO LOSE

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what I have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in the effect of rampant defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, is that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as opposed to redeeming the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. In my instance, I was indicted on murder, or grand theft ardently, but on Distribution of Research Chemicals, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was deemed not only a federal offense but a threat. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a domestic terrorist.

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The international podcast I had great hesitation to be on, but who had called and asked me to do the show was named after the second episode and told to shut me down, or they would be. Why? They did not want the information I was sharing exposed. I knew this

but not the lengths they would again go to ensure my silence. If the American public were aware

of the techniques meant to disarm, disable, cripple, incriminate, and defame, they would be as

horrified as I felt subjected to it,

PBN initially didn’t honor the request. They had asked me to do the Show and then requested not to

expose the defamation while acting it out. The past, forever haunting me, is a part of

my story no matter how much I attempt to escape t. Once you are a liability because they acted

upon you as they did upon me in 2011, the horror does not end until you do. And so long as I

amended, not I will speak. It is my obligation/to God’s grace. Or hate. I haven’t been able to

distinguish at times, …but this isn’t what the story is about; it’s About a truth that brings out the

reality of the underbelly of the American government and the horrors within it.

So MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO TELL me…

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document

what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out

any ability for productive thought or non-reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a

whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which

comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what

happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self-love, we learn to

interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in

the face of open. If we know to self-loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense

that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And

genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or maybe

It is All? The will of God

Many are unaware that 1983 laws bring the potent defense of immunity to officers if it can be shown that they acted as another reasonable officer would. The second act against me was an attempt to get me on a false felony drug charge

Such a wrong gift would grant them immunity from the rights violations three weeks former in a warrantless federal investigation into what was a suspected form of terrorism.

And allow them to arrest or intend for a crime never thought of or planned to commit.

I understand why they suspected what they did but acting on information alone, even if it’s the ex-chief of police’s daughter, is not a Good idea.’ but they haven’t and won’t simply admit that. .’

This is truly a journey of discovering what I never expected to find nor was ever seeking. Likely what will make you feel uncomfortable? What you will want to deny. I wasn’t and am still not allowed such luxury despite being the one injured and traumatized, disbelieved and former to it all happening, never having made a complaint, asked for help, or my word doubted. Perhaps then, because my truth wasn’t less believable than any lie, I could concoct, and yet

This book is FOR

I AM THE ONE TO WRITE IT BECAUSE it is solely due to the direct experience I had together with rampant research in the effect of it that you will Herein learn things that you will not discover elsewhere.

Exceptionally will be willing to write about what I will lay bare, my reasons applying in the fact I have already publicly exposed the truth on the advisement of the products have nothing to lose as I’ve already made it public for years then explicitly after being asked to him on an international podcast

And as in the other times, the consequences of so doing after made beyond apparent…but I’m getting ahead of myself. This discomfort you may feel as you reveal the reality behind certain veils is because you are forced to change your conditioned thinking

My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. Br of the Howard Stern show, until they were told to shut it down. They did. But hadn’t they know that? Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human, engaged in our desires, AND want more than right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do.

Why READ this Book?

I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit from or instead learn from reading this book is a firsthand account of the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new.

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

A book concerning these truths has not yet been written though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such …r

I have either stated or written about what has happened to me to keep myself safe or otherwise document it so many times I cannot tell you if I were to put all of it together it would be tens of thousands of pages and that is not a not an overestimation

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

A book concerning these truths has not yet been written though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such … my last attempt to make what happened to meet the Public was met with my providers being told falsities so I was cut off of all help when I need it most. I would love to post a list outlined by DHMC Of the disabilities but will save it for the appendix.

I hesitate to reveal such Headey information early on given its gravity but the fact of the matter is I can ever since all of this and I will in the back of the book which will evidence the major events or smaller ones as factually outlined.

PERSPECTIVE VERSUS TRUTH

A perspective is just that until it is back pervasive by evidence and logic, then even in the eyes of the law, it IS TRUTH.

A book that sells fills a gap in the market. This one does. It fills the American public in on what happens to those falsely judged in this country and the systematic way their lives are destroyed. Their person indefinitely. Defamed. Not only is the topic interesting and riveting This is A book that has a huge market at this time, given its political relevance; how it directly proves government liability and how no accountability is taken, it will be a needed shock to the American system, a true wake up call.

Perhaps we can say it is not within our government exclusively but throughout them and their constituents, the highly wealthy, the relevancy of this story politically, woven in where there once was an actual system to protect the American Citizens. Four years ago I developed an App that was subsequently patented entitled Safety for Citizens. It was developed by me for those who had been and are in the position I was and still am prone to be given I am a liability in the effect of their offense against me.

It would have allowed And will not, someone who is in the position I was in to contact one from internal investigations without alerting the very authorities which are anything from harassing to attempting to full out silencing a particular individual, namely a liability. And one becomes as such when they have been acted upon illegally by governing forces. A member of the team THEN uses the unique ID NUMBER TO ensure that citizens’ safety and an investigation BEFORE A DEPARTMENT CAN BE INFORMED. What I went through made me need to think I’m such measures

Why do I TELL!? After already being made public I have NOTHING TO LOSE

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what I have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in the effect of rampant defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, is that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as opposed to redeeming the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. In my instance, I was indicted on murder, or grand theft ardently, but on Distribution of Research Chemicals, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was deemed not only a federal offense but a threat. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a domestic terrorist.

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I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit from or instead learn from reading this book is a firsthand account of the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new.

THIS is a journey of discovery. You will learn things that you will not discover elsewhere, and likely the material will make you feel uncomfortable. This is because you will be forced to change your conditioned thinking

My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that. Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are humans engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself, don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she? 

While the establishments that govern our country are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer over any innocent civilian. No matter if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost a clear their freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document

what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever. 

There is the argument why repeatedly write or what has discredited yoiZ because I’ve had to

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps

It is All? The will of God

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission. 

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that need be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original * . Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write this sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be whay it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask every possible question a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality . A mock interview in which the interviewer is asking every question that any amazingly adept prosecutor would ask, and be able to answer, with evidence , likely. So that is another way i wrote it up. 

But till then many times I’ve cut and paste and the results is less of the same bit more of what is NOT

This isnt a story about my life, it is a story of survival, the Police, both local and state the very ones who had engaged in the very rights violations and other illegalities that then, in my innocence, made me a liability.

If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical becuase I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A so mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight. 

And I have little protection….

Americans struggle to see reality clearly, even if it happening before their eyes they may go on to choose to deny it, in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot if reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions 

There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows jow constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ by means of hundreds of Apps which allow contact without the effort. 

I am by nature a skeptic. I have Always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when every one else

 premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.

The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure , or perhaps it truly began with mu voracious curiosity, my only offense.

Any doubt I had had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced grace that was otherworldly and beyond my own doing. I live now today with the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time had been up far more times than I am meant to be here and he Alive 

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we are able to live no other choices of my own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had Already injured me severely ? I’ve never been one to play victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your own intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you

truth is truth

And if I could change it , I would

If I could instead assume all responsibility as oppose to simmer in an anger I’ve jeher asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.

Infinitely 

et me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least . 

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.

I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years repeated b tenfold. 

They say to look and see where you are responsible. I am responsible for continuing to believe a truth that had I not spoken abojt could have landed me in a hell I could not have escaped or could have allowed this to slowly unfurl in other ways they had planned. What seemed better to me. What would I do differently. Nothing. Each move I made was out of defense in effect of on of their actions, whether a third time that week again pull over, to a full on false arrrst without telling me the charges. None .to be later declared a false incarceration and the changes that day dropped. Yet slapped back on my record three weeks later  for five years . My public defender ran from any possibility of fulfilling her role and literally ran from my fiancé asking her help than failed to answer any questions regarding why a change she witnessed he deemed false was still there? To take all employment pops etc away from me. And this was after five years of their having tried everything. Well then again the next year I’d learn everything includes murder. 

I moved back here with A Masters in Counseling from Kent State, I was prepared to begin an Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing to the Seacoast Mental Health Center, a local counseling center.  Three months before we were going to begin, i was in a major car accident following an amendment violating search and seizure. But first things first.

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I stayed on in OH TO take a few extra classes prior to moving back and also entered the pd academy for fun. Honestly. It was. Very easy. I figured, why not.

All for a reason. There is a God.

When the  indiscriminate illegal things began occurring, I learned ten times more law then i knew from the police academy thirteen years prior. And they as well. Fellow officers , to realize exactly what they were up to. 

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. And does except most don’t talk about it. I made the mistake of saying yes to being on an international six series broadcast, and decided it was time for the truth to be told. Had I known the consequences that year ago I would have said no. I had no idea how threatened they would be at my telling the truth despite the fact all they had done tI and about me was lie. Repeatedly… I’m asked on the show tell it once and the DEA.l went to my DHMC Manchester medical providers and lied knowing I have severe conditions and al due for four surgeries. They were waylaid due to the fact my heart is weak and they worry about it and the effects of anesthesia.

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

A book concerning these truths has not yet been written about though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such … my last attempt to make what happened to meet Public was met with my providers being told falsities so I was cut off of all help when I need it for surgery

I hesitate to reveal such Headey information early on given its gravity but the fact of the matter is I can ever since all of this and I will in the back of the book which will end up being hundreds of pages give and I wrote these first 200 in the last four days

I have either stated or written about what has happened to me to keep myself safe or otherwise document it so many times I cannot tell you if I were to put all of it together it would be tens of thousands of pages and that is not a not an overestimation

This isn’t a story about my life, it is a story of survival, the Police, both local and state, the very ones who had engaged in the very rights violations and other illegalities that then, in my innocence, made me a liability.

If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical because I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.

And I have little protection….

I am by nature a skeptic. I have Always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when everyone else

 premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect, I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney, the attorney general, the DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.

The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure, or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

I’ll admit 

I’m well adept at pointing out the very truths that make most uncomfortable. I wasnot know how

else to be. . I’ve written an immense amount of material mainly on what I’ve gone through these

last thirteen years. Though I wore quite abut before that as well, mainly about enlightenment and

how other cultures were able to gain it. That is where the filling point of the investigation began I

believe. The informant using my interests against me. A borderline pathology who daddy

happened to be the ex chief of PD. But the stalling has to shop; she had to leave and the least

thing she said is

I’m going to tell my daddy on you

I wasn’t concerned.

I knew I hadn’t dont qmuthing wrong nor planned to.’

I was wrong in my assumptions that unless they had a warrent or evidence or some form of proof

they couldn’t act. But they decided to. Stomped on my fourth and fourteenth and not once but for

fourteen days I was held against my will, a third transfer ordered . And where I would be taken

from a staye hospital it was clear I did not belong. I could tell you Amd you wouldn’t believe it.

So fine then; tell me where that third transfer would have taken me… tell me

I grew up as a tomboy, still am in many ways, with a woman for seven years and married to a man for ten. A narcissist just like dad. Soft soul at least he had. The latter. Not the sociopath a judge ordered an order again. DD as his friends eloquently called him. The surfer crew from Hampton. For three years we lived above the bagel shop right along the ocean strip, waking up every morning to the smell of surf suntan lotion breast bagels, coffee and given the situation harrassment a bail bondsman who knew me sat downstairs to protect me from when it was realky bad. 5am-12pm for two weeks straight. He likely saved my life . And must have heard what their plans had been the last time they had tried to arrest me when I had called them. When I tell them I posted what had been occurring then and previous they suddenly rake me back out the back door they had brought me in. No finger printing or any of what they generally would do/ neither the next year when I was falsely arrested and incarcerated. I was never officiated into the system and they planned that I disappear. My attorney even admitted this is what does happen. I’ll be sure to put the relevant emails in the back for fact of evidence .

 Today having had the carpet pulled on the chance at work family , my health down the tubes due to severe battery. I am now severely disabled now due to misconduct on the end of those I can not prosecute. I do plan to worn again AMD if I regain my health have a child via in vitro.

Today, I am a professional in research & Development , a signature away from an official private investigators license , am a freelance content, profressional, blog, and non fiction

writer.She has been working closely with B2B and B2C businesses offering content that gains

great search engine visibility and reader attention…. Average 300k a month all together 

This book will invariably surprise any reader that has not directly been through this experience

or does not work for the state, the feds or within a state or federal complex. What is ironic is I

have always hated politics to the extent that I never even picked up a newspaper or read an

article but I have learned that the less you read of the propaganda the farther away you are as

to what is actually going on . when the come to realize it is all true, The evidence in the back

disallowing any other conclusion they will most certainly be grateful for the rest them about the

actuality of our system

. If you are looking for a book where the protagonist overcomes what she should not

have have but did too after a decade find a reason to be to share it for all those whose

voice was taken and mine certainly should have been as well it is almost as though I do

not have a choice but to tell the story. And it is mine to tell. I cannot say I am not proud of

that

And when she did try to tell about the illegalities about her because she was

threatened…? ALWAYS A CONSEQUENCE. but it has been ten years . She spoke out.

The consequences were quick in coming. But at least unlike before She now has some

form of protection… people who know what is happening and did to the extent I was told

to move to a different state and not tell anyone where I am. Please let me tell you how I

got here. Let me tell you how she (I) got here And I promise you won’t be disappointed . It

is a story of one who is now living controlled by outside constructions and

circumstances she didn’t choose or want. It’s made her realize how many people feel this

way from the moment they come unto this earth

And what Of all those African Americans the prosecution deliberately withheld evidence

which would have exonerated them

I think that’s called premeditated murder. This book examines the ways in which the government systematically attempts to ensure the silence and keep the silence of those they have violated lest stories of their direct assaults be exposed as their criminality and fraudulaiance.

I’ve never been one to play victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your own intention

and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on

resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you

truth is truth

And if I could change it , I would

If I could instead assume all responsibility as opposed to simmer in an anger I’ve jeher asked for

or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.

Infinitely

let me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least .

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.

I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years by those whom I’d

been conditioned to. Always I ended up more damaged

See

I Moved here with A Masters in Counseling from KentState, I was prepared to being an

Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area and interested in working

with me. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing to the Seacoast

Mental Health Center, a local counseling center. THree months before we were going to begin,

i was in a major car accident. But first things first.

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a

united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to

protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an

innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. In my

instance I was indicted on murder, or grand theft ardently, but on Disticution of Research

Cheimcals, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was

deemed not only a federal offense but a threat on. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a

domestic terrorist.

I will indulge the details of exactly why they not only suspected this, but had nothing else To

suspect. But the irony lies in the fact, that was the point. I had created a profile…..

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one

week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the

hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force

again without my permission.

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations,

permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect

of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human

rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not

stand b enforce a judge. The last Tim this occurred, three officers were suspended and two

were put on leave. They are aware, I have what i need even to show they were complicit in the

2015 attempt on my life, that the state falsified the report and that more than easily proven,

would enforce, they then explain why. This would ensure many, too many, officials would be

facing federal charges, such as solicitation to murder, and well, they will do anything to avoid

this. And they did. But perhaps i was just a better strategist than the entire state and local

officers over the span of five years, or perhaps, i was meant to slide out this other side and be j

voice for those who were silenced for the same reasons they attempted to silence me. To avoid

dire consequences of their intensely illegal actions.

So what is my story

Where does it start

Where does it end

I don’t think it has ended

In the interview type form I share what happened. Also there are podcasts, for example to be on

the KC Armstrong show for a six episode series. I should have known better. After the firsr they

began going to my medical providers former to that attempting to get NO trespass orders or

ANYTHING POSSIBLE even against the well wishes of the establishment. This was to

    My ex fiance went to the jail every day and pled that he never filed any domestic abuse charges on me, that I was arrested in my own home for stalking and the order he filled out was in regards to the neighbors down below. Not to mention I owned the residence I was arrested in and in which we cohabited. It is difficlt to ‘Stalk’ someone who wont let you go, is obsessive in that regards, and whom you LIVE with. How is that possible. Despite his pleas, they had finally goltten me where they needed me and as soon as I was transferred to federal tney all well knew the DOJ no longer would be involved, it would likely just be a sadistic warden. And given the insidious lengths that he had already witnessed she was spared only in accordance with some divine intervention and his will several times as well. Had it not been for my ability to surrender completely in the fact of severe amger amd amtagonism together with the will of his and my own to make right what had been so wrong. Amd all of it had been. I was after the ‘accident’, one year later afforded disablity without any application. 

The answers you seek about the actual ality of the governing forces are all here I say that with full competence knowing had I not had that experienced what I did I would not apprehend the degree of insidiousness. Or lengths the federal government will go to to cover their miconduct.

Of course half of you all already are consideribg that what I write is simply too fantastical to be trye and then there are those of you who KNOW , what I say is as true as saying the sky is blye. Those who work for the state, or the federal government, attornies, those who had several times been up close and personal with state miscondict and the reason for it. Despite the fact the officers can legally lie, and despite the fact the have the least educatiom, there is not a one of them within our prison system. NOT ONE OFFICER IS WITHIN OUR PRISONS> they are immune from any type of prosecution. And many do commit offenses. NO one will tell me they do notr. Most especiallly with what I went through

You can choose to believe what I write. Look at the evidence I provide, click on the links I will ensure is on any online platform….

This hasn’t ended and it never will. I will always be considered a liability to the federal government in so much that I hold immense amount of evidence of their ongoing maleficeance, falsifications, false incarcerations, an attempt to take my voice for good. 

I never wanted to tell this story, yet when I attempt to tell another, or right of something else, always I come back to what has occurred within the last 14 years of my life. His story is true as you will invariably doubt it. He had by the end of the book, I guarantee you will your skepticism will yield into belief. If this isn’t true for you I will amend this personally. Asking your doubt and providing specific evidence is needed. Years of obtaining every document related so the pervasive misconduct attempt on my life false incarcerations attempts on my freedom and to take away my voice. I have no doubt this will all sound as conspiratorial as it is true, but I cant way abpit let that stop me from telling the truth. 

A perspective no longer is merely a perspective when it is backed repeatedly by evidence logic and fact. Then it becomes. Even in the eyes of the law, TRUTH. The evidence I will provide at the back of the book may be what ends up fully persuading you. 

Conspiracy by definition means two or more people collaborating to achieve a certain objective in other words conspiracy so often used as a criminal term is actually a common way that people achieve things and do things productively together. We the people repeat our histories American struggle for transparency in a time of technology and systematic warfare. Ever more and increasingly we are becoming programmed to the extent we can no longer connect on a human level. I thought the science biology this would be very well known to scientists and we have to ask ourselves this is deliberate. 

    I speak of this because there are many things that are going on

This is a journey of discovery  that will lead you into the underbelly of the government. You will learn things that you will not learn elsewhere and likely of the material will make you feel uncomfortable. This is because you will be forced to change your conditioned thinking

My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that. Because if she was credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility. Yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she? 

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as opposed to redeeming the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

Ive begun this story over a thousand times, whether in attempts to document

what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever. 

There is the argument why repeatedly write or what has discredited yoiZ because I’ve had to 

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps

It is All? The will of God

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission. 

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that need be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original * . Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write this sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be whay it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask ebery possoble question a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality . Below that is another way i wrote it up. 

The international podcast I had great hesitation to be on, but who had called and asked me to do the show was named after the second episode and told to shut me down, or they would be. Why? They did not want the information I was sharing exposed. I knew this 

but not the lengths they would again go to ensure my silence. If the American public were aware

of the techniques meant to disarm, disables, cripple, incriminate, defame, they would be as

horrified as I felt subjected to it,

PBN initially didn’t honor the request. They had asked me to do the Show then requested not to

expose the defamation while acting it out. The past, forever haunting me, is a part of

my story no matter how much I attempt to escape t. Once you are a liability because they acted

upon you as they did upon me in 2011, the horror does not end until you do. And so long as I I

amended, not I will speak. It is my obligation/ God’s grace. Or hate. I haven’t been able to

distinguish at times,. …but this isn’t what the story is about, It’s About a truth that brings out the

reality of the underbelly of the American government and the horrors that rest within it.

So MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO TELL…

Ive begun this story over a thousand times, whether in attempts to document

what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out

any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a

whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which

come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what

happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to

interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in

the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense

that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And

genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps

It is All? The will of God

Many are unaware that 1983 laws bring the potent defense of immunity to officers if it can be shown that they acted as another reasonable officer would. The second act against me was an attempt to get me on a false felony drug charge

Such a wrong gift would grant them immunity from the rights violations three weeks former in a warrantless federal investigation into what was a suspected form of terrorism.

And allow them to arrest or intend for a crime never thought of or planned to commit.

I understand why they suspected what they did but acting on information alone, even if it’s the ex-chief of police’s daughter, is not a Good idea.’ but they haven’t and won’t simply admit that. .’

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What?

Yeah yeah maybe ocd said it before. Well read it again! Or don’t!

Americans struggle to see reality clearly in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot of reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows how the constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ utilizing hundreds of Apps that allow contact without the effort.

I am by nature a skeptic. I have always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when everyone else
premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult before they would, as they were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.
The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure, or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

How does this apply to me? I would like to interfere with what directly occurred to me but not make it about what did.
I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit from or instead learn from reading this book is a firsthand account of the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new.

THIS is a journey of discovery. You will learn things that you will not discover elsewhere, and likely the material will make you feel uncomfortable. This is because you will be forced to change your conditioned thinking
My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that? Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are humans engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself, don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she?

While the establishments that govern our country are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer over any innocent civilian. No matter if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost a clear their freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or nonreactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

There is the argument why repeatedly write or what has discredited you because I’ve had to

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self-love, we learn to interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open. If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps
It is All? The will of God

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven years, one week, month, year at a time. Do I start in the middle and then go back to explain the hows and whys. In so many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.
So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life, and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in the effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violation and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer I not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that needs to be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original *. Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write these sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be what it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask every possible question to a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality. A mock interview in which the interviewer is asking every question that any amazingly adept prosecutor would ask, and be able to answer. So that is another way I wrote it up.
But till then many times I’ve cut and pasted and the results are less of the same bit more of what is NOT

This isn’t a story about my life, it is a story of survival, the Police, both local and state the very ones who had engaged in the very rights violations and other illegalities that then, in my innocence, made me a liability.
If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical because I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times. Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A so mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.
And I have little protection….

Americans struggle to see reality clearly, even if it happening before their eyes they may go on to choose to deny it, in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot of reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows how constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ utilizing hundreds of Apps that allow contact without the effort.

I am by nature a skeptic. I have always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when every one else
premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult before they would, as they were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.
The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure, or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

Any doubt I had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced otherworldly grace and beyond my own doing. I live now today with the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time had been up far more times than I am meant to be here and he Alive

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we can live no other choices of my own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had already injured me severely? I’ve never been one to play the victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you
truth is truth
And if I could change it, I would
If I could instead assume all responsibility as opposed to simmering in a fit of anger I’ve either asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.
Infinitely
let me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least.

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.
I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years repeated b tenfold.

They say to look and see where you are responsible. I am responsible for continuing to believe a truth that had I not spoken about could have landed me in a hell I could not have escaped or could have allowed this to slowly unfurl in other ways they had planned. What seemed better to me. What would I do differently? Nothing. Each move I made was out of defense in the effect of on of their actions, whether a third time that week again pull over, to a full-on false arrest without telling me the charges. None .to be later declared false incarceration and the changes that day dropped. Yet slapped back on my record three weeks later for five years. My public defender ran from any possibility of fulfilling her role and ran from my fiancé asking her help then failed to answer any questions regarding why a change she witnessed he deemed false was still there? To take all employment pops etc away from me. And this was after five years of their having tried everything. Well, then again the next year I’d learn everything includes murder.

I moved back here with A Masters in Counseling from Kent State, I was prepared to begin an Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing at the Seacoast Mental Health Center, a local counseling center. Three months before we were going to begin, I was in a major car accident following an amendment violating search and seizure. But first things first.

The DEA & Federal government acted without a warrant no judge’s signature and no evidence. So perhaps I should say instead it began with a young lady’s obsession with me, ultimately feeling rejected by me then saying she would tell her daddy about me. He was the ex-chief of PD in Newmarket ….

Though I’m willing to expose my truth and story, by no means is this a memoir or autobiography. It is what happened and what Americans need to be aware of. If they are not already. And most, are conditioned to believe nothing but utmost honor and truth from anyone with a badge
Some just don’t see the ironies of reveling in these
This is a book that has the information you won’t come across anywhere else. Because what I will disclose is rarely it is ever spoken of, even amidst those who engage in it on a criminal level to tye victims of their crimes
They are silenced and if not by harsher means than defamation, and complete reputation and physical annihilation, and you will have made out well. In other words, I’d you survive what I did and come out the other side free and alive, You’ve done what few have
And there was a reason. And I won’t say anything when too many before HAGE perhaps been scared. Even those officials involved in such horrific offenses rarely utter the reality of it. As though it makes it imaginary. But it’s all too real to the victims of it. The ones that won’t be believed when the state and federal authorities are setting the opposite about her.
People have been conditioned to hold great confidence in the authorities of this country. And as we have seen during times of crisis we are willing to do almost anything they tell us. They are learning what it’s taken for us to come to subject our children without reservation (COVID year T- 3) to vaccinations we would’ve never considered three years ago once that changed genotypes and that was 12 and younger would possible outcome could that have in the next generations to come but that’s not what this is about it’s not about conspiracies it’s about fact truth and what did happen.
Bigotry and covering for one another remains all too pervasive, the chief being the one mooning into any cknolintd, often themselves part of any misconduct.
This book is not based on research but is more telling of the state of the transparency or f our governing forces than any number of interviews. Because no one, most especially those in law enforcement are willing to give voice to the misconduct that goes on and further still, the fact that no officer will tell on another, no matter how grievous the offense. This gives cops total power and immunity, never having to worry about the law catching up with Them. Is this truly the way to keep them accountable. My experience told me that they were at best, confounded by what to do next fork by their blue code to the other and what was right to do & worst nothing better than animals, waiting for their next opportunity.
If you decide to read this book, believe its truth, and understand that such has happened before, such as with Thomas Drake, at least I know that was his Last name. Here you will gain Information you will not elsewhere, as most who have gone through what I have been falsely incarcerated or in some other way silenced.
The best part of this book is, it is not based on research but on personal experience and obtaining records which directly proved each of the elements I hope to finally in this book describe, SO many attempts made, only to flicker out, again and again, I am determined not to let that happen. I Will Face what I went through again alongside the very likelihood of even further disbelieve and stigmatization, But I am willing to sacrifice myself in this way as I will not allow the knowledge that I gained over the last decade and a half of my life, knowledge that the majority of Americans are completely unaware of but that I fell truly need to know. And it is not to sensationalize what I went through as so many have faced far worse. I can not even fathom being an African American in the 70s or even Now, having false evidence deliberately used against you, or evidence that would exonerate you withheld, so the sensitive was carried out, and you? Are innocent. The sentence is 25 years/ Perhaps life. This has happened an inordinate amount of times, mainly during the war on drugs, or what is more accurately, the war on blacks.

So why was I specifically targeted? I am not sure that is wholly relevant to the politics of this story,
I decide to qeirw
This is a rough draft but it’s a sample
This is a rough draft but it’s a sample

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or nonreactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self-love, we learn to interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open. If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps
It is All? The will of God

Any doubt Had had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced otherworldly grace and beyond my own doing. I live today with inner peace and the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time has been up for a while and I am still here, to times pulled through bt forces that went beyond merely me and you, Was that my perspective, No, actually by scientific weight, it Is the truth, Otherwise 99% likelihood it would have been the other way, And the words of the dead don’t write themselves. Nor the words of the damned. They don’t have the patience to uphold

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we can live no other choices of my own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had already injured me severely? I’ve never been one to play the victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you
truth is truth
And if I could change it, I would
If I could instead assume all responsibility as opposed to simmering in a fit of anger I’ve either asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.
Infinitely
let me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least.

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.
I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years by those whom I’d been conditioned. Always I ended up more damagedAmericans struggle to see reality clearly in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot of reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows how the constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ utilizing hundreds of Apps that allow contact without the effort.

I am by nature a skeptic. I have always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another and set up for chemical warfare. Oops were already there!

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They deleted my part I

The international podcast I had great hesitation to be on, but who had called and asked me to do the show was named after the second episode and told to shut me down, or they would be. Why? They did not want the information I was sharing exposed. I knew this
but not the lengths they would again go to ensure my silence. If the American public were aware
of the techniques meant to disarm, disable, cripple, incriminate, defame, they would be as
horrified as I felt subjected to it,
PBN initially didn’t honor the request. They had asked me to do the Show and then requested not to
expose the defamation while acting it out. The past, forever haunting me, is a part of
my story no matter how much I attempt to escape t. Once you are a liability because they acted
upon you as they did upon me in 2011, the horror does not end until you do. And so long as I I
amended, not I will speak. It is my obligation/to God’s grace. Or hate. I haven’t been able to
distinguish at times, …but this isn’t what the story is about; it’s About a truth that brings out the
reality of the underbelly of the American government and the horrors within it.

So MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO TELL me…

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out
any ability for productive thought or non-reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a
whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.
But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which
comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what
happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self-love, we learn to
interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in
the face of open. If we know to self-loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense
that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And
genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or maybe
It is All? The will of God

Many are unaware that 1983 laws bring the potent defense of immunity to officers if it can be shown that they acted as another reasonable officer would. The second act against me was an attempt to get me on a false felony drug charge
Such a wrong gift would grant them immunity from the rights violations three weeks former in a warrantless federal investigation into what was a suspected form of terrorism.
And allow them to arrest or intend for a crime never thought of or planned to commit.
I understand why they suspected what they did but acting on information alone, even if it’s the ex-chief of police’s daughter, is not a Good idea.’ but they haven’t and won’t simply admit that. .’

This is truly a journey of discovering what I never expected to find nor was ever seeking. Likely what will make you feel uncomfortable? What you will want to deny. I wasn’t and am still not allowed such luxury despite being the one injured and traumatized, disbelieved and former to it all happening, never having made a complaint, asked for help, or my word doubted. Perhaps then, because my truth wasn’t less believable than any lie, I could concoct, and yet
This book is FOR
I AM THE ONE TO WRITE IT BECAUSE it is solely due to the direct experience I had together with rampant research in the effect of it that you will Herein learn things that you will not discover elsewhere.
Exceptionally will be willing to write about what I will lay bare, my reasons applying in the fact I have already publicly exposed the truth on the advisement of the products have nothing to lose as I’ve already made it public for years then explicitly after being asked to him on an international podcast
And as in the other times, the consequences of so doing after made beyond apparent…but I’m getting ahead of myself. This discomfort you may feel as you reveal the reality behind certain veils is because you are forced to change your conditioned thinking
My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. Br of the Howard Stern show, until they were told to shut it down. They did. But hadn’t they known that? Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human, engaged in our desires, AND want more than right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do.

Why READ this Book?

I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit or instead learn from reading this book is a firsthand account of the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new .

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…
A book concerning these truths has not yet been written though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such …r

I have either stated or written about what has happened to me to keep myself safe or otherwise document it so many times I cannot tell you if I were to put all of it together it would be tens of thousands of pages and that is not a not an overestimation

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…
A book concerning these truths has not yet been written about though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such … my last attempt to make what happened to meet Public was met with my providers being told falsities so I was cut off of all help when I need it most.. I would love to post a list outlined by DHMC Of the disabilities but will save it for the appendix.

I hesitate to reveal such Headey information early on given its gravity but the fact of the matter is I can ever since all of this and I will in the back of the book which will evidence the major events or smaller ones as factually outlined.

PERSPECTIVE VERSUS TRUTH

A perspective is just that until it is back pervasive by evidence and logic, then even in the eyes of the law, it IT IS TRUTH.

A book that sells is one that fills a gap in the marker. This one does. It fills the American public in on what happens to those falsely judged in this country and the systematic way their lives are destroyed. Their person indefinitely . Defamed. Not only is the topic interesting anf riveting This is A book that has a huge market for at this time, given it’s political relevance; how it directly proves government liability and how no accountability is taken, it will be a needed shock to the American system, a true wake up call.

Perhaps we can say it is not within our government exclusively but throughout them and their constituents, the highly wealthy, the relevancy of this story politically, woven in where there once was an actual system to protect the American Citizens. Four years ago I developed an App which was subsequently patented entitled Safety for Citizens. It was developed by me for those who had been and are in the position I was and still am prone to be given I am a liability in effect of their offense against me.
It would have allowed And will not, someone who is in the position I was in for contact one from internal investigations without alerting the very authorities which are anything from harassing to attempting to full out silencing a particular individual, namely a liability. And one becomes as such when they have been acted upon illegally by governing forces. A member of the team THEN uses the unique ID NUMBER TO ensure that citizens safety and an investigation BEFORE A DEPARTMENT CAN BE INFORMED. What I went through made me need to think I’m such measures

Why do I TELL!? Afyer already being made public I have NOTHING TO LOSE

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what I have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampant defamation or federal incarceration. THe broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,
While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. In my instance I was indicted on murder, or grand theft ardently, but on Disticution of Research Cheimcals, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was deemed not only a federal offense but a threat on. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a domestic terrorist.

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Interview with one no one believed

This is a rough draft, but it’s a sample

The mock interview

Was she a victim subjected to the nearly implausible and has thus far survived it, or could she have for this long Attempted to fool us, cover up her foibles with stories of misconduct and what she could blame for the losses that she suffered?

Her story brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that? Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human, engaged in our desires, AND want more than right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she?

I heard her for the first time on the KC Armstrong show and didn’t believe her. She put it out there, without sensationalism, much sentiment, or passion/ it’s as though in a way she had been used up. I have been asked too many times, and it was this dichotomy between lack of need to get attention and having a story that intrigued me. Was she some master of disguise?

She had been asked to interview by Armstrong and told me that with great hesitation, she decided to Interview as a professional life coach. They had approached her initially inquiring for an interview for such an when she said she wasn’t active the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter.

I ask,

How did you get on international radio on one of the most popular podcasts in America? How does that happen? Did you contact PBN?

No. KC had messaged me months earlier about the call from PBN, but I never received it. I decided to message him only after the shows began to air. I had to Google him to familiarize myself with his person and was flattered to learn of his celebrity status.

I often don’t check my email message or voicemail, so it indeed was fate I picked up the phone. With the TBI and post-concussion little things so get overwhelmed by…. such as messages of any kind

It’s not for lack of want. It’s been stuck for so long trying everything and getting nowhere, so I am…stuck. That is why I wasn’t more in tune with his initial contact. He had been following my blog, and sorry though, radio is still government-owned. I didn’t realize this until afterward. That they had indeed taken a chance. And knew I had to get it out:

I didn’t get those messages until after they called. But in them, they asked about who I was and my story. When I told PBN that I wasn’t active in practice as a professional life coach at that time, the woman on the other end quipped that it didn’t matter, as quick as it took her to assure me, any money I spent was for press releases.

What made you decide to interview? What motivated you?

After a decade of not being believed because it simply doesn’t sound credible, someone was paying attention. Someone was watching me struggle to articulate week after week, month after month, and year after year what was happening.

How could someone so hurt Not get help>? When he was injured.

Because the stigmatization is too great, I was labeled an addict without a medical diagnosis, and for seven years, they refused to do an MRI until FORCED TO. When the damage was found, it was extensive and too late…

The elements of this sorry are many, but the storyline is all too pervasive within this country

And though I found what she addressed had happened to her unbelievable, if one doesn’t get Positive attention from something, they move on! If the information they are putting out is fraudulent, they are even HATED for it? They stop. She didn’t because, according to her? She COULDN’T. It wasn’t an option as it was the only safeguard she had against further unjust action against her. Should her last post point in the direction of them, they would hesitate to pursue anything drastic. Her note of this to the officers at certain times did change the course of their actions after whispering urgently with a Sargent before taking her back OUT of THE BACK door.

There were so many extraneous circumstances it seems

I haven’t even gotten to her story

Or instead, she has—so many times. In many different forums, she tells me much about Ali now. No feeling. She is detached. She has said it repeatedly in various media over the years, be it podcasts, blogs, documents, etc… Still, this offer to go international on every major news outlet.. well..that was an opportunity.

So the interview … in hindsight was an opportunity for you? Or given the context was it a risk?

What did you have to gain? And what did you have to lose?

Both. Exactly par for par she said deliciously. To make public what she had a decade earlier had had severe implications on her credibility and relationships.. instead of being heard concerning the warrantless search and seizure, the resulting misconduct, and the severe head injury untreated as a result.

Instead, she lost credibility and friends for it, was harassed, bullied by the PD, told to keep her mouth Shut

Why continue unless what I was writing was truly a Safeway for her to survive at this crucial time that had she not reported would have been consumed by like all the others. That’s right. Her attorney agreed. If no one knew, they could do… ANYTHING. They have, they DID AND THEY DO

WHAT I was most shocked by was how they simply throw away the innocent when they are aware they are wrong. How do they sleep at night?

What did they do?

In short? Subject me to absolute horror to start then ongoing Harassment misconduct, surveillance, false incarceration shock or pain to injuries they’re caused by their conduct

Instead of making reparations and moving on instead, they subject the person they’ve already traumatized with false arrest search and seize interrogation build, and a remake for a third transfer

I still do not know where that third transfer would have been having they not Been forced to release me and when I got the $30,000 bill I called them up five minutes later and told them I was not paying any way in hell I shouldn’t have been there and they automatically dropped it.

But I’m getting ahead of myself. No context. But at least we are somewhere near the beginning though that’s not always the best place to start…

. to absolute horror misconduct defamation, false incarceration shock or pain to injuries though caused by their conduct

I am taken with her not needing to be noted a certain way. Her effect belied someone struggling with demons large enough to snuff out any excitement of being heard by millions. Those are some pretty large demons to take away that joy, that hope that it meant people would listen to the truth, and she had wanted that. The defamation kills her. And in a forum in which she would be validated as nothing But credible after ten years.

But I learned later she knew everything came with a price, and she was so tired. She quickly explained the three levels of trauma and their effects on the body. There is distress, then distress, then complete dysfunction. Due to the complexity of her story, it wasn’t easy to decipher what caused what and when.

In such a statement, while feeling defenseless., her body broke down completely. She was in a state of trauma at KC dysfunction without the slightest acknowledgment that this was the problem for seven years.

Her medical issues are not what this piece is about but are the result of what happened and is heard; she would have the conditions she does. She now struggles with every cardiac, digestive, and other issue resulting from being in a state of dysfunctional shock for far too long. And Suddenly she became somewhat hyper defensive. I suppose perhaps because for so long her injuries had been ignored that the scar tissue that never should have been, turned into a deadly form of epilepsy that has now affected her heart and other systems due to the corrosive pharmaceutical medications she has to take. And the One that would harm her system. Her DHMC NEUROLOGIST says it wouldn’t be appealed until she was in acute organ failure. Her liver already heard the marks of someone who has a drinking problem. Except she hasn’t had a drink since she was 27. She is now, at the time of the telling of this story, of what happened to her, is 43. She appears about 10-15 younger: at times it’s somewhat eerie. She declares herself a type that never ages. Fast skin cell turnover. Hereditary she guesses. But she is rarely wrong and has she been heard regarding her injuries she wouldn’t be disabled. She would have been able to get up again as she always had and be strong: now all she had were words/ tell what happened/ for the sake of safety mainly due to empathizes: like Drake. She makes a quick note of…

Methodically, she brought up her medical chart to prove to me her conditions though I didn’t know asl/. She was wise to do this because to look at her; no one would believe she was serious. She knew even if, in the Moët, she thought someone would question it if someone did not prove it later. But before me, she didn’t show anyone, she told me. She had shut down nearly completely. Drawn into herself, she almost died from heart failure.

What could do this to a perfectly healthy 32-year-old who had just completed the peace academy after two master’s degrees out in OH at KSU, who had come in third place in the physical piece despite being a woman 32 to the boys in their early 20s? She was in unbelievable condition. Now she can’t get her heart rate up, has severe anemia, kidney and liver dysfunction, lesions, cysts, stones, need reconstructive surgery on her feet; the accident took out my back, and she developed severe temporal lobe epilepsy and atrophy along with brain bleeds due to lack of treatment.

Because, she said, the matter of factly, as though she had no more emotion to breathe any longer, no one believed her. Why? Because the officer had falsified the report. She later learned he did this so he could bring her to jail instead of admitting her to ICU. He stated she laughed at 18mpyh when she crashed at 48 mph. In a ditch., The chiropractor told their heart she was lucky she didn’t break her neck; the hoots show in the severity of the injury and how close she came to becoming a paraplegic,’

But she was told by a DHMC seven years later when she finally got an MRI, that she should not be alive. She should have died in that cell, And that night was just the beginning of her nightmare. She began with a brain suddenly stripped of all defense mechanisms, ability to think, recall or be as she had been and people blamed her character for symptoms she had no control over. Of course, at that point she was unaware that the damage was only getting worse, the scar tissue ensuring I ratio temporal l0eb epithets For seven years. The increasingly worsening symptoms of what was Not within her control and caused her immense pain, she was blamed.

In 2011, in the small née England town of Newmarket, NH, a young woman was subjected to a warrantless search and seizure based on informant misinformation alone.

We have heard too many stories of the inequality of incarceration rates when it comes to the race to go out of their way and commit immense resources without warrant arresting a wealthy white woman? When the liability on their end is so great, for a judge to hear the evidence which would prove the damage and incident as it occurred beyond a reasonable doubt would have the federal government charged with solicited attempted murder. There is no other explanation. ANd this isn’t her imaginative nor some rational yet unevidenced sensical happening after the fa, she was incarcerated the year before. That in and itself was merely ONE element to prove it did not happen as they had falsified. But they also had great motive, opportunity, concurrence, deliberately, the false incarceration Just the year before which was ruled AS FALSE BY A FEDERAL JUDGE HERSELF. All these elect together with the three years before of nothing But a pervasive pattern of harassment and misconduct on the police’s end> It was safe to say, She wasn’t jumping to any conclusions.

A perspective or opinion is that of a hypothetical character. But an idea or perspective backed by hard evidence>? That brings it into the legal arena TRUTH. And The Truth that happened was and is not what everyone else made it, but what indeed Did happen and WHY.

The Whys that have been missing have kept people skeptical as these events make no sense without context. And frankly, they do sound paranoid and conspicuous. To have a truth less believed than any lie you could tell? That wouldn’t be easy, But she refused t9 oi8e t9 be believed,

So systematically when I went to research this, the events that occurred to this young woman happened to coincide precisely with what happens whento those who end up ‘disappearing’. To where? I researched further and came across what is referred to as black sites. To my horror, I realized that given what she had been suspected of without any evidence they could have brought her to a location in or outside this country in which her amendment rights would have been suspended.

She would later tell me but show me the report, as she did with several when they were handy. The four boxes were there. That was a lie. …In the document she reviewed with me, I saw where it ordered a second transfer even AFTER it was proven the problem was not her mental status but the fact the DEA had acted rashly on a double transfer. Given she was already at NH State, the principal and only hospital for mental health commitments, and I was only designated to the first floor, so had Lots of room for crazy before going anywhere….Where would they have brought her had her fiancé not come every SINGLE day to ensure they knew they would be accountable. My parents had left the country after signing off on a prayer request. Many would later ask her how she could forgive her mother for this. She didn’t have an answer then and didn’t give me one. I didn’t push.

Eleven days after her mother did this the judge ordered her to mandated therapy and discharged me with an absolute. And DX f NOTHING. She has said so many times she wishes to write this all out, then attaches the documents she generously shared with me but for whatever reason, self-sabotage, or maybe deep down inside of her she realized that what was happening to her now and had too many times before, would have had she said anything then,

Because not that she had, having been asked to be on a show for six episodes the state and feds acted swiftly against her. I’m the ONLY way they could, by going to her medical providers and making false claims so they would for her or change her treatment to justify their misconduct. This last time, she said she knew enough it had already occurred several times, to realize the reason he cal; ed on her; as RX as he did was to ensure it appeared she was in a state of mind and on drugs she was not. In the lands of the supposed justice system legally, this would give EVIDENCE to mere OPINION or perspective and a judge reason to grant a warrant to look into it, rather than write it off as something of an unsound mind,

The reason I decided to do a story about a somewhat controversial topic and a woman of uncertain sanity, If I may. She spoke in what seemed a most honest manner,m neither attempting to embellish nor upset or angry. I wondered whether her rather robotic way of retelling the events was an indication of credibility and accuracy or not.

But as the episodes progressed I noted that not once, no matter the context or how it came up, did one detail she mentioned change. She told me how it was only after she learned that it was a warranties search as opposed to Unwarranted but she figured thirty fingers grew necessary,

She said she had hesitated to do the show, almost as though she knew if she did she would have to brace herself for another i\mpact, explaining any and every com[lait about major violations or resulting injuries were met with unwarranted outside police harassment, whether it be two weeks of being told my tail light was out, to being stopped and given a sobriety test without reason. There was a; was lash back and the more I spoke out? THe did they hear? The more they made her pay. I realized as she spoke, her having to take sips of water and catch her breath every so often, that she reminded me of an older adult. One who appeared about 25 despite being 43. So I understood when she said that more disabling than her seven conditions over the past seven years was that she was treated as though she wasn’t telling the truth when she was. NO matter what. She had no reason to lie.

She told me for seven years she had tried to get medical help for a severe head injury obtained three weeks after she was released from her elven day stint at NH state for the search and seizure. They’d found nothing in, nor in her apartment. Because she had no association with the activity they had associated her with. Though she understood why they may have thought w2at they did. It didn’t help that she tried to explain, however, because it was what got her committed for the interrogation. The admission of knowledge of what they were referring to.

She thought she was being So wise

This was because the pervasive pattern of abuse she suffered in the effect of what happened to her, continues. People are aware of the 70s when it was routine to withhold evidence that would have exonerated death row inmates?

The here oremeidcaitrf murder and happened all the timeS as do Narendra Still where people go to jail for life when they didn’t do The tie

Of course, this galena to African Americans at a disproportionately erroneous rate relative to Caucasians equally is the case. But pardon my objective factual disruptions. This story isn’t about key or them but I figure it may give some context. Or at the very least remind The American public that the system has been corrupt for a very long time.

But here’s the odd thingS the woman I interview is neither black ke poor: she is white, some would say wealthy, highly educated, and an internship away from an MLADC licensure. To target this woman? The DEA, state, and Feds had to be SURE of what they suspected which she alleged could have only been one thing judging from the interrogation and the fact she engaged in nothing but research writing biking, and reading …

. It wasn’t a one-stop-shop and perhaps by airing the truth of her story, others will reveal their love. Maybe they do not have the case she does regarding the DEA and state that make her the liability she is today. But she had planned to move on until this last year they made it clear, they wouldn’t allow it. And so she seeks formal closure after a decade of the false incarnations, charges, entrapments, even a solicited attempt on her life. Something I never would have believed if she hasn’t shown me the evidence which made it so I wasn’t able not to think what I like many before me; chose not to because it’s far easier to believe what we are do dbtooned to than know the world is not the safe bubble we’ve all made it out to be.

At least not to those whose truths threaten to shed a light on the myth of governmental infallibility / also it’s becoming increasingly known that court isn’t equivalent to justice. If anything it’s become an Avenue to incarcerate those we choose. Or those they choose. The laws, C the statute, the judges, and all the variability in between make it so any judge can impose any sentence for any crime these days. As easy as it is to set someone up for life in jail. Three incidents in which you touched or assaulted someone whether you did or didn’t if they want you charged

Her example was telling. She was arrested in her own home for stalking. She explained to S how they accomplished this?

And how fate intervened to save her from a fraudulent transfer to federal where she would become a number with another ‘crazy story’.

How did she have parents who said… when the jail called after a life of As good to have in class and not one issue all her life?

There is no hierarchy of humanity. There isn’t even oneself or one way to be, or even two, but many. As many as there are yous and me. As many as there are she’s. And what she went through split her in half in more ways than one. She became like a walking slogan for

‘Why stay silent after you’ve been f**** with by the government’

Literally. The before and after were shocking and permeating from every cell: she wasn’t the same person and yet she was. Constitutionally and psychologically. So should we ask to whom I will be speaking that is irrelevant? What is? Is her story and the need for those in similar situations to know others have been there and speak out.

I asked her to speak after hearing her on a five-part podcast series with KC Armstrong…

Repeated traumas crashed the identity She had become comprised of through genetics upbringing and integrated experiences and severe brain damage had been shattered she said

But it wasn’t in effect Igbo longer knowing who she was but the reflection of others in which she lost herself over a long slow period, a painful AND perhaps cce pattern of devaluation

And when that evolution is based on assumptions and lies, OneNote is still reflected as they are not, and it gets to them. It takes character to realize you aren’t who others have made you

But that took ten years of shock, realities too quickly denied in favor of believing the world was still as safe as it was

As it was before what, I asked

It wasn’t a simple question

Before she realized the government would take out its people, even learning their innocence if their liability were involved.

Has it been an instance or two? Perhaps we could call her a conspirator but it was over ten years since she began to research the systematic way the givers take liabilities out, Silencing them. Offers state employees big bucks to whitewash the likes of someone who can prove a federal case against the federal, government like solitude attempted murder, they want HER GONE. Snuffed out. For good. It’s happened before and is happening now yet few weeks are talking about it,

any attempt to tell s met with surveillance or harassment eventually the person gives up. Worn Down, Bug what they can control and didn’t predict? Was she being asked to be on a radio show that would broadcasting like it to millions; flattered she said yes to this initiative

If one physical constitution including the structure of the brain is no longer the same is that person the same

She says she struggled with this question indefinitely on some existential level until the answer stood starkly before her. She wasn’t her physical being. As Descartes would himself have had air, I’m more composed of my spirit in identification than my body as it is the ‘thing’ that has been passed on, that which has survived. And If such things are not authentic I decided whether she was or was not the same anymore didn’t matter as nothing would to her in a world without God

A co-founding statement coming from someone with a story that would only push someone no longer to believe than to believe more. But it was in the details she says, not the larger picture that was always going to be embedded within her dates that she could not escape GodV allowed her to survive what those of the state and DES, those who tried to take her life, were confounded by.

When I heard of this woman’s story I thought to interview her if only to see how I could catch her in lies or perhaps reveal a path to truth. She had been online for years attempting t9 tell what had happened to her. If she was sensat9ojao9sa9jyntuej what she was saying needed not only to be heard. She needed to know she was not alone and that someone Heard her and related to what happened, We all have a breaking point and it was clear she was close to hers.,

Where, when why, how, whom, what

Who sky

What WARRANTLESS search and seizure led to a subsequent ongoing pattern of abuse and misconducts and abuse

Where in the state of NH, mainly Portsmouth

Why; due to suspicions raised by a young woman I told to leave me alone

When in 2011 until today

In= the state of NH, in the state of NH, Sky was subjected to a WARRANTLESS search and seizure that led to a pervasive pattern of misconduct in the form of NH, due to suspicions from 2011 until today

I heard her on the KC Armstrong show 8in which she did a five-part series and briefly went over what happened to her., But She skimmed quite a bit and much of it wasn’t clear. I wanted to learn whether she was telling the truth

I didn’t even know what I liked to do until I was able to do one thing at a time;l Before then I was racing from one thing to another. When I was put on ADHD medication And could focus those interests of hers became something more easily read about,., and the more she read about what she was interested in? The more she became curious.

Granted before being able to focus she would have not lost interest but lost the ability to pursue the appeal further than her focus of the hour or day would allow her. Now?> she confessed, she was able to lean in, no matter where she dropped off. And she found herself winding into information on the internet she may not have been supposed to need privy to.

But this isn’t about her interests, This is about what happened to her. It made her realize she wasn’t as she had constructed. But that those around her determined more her composition. It was only after some time she realized she was the same person as the one who had become devalued over the last five years due to circuit stages beyond her control. But those which appeared to others as a criminal mark on her person that was unforgivable. What she had been charged within her own home with an order placed on the neighbors below, was a mark on her character, to which she would have preferred murder.

She confessed to an obsession in high school with a man who represented a father figure Ana gave her what she needed. A man she subsequently had an affair with and while he could move on after his children of her same age found out, she found it mr9oe difficult. Her only mistake. Two iPhone calls. The last thing she did was drive by or to his place. The last instinct she had when she was wound up with this one person was to stalk him. A fruitless endeavor that would get one nowhere when it came to reconciliation or getting back together in some way with a person you love. So to be charged with this and have others come to know this though she was never asked about it so she could never explain it.

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After a year at home following a failed marriage, a new town, and an ironically genuine need to get an order on the other party whom it was alleged put me in prison in 2014. She mentions an accident the following year though I’m certain he is confused Guinean she has already mentioned one in 2011. The one obtained due to a falsified police report and not being in ICU where she by law belonged had the officer put the correct speed of 45…

But why would he do this? Because he had been solicited, she said., Now I was getting skeptical > The state is getting involved. I was on board with the false charges but,.,I decided to listen. SHe seems unexcitable as though it is an unpleasant task to tell what happened. Again, That is what intrigues me I suppose. The combination of her lack of sensationalism together with what sounds like an impossible story.

But the things we do not hear of often nor hear of often do sound unreasonable or impossible just like new hypotheses formulated after we have already become set on a former one. It’s far easier to keep believing what we know, so we don’t have to change anything, so we can still stay comfortable and safe. I don’t think she had that option. She had to reconcile what was happening to her, as the facts were indisputable. After each of us incident, her then-fiancé insisted they obtain the report, Four boxes of original pieces, not reduced falsified, or omitted entirely. That is evidence most never have at the end of a decade of what she alleges she went through the

She begins, It happens. And I suppose it does.

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what I have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in the effect of rampant defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, is that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as opposed to redeeming the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document

what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or non-reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

But isn’t that what life is? A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self-love, we learn to interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections to be inevitable in the face of openness. If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. There are many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps

Is that All? The will of God

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven years, one week, month, year at a time. Do I start in the middle and then go back to explain the hows and whys. In so many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life, and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in the effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violation and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer I not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up other things that need to be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original *. Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write these sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be what it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask every possible question to a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality. Below is another way I wrote it up.

The last time this occurred, three officers were suspended and two were put on leave. They are aware, that I have what I need even to show they were complicit in the 2015 attempt on my life, that the state falsified the report, and that more than easily proven, would enforce, they then explain why. This would ensure many, too many, officials would be facing federal charges, such as solicitation to murder, and well, they will do anything to avoid this. And they did. But perhaps I was just a better strategist than the entire state and local officers over five years, or perhaps, I was meant to slide out this other side and be j voice for those who were silenced for the same reasons they attempted to silence me. To avoid dire consequences of their intensely illegal actions.

So what is my story

Where does it start

Where does it end

I don’t think it has ended. And I’m not sure it ever will. Just last week I found the whole bolt system removed from the rear wheel of the bike that I rider ? All the time I asked the shop manager if she was certain there was no way the bolt could have been removed or fallen out due to natural causes. Or the fact I’ve been rear-ended five times in the last year and my number just got taken off. The fact that each of these reports was falsified and I made it clear I could prove irZ the fact I wasn’t given a ticket or court date or had no insurance agent call me. Certainly, that didn’t scream GUILT. And after the officer spoke with the woman who had slammed me for a good hour he would ask for my license number no statement and take off. Always I knew to pull over because even if it isn’t your fault? It can still count as a hit and run if the other pulls off and ‘says’ you did as well. Given what was alleged in Hampton thru were sure they’d be permitted to say it was assumed I fled on purpose. I never did. Not once. Not even when After slammed I let THEM GO. No reason for them to call except for entrapments. They were all immigrants. Cops say green card. They do whatever they say.

Any doubt I had had in greater being evaporated the more I experienced the otherworldly grace and beyond my own doing. I live now today with the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time had been up far more times than I am meant to be here and he Alive

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we can live with no other choices of our own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had already injured me severely? I’ve never been one to play the victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you

truth is truth

And if I could change it, I would

If I could instead assume all responsibility as opposed to simmering in anger I’ve either asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.

Infinitely

Let me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least.

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.

I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years by those I didn’t know than those m whom I’d been conditioned to trust then worse the former and loved ones unable to understand I’m not my inability to be who I was. Unless you treat me like I am. I react to being abused. Treated less than I was. Stupid. When I’ve gained wisdom and knowledge no education could have given me. No matter how hard I tried I Always I ended up more damaged

They say to look and see where you are responsible. I am responsible for continuing to believe a truth that had I not spoken about could have landed me in a hell I could not have escaped or could have allowed this to slowly unfurl in other ways they had planned. What seemed better to me. What would I do differently? Nothing. Each move I made was out of defense in the effect of one of their actions, whether a third time that week again pulled over, to a full-on false arrest without telling me the charges. None later declared false incarceration and the changes that day dropped. Yet slapped back on my record three weeks later for five years. My public defender ran from any possibility of fulfilling her role and ran from my fiancé asking her help then failed to answer any questions regarding why a change she witnessed he deemed false was still there? To take all employment pops etc away from me. And this was after five years of their having tried everything. Well, then again the next year I’d learn everything includes murder.

I moved back here with A Masters in Counseling from KentState, I was prepared to begin an Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing at the Seacoast Mental Health Center, a local counseling center. Three months before we were going to begin, I was in a major car accident following an amendment violating search and seizure. But first things first.

I stayed on in OH TO take a few extra classes before moving back and also entered the PD academy for fun. Honestly. It was. Very easy. I figured, why not.

All for a reason. There is a God.

When the indiscriminate illegal things began occurring, I learned ten times more laws than I knew from the police academy thirteen years prior. And they as well. Fellow officers, to realize exactly what they were up to.

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what I have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in the effect of rampant defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, is that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as opposed to redeeming the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. And most don’t talk about it. I made the mistake of saying yes to being on an international six-series broadcast and decided it was time for the truth to be told. Had I known the consequences that year ago I would have said no. I had no idea how threatened they would be at my telling the truth despite the fact all they had done about me was a lie. Repeatedly… I’m asked on the show to tell it once and the DEA.l went to my DHMC Manchester medical providers and lied knowing I have severe conditions and all due for four surgeries. They were waylaid due to the fact my heart is weak and they worry about it and the effects of anesthesia.

But that is closer to now. Maybe I should go back a bit…

I met a man who would not go away around this time who later became my fiancé. Or perhaps not that much later. Mere months he proposed and at 33, fond of this man who truly was an anomaly but one I (correctly) had surmised was also a narcissist. As long as I brought my steady steely self to the table, huge was the warm glue I hadn’t broken enough for. I allowed him to stick and spread despite the fact none of my family or friends were fond of him and I was plenty aware of the stereotypical signs Not to end up with a particular person. I ignored all the posts and went full speed ahead, as though some sense of adolescent immunity had finally caught up with me and I had no fear. I would learn a lot about fear in the coming years, far more than I had experienced in a lifetime.

learning even more law than I knew from the police academy thirteen years power, to realize exactly what they were up to.

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what I have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in the effect of rampant defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, is that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as opposed to redeeming the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

Far more than I ever will experience again. Unless I am placed in isolation without rhyme or reason again, never told when I will be released. or in a full spin on the highway after being hit at 95mph, I do not believe I will ever be as afraid again…But at that time, I hadn’t a notion on any conscious level my whole life would change completely, except for that little voice inside of me Knowing, Certain, that I could not get away with doing what I was doing without some sort of ramification. That I couldn’t possibly be so smart as to be the first one to have thought of such a system for obtaining free samples of what I had researched extensively. Agents that allowed one to tap into more than just that 3% of our brain. My intention was good and I was hurting no one. Not even myself, part of the plan ensuring all samples would be clean as any district out local or overseas would be certain to send pure, as I would promise to buy in bulk if we tested it as such. Had I planned to purchase large quantities, had I Done So, After my primary Arrest for being an alleged domestic terrorist, they acted without evidence, a judge’s signature, or a warrant. In a sense, these things, were they mistaken, As they Would then be guilty of severe human rights violations. Most especially the way I was handled, interrogated, and held for element days while they tore up my apartment. They found nothing. because there was nothing to find, and the head Agent, Garry Decker (who subsequently took over the property I lived on to dig up the entire yard,). Was furious. On my back from the bathroom, arms and feet cuffed themselves then tougher, I saw him throw a [plastic cup against the wall, unaware I was passing. God DAMMIT he shouted. They had nothing on me and he hadn’t expected this,, He was aware unless they FOUND something or were able within three years to charge me with a felony drug crime, He would be the one who may not walk free. NOT ME. But I didn’t know all this then.

It took years of reading original reports obtained, putting things together, officer testimony itself and, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was deemed not only a federal offense but a threat. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a domestic terrorist.

I will indulge the details of exactly why they not only suspected this but had nothing else To suspect. But the irony lies in the fact, that was the point. I had created a profile…..

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven years, one week, month, year at a time. Do I start in the middle and then go back to explain the hows and whys. In so many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life, and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in the effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violation and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer I not stand b enforce a judge. The last time this occurred, three officers were suspended and two were put on leave. They are aware, that I have what I need even to show they were complicit in the 2015 attempt on my life, that the state falsified the report, and that more than easily proven, would enforce it, they then explain why. This would ensure many, too many, officials would be facing federal charges, such as solicitation to murder, and well, they will do anything to avoid this. And they did. But perhaps I was just a better strategist than the entire state and local officers over five years, or perhaps, I was meant to slide out this other side and be j voice for those who were silenced for the same reasons they attempted to silence me. To avoid dire consequences of their intensely illegal actions.

So what is my story

Where does it start

Where does it end

I don’t think it has ended. And I’m not sure it ever will. Just last week I found the whole bolt system removed from the rear wheel of the bike that I ride? All the time I asked the shop manager if she was certain there was no way the bolt could have been removed or fallen out due to natural causes or wear and tear

Does he say? No way

It was manually removed

So why, eight years after the unwarranted arrest of my person for what I did not do, do I still suspect that they would rather I will be incriminated. As of 2021, since I now have medical evidence of the atrophy which was experienced in the Brentwood jail cell, the arresting officer having lied on the report to ensure I wasn’t admitted for emergency treatment / and that literally nearly cost me my life and now, eight years later I have the medical evidence I could get for years. No one believed me. Not until they had to and that took a very very long time. This story will be written in spurts and pieces slowly then stitched together to shape some cohesive formation for the masses to better understand that the system isn’t what they had perhaps thought, and as opposed to a protector, is our main source of disease, enemy and conflict. Whether we see it or not, agents used in the past were mainly invisible to kill the lots, why not slowly but

Surely. Unless we have already solved the issue of why we have become so diseased. And we are far from that

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in case ppl did not formerly see this link;) here is it again

Armstrong shows

I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believed they may learn. Especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit or rather learn from reading this book is a firsthand account about the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new .

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

A book concerning these truths has not yet been written about though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such … my last attempt to make what happened to meet Public was met with my providers being told falsities so I was cut off of all help when I need it for surgery

I hesitate to reveal such Headey information early on given its gravity but the fact of the matter is I can ever since all of this and I will in the back of the book which will end up being hundreds of pages give and I wrote these first 200 in the last four days

I have either stated or written about what has happened to me to keep myself safe or otherwise document it so many times I cannot tell you if I were to put all of it together it would be tens of thousands of pages and that is not a not an overestimation

A book that has a huge market for at this time, given it’s political relevance; how it directly proves government liability and how no accountability is taken, it will be a needed shock to the American system, a true wake up call.

Perhaps we can say it is not within our government exclusively but throughout them and their constituents, the highly wealthy, the relevancy of this story politically, woven in where there once was an actual system to protect the American Citizens. Four years ago I developed an App which was subsequently patented entitled Safety for Citizens. It was developed by me for those who had been and are in the position I was and still am prone to be given I am a liability in effect of their offense against me.

It would have allowed And will not, someone who is in the position I was in for contact one from internal investigations without alerting the very authorities which are anything from harassing to attempting to full out silencing a particular individual, namely a liability. And one becomes as such when they have been acted upon illegally by governing forces. A member of the team THEN uses the unique ID NUMBER TO ensure that citizens safety and an investigation BEFORE A DEPARTMENT CAN BE INFORMED. What I went through made me need to think I’m such measures

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what I have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampant defamation or federal incarceration. THe broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. In my instance I was indicted on murder, or grand theft ardently, but on Disticution of Research Cheimcals, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was deemed not only a federal offense but a threat on. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a domestic terrorist.

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what I have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampant defamation or federal incarceration. THe broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. In my instance I was indicted on murder, or grand theft ardently, but on Disticution of Research Cheimcals, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was deemed not only a federal offense but a threat on. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a domestic terrorist.

This isn’t a story about my life, it is a story of survival, the Police, both local and state, the very ones who had engaged in the very rights violations and other illegalities that then, in my innocence, made me a liability.

If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical because I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.

And I have little protection….

I am by nature a skeptic. I have Always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when everyone else

premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect , I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney, the attorney general, the DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.

The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure , or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

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EVO OF CONSCIOUSNESS

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From PBN

On Fri, Apr 30, 2021 at 5:39 PM Podcast Business News Group <support@pbnpodcasts.com> wrote:

Julie,

You did a great job with your shows. You were able to help others with your story because some people aren’t brave enough to even tell their story but you are Julie. I will be in touch with you about your shows once I get the stats. 

Best Regards,

Ashley Stevens Administration Department

The Podcast Business News Network

(631) 730-7350

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My license

On Fri, Apr 30, 2021 at 5:20 PM Julia Assmus <juliaskygame@gmail.com> wrote:

To help your show

For me

It means more danger

Less protection

All financial instability 

No problem. 

Gpa so could help ge try story out to help others to my detriment 

I’m sure any one would do that to only be undermined and shit on

I hope that’s not what I’m on here for…

— 

Special Agent Assmus

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Text to Ex

You know whether or not how I feel in regard to certain issues apply to your character or if your denials are due to compulsive defensive behavior from trauma with your dad. If so that needs to he acknowledged instead of replayed to be denied and the person who knew and would have still seen you through , still had you unable to take that next step which would make your life so much easier…I get defensive because of being disbelieved what I was NOT lying about and was costing me everything and my health and life. That is not lying about what you have done and costs everyone else everything.

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Part I again

Work in progress. All together I have over 600 pages. Craziness right now

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Try this

Try this one

Or this?

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This should help. Pushing this along

So by the end of the years I have a truly edited, COHESIVE piece with the evidence in the back so no word of mine can be denied. As much as people would prefer to. I didn’t have the luxury. And was in the middle of hell I ONLY WANTED FO DENY BUT WOULD have meant my freedom or life if I hadn’t been on my guard and acknowledging the actuality of what was going happening.!It is not as though it was what j preferred. To living my life and having my own choices? J think anyone would have chosen that.

Attempts to clarify.

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truth

Truth truth truth

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You know the drill. If link doesn’t directly lead, please cut and paste into browser. I made access public

https://docs.google.com/file/d/1rTMToTuUePxTRztlV7YqWb-VtDx0zf-q/edit?usp=docslist_api&filetype=msword

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So this is what we try next if the other didn’t work. Because I will make it happen. Now 263pages

UNRESTRICTED

UnRestricted: I won’t give up until it works by link directly but can always cut and paste below into browser

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1FnuGBetbO1QeNJMiaHY1Zf5kEet6WzVnDaCYVH-RWe4/edit

docs.google.com/file/d/1rTMToTuUePxTRztlV7YqWb-VtDx0zf-q/edit

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I haven’t been f***** with you

Just realized other link obtained wasn’t the one that the public had access to….THIS LINK?Will lead you further than you may think. The next piece, now that I know how to share my files publicly, is shorter more concise in many ways like a query. More wo than this. This is the whole deal. Repeated. Many times. Uneducated or read over completely but it’s out there in some coherent form

And if it has not opened up for you yet PLEASE CUT AND COPY THIS LINK INTO YOUR BROWSER AND IT SHOULD WORK. I think even if you don’t use the same way to document. See below for what to cut and paste

IT SHOULD WORK AS I HAGE REMOVED RESTICTIONS SO IF YOU DONT HAVE Google DRIVE account you may have to cut and paste

https://docs.google.com/file/d/1rTMToTuUePxTRztlV7YqWb-VtDx0zf-q/edit?usp=docslist_api&filetype=msword

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247 pages of it. Figured out I had to UNRESTRICT access to Anyone as opposed to just myself.

This Should open for anyone with the link. IF it asks to open in drive say NO AND it’ll open in your browser. All 257 pages. Unedited

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To ADD…

TO ADD TO MAIN BODY OF WRITING

I had no idea the insidious lengths the government will go to ensure they appear always in control, even when they’ve lost control of it completely . Because they forgot something

When I leave this earth? Is not up to them

It is up to God.

Were it any other way statistically speaking given how many close calls there were, I WOULD BE. AMD could go any day now . This sense of sudden urgency to ensure the whole truth and nothing but so help me God is out there before I go

So if anything I can be a voice to those who are in the dark of their cells, knowing they should not be there, not by character nor law. They are aware the same people who make his life miserable everyday are the SAME ONES RESPONSIBLE for putting him away? And we wondered why all the race riots in the 70s when putting away African Americans when the DA withheld evidence which would hahe exonerated them. Knowingly sending an innocent to death row . The last time I checked thars premeditated murder. Bit so long as THE FEDS OE DEA OR POLICE do it ; it’s ok. We forget we require the least education requirements from those we hand over all the power and guns to.

Any questions!

I do

Though I’m willing to expose my own truth and story, by no means is this a memoir or autobiography. It is what happened and what Americans need to be aware of. If they are not already. And most, conditioned to believe nothing but utmost honor and truth from anyone with a badge 

Some just don’t see how conditioned they have become. No cop is ever imprisoned thereby giving the ILLUSION they do no crime. It is well coming to light that cops committ a lot of it. Far too much. There is motive. Opportunity, the knowledge their Ass is covered. It would be like being an alcoholic but without the hangovers. Immunity from negative consequences of bad behavior only leads to more but true correction of it, the front they’ve worked so hard to create, would crumble

being an alcoholic but without the hangovers. Immunity from negative consequences of bad behavior only leads to more but true correction of it, wpuld crimble the front they’ve worked so hard to create

This is a book that has information you won’t come across anywhere else. Because what I will disclose is rarely it is ever spoken of, even amidst those who engage in it on a criminal level to tye victims of their crimesZ

They are silencedZ and if not by harsher means than defamation, and complete reputation and physical annihilation, and you will have made out well. In other words I’d you survive what I did and come out the other side free and alive, Youve did what few have

And there was a justification. And I won’t say nothing when too many before have perhaps been scared. Even those officials involved in such horrific offenses rarely utter of the reality of it. As though it makes it imaginary. But it’s all too real to the victims of it. The ones that wo t be believed when the state and federal authorities are setting the opposite about her.

People fully conditioned to have confidence in the authorities when it’s a fact they are legally allowed to lie. Bigotry and covering for one another remains all too pervasive , the chief being the one mooning into any cknolintd, often themselves apart of any misconduct. 

This book is not based on research but is more telling of the state of the transparency or f our governing forces than any number of interviews. Because no one, most especially those in law enforcement are willing to give voice to the misconduct that goes on and further still, the fact that no officer will tell on another, no matter how grievous the offense. This gives cops total power and immunity, never having to worry about the law catching up with Them. Is this truly the way to keep them accountable. My experience told me that they were at best, confounded by what to do next fork by their blue code to the other and what was right to do & worst nothing better than animals , waiting for their next opportunity.

If you decide to read this book, believe its truth, and understand that such has happened before, such as with Thomas Drake, at least I know that was his Last name. Here you will gain Information you will not elsewhere, as most who have gone through what I have been falsely incarcerated or in some other way silenced.

The best part of this book is, it is not based on research but personal experience and obtaining records which directly proved each of the elements I hope to finally in this book describe, SO many attempts made, only to flicker out, again and again, I am determined not to let that happen. I Will Face what I went through again alongside the very likelihood of even further disbelieve and stigmatization, But I am I am willing to sacrifice myself in this way as I will not allow the knowledge that I gained over the last deacde and a half of my life, knowledge that the majority of Americans are completely unware of but tat I fell truly need to know. And it is not to sensationalize what I went through as so many have faced far far worse. I can not even fathom being an african american in the 70s or even Now, having false evidence delinerately used against you, or evidence that would exonerate you withheld, so the sentive was carried out, and you? Are innocent. The sentence is 25 years/ Perhaps life. This has happened an inordinate amount of times, mainly dyring the war on drugs, or what is moreo accurately,

perspective is just that until it is backed up by evidence & logical fact, then, even in the eyes of tur law it is no longer a subjective perspective but fact. Truth.

What happened to me can be substantiated by four boxes of documentation. What Never would not could have exited exigency of the circumstances considering in my 32 years prior I’d done nothing but try As, work, get a 4.0 from college through two full time Master degrees AJD the police academy. Mainly for sake of curiosity but all for a reason. No! 

What should he known independent of the political topic or culture this paper will create; I think it should be noted, is my disposition prior the initial incident not one another couod beijg ecen unkind let alone actions or intentions out of. Yet afyer given the severity nature and lack of treatment of the injury; I was left witu a brain reduced to making it near impossible to control the reptilian part of my brain from constantly hujackijg the frontal cortex. A result all of negligence and misconduct I hage TBI, post concussive syndrome, am severely anemic; liver and kidney problems 

This became a further disabling factor in my desperate attempts to get help, when I learned the morbidity of the damage done, thouvfg there was no formal diagnosis until y years after the fact. 

I knew nothing of struggle humility or pain until these last thirteen years and its changed my outlook on life, but more importantly, my priorities. And to no longer have any desire to be apart or join the rat race is as much of a relief as a pattern ive followed my whole life. Ive always veeb a leader, That uiethe simple truth

1983 would directly prove even with immunity such a potent defense for officers, not to be applicatble for the officer whom acted against me. And I can prove that beyond ANY reasonable doubt. Most certainly because I have the original warrants which prove on three occasions he tried to finish what he started on three occasions and was turned away by the newmarket PD. Had he acted like a reasonable officer> The others wouldnt have declined his warrant, each signed bty a justice of the peace. But See, they knew he was dirty. And though they were too, they didnt want any more grimed on them now that they wre aware of the reality, 

In the middle of this nightmare beginning 13 ironically …..

After being arrested in my own home in effect of an order my ex husband put on the downstairs neighbors After we agreed upon it, it was subsequently used against me: the state police ready to Pounce and claim me apart of the tenancy downstairs when I owned the entire house. I could not be stalking the person I lived with. The person who tried every day to get me out of jail and was told on the fifth.

If you continue trying to get her out whay will happen to her will happen to you

It was as succinct it was ominous in part assured by the lack of particulars and the officer identifying himself to Doug in amy way. The encounter WASNT documented and I am sure he irked his body cam off under the guise of a ‘bathroom break’. And he took a good shit. God asshole. 

List of major ROADSBLOCKS

2011: the initial warrantless search and seizure; the accident three weeks later

2014; false incarceration; go into gritty details. People want to know what it’s like

2015; after the incarceration was officially ruled false by a judge and subsequently slapped back on my record ; was literally hit at 95mph by a black SUV without his headlights 

2017: had to get order on Doug; pd escort; left in secret; he has breakdown. Went to ER

2020d Hampton Nh; attempt to get my license since attacks on freedom and life failed and would be obvious if attempted again 2021:year of annulment; the year it was finally due for a judge to get this done. My attorney has been corrupt the whole time. Never even told me about the option to sign a petition five years earlier 

Getting rear ended four times in an attempt to get my license 

Others and details

Etc 

Examples I wrote ; duh

My first cell mate Penny? Cool. Odd. Demanding the phone ten times a day. 

My fate which had been left in the hands of the feds DEA state and local pd all whom were genuinely corrupt the rest sorely misinformed in effect of it. Ironically encounters with them were often to my benefit blowing the stereotype they’d cast aside and out the window: there was nothing they could do to provoke. It wasn’t personal and it was as though the animal in me; so weary from an ongoing struggle; was too tired to fight anyhow. It was easier to just put my head down AJD he so compliant they couldn’t have said anything to provoke me. Nothing. That was all they needed. A Reaction In response could be called assault on an officer even if you do not touch him; or resistance or even obstruction. If it were not for body came there is no question I would be dead. 

to the effect the only one I can reach out to for help is attorney general

Ir was so wide reaching every single attorney has been corrupt as opposed to derails the misconduct 

Are you a boy or a girl? She asked before they even opened the cell door

Girl I said impartially.

She came in spitting vulgaritiesof ebery sorr ar the guards…

She sits and begins to inspect me before proceeding…she gets up and begins walking around. 

Breakfast was just served. The smell of the food alone is horrific. I literally haven’t eaten in 11 days & was told on the 12th after my HR was taken I was going into shock.. this was the only reason they didn’t proceed with the transfer 

Me dead on their time would have made me a further liability. They didn’t care about me. But before the release they had to try.

I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical becuase I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be beleoced so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A so mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight. 

Americans struggle to see reality clearly in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot if reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions 

There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows jow constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ by means of hundreds of Apps which allow contact without the effort. 

I am by nature a skeptic. I have Always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when every one else

 premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.

The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure , or perhaps it truly began with mu voracious curiosity, my only offense.

More here

This book is not based on research but is more telling of the state of the transparency or f our governing forces than any number of interviews. Because no one, most especially those in law enforcement are willing to give voice to the misconduct that goes on and further still, the fact that no officer will tell on another, no matter how grievous the offense. This gives cops total power and immunity, never having to worry about the law catching up with Them. Is this truly the way to keep them accountable. My experience told me that they were at best, confounded by what to do next fork by their blue code to the other and what was right to do & worst nothing better than animals , waiting for their next opportunity. 

If you decide to read this book, believe its truth, and understand that such has happened before, such as with Thomas Drake, at least I know that was his Last name. Here you will gain Information you will not elsewhere, as most who have gone through what I have are falsely incarcerated or in some other way silenced. 

The best part of this book is, it is not based on research but personal experience and obtaining records which directly proved each of the elements I hope to finally in this book describe, SO many attempts made, only to flicker out, again and again, I am determined not to let that happen. I Will Face what I went through again alongside the very likelihood of even further disbelieve and stigmatization, But I am I am willing to sacrifice myself in this way as I will not allow the knowledge that I gained over the last deacde and a half of my life, knowledge that the majority of Americans are completely unware of but tat I fell truly need to know. And it is not to sensationalize what I went through as so many have faced far far worse. I can not even fathom being an african american in the 70s or even Now, having false evidence delinerately used against you, or evidence that would exonerate you withheld, so the sentive was carried out, and you? Are innocent. The sentence is 25 years/ Perhaps life. This has happened an inordinate amount of times, mainly dyring the war on drugs, or what is moreo accurately, the war on blacks. 

So why was I specifically targeted? I am not sure that is wholly relevant to the politics of this story,

I decides to qeirw 

This is a rough draft but it’s a sample 

The mock interview 

Was she a victim subjected to the nearly implausible and has thus far survived it, or could she have for this long Attempted to fool us, cover up her foibles with stories of misconduct and what her could blame for the losses that she suffered? 

Her story brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that. Because if she was credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility. Yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she? 

I heard her for the first time on the KC Armstrong show and didn’t believe her. She put it out there, without sensationalism, much sentiment or passion/ it’s as though in a way she had been used up. Been asked too many times and it was this dichotomy between lack of need to get attention and having a story that would that intrigued me. Was she some master of disguise?

She had been asked to interview by Armstrong and told me that with great hesitation she decided to Interview as a professional life coach. They had approached her initially inquiring for an interview for such an when she said she wasn’t active the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter.

I ask, 

How did you get on international radio on one of the most popular podcasts in America? How does that happen? Did you contact PBN? 

No. KC had messaged me months former to the call from PBN but I never received it under I decided to message him only after the shows began to air. I had to Google him to familiarize myself with his person and was flattered to learn of his celebrity status.

I often don’t check my email message or voicemail so it truly was fate I picked up the phone. With the TBI and post-concussion little things so get overwhelmed by…. such as messages of any kind

It’s not for lack of want. It’s having been stuck for so long tried everything and getting nowhere so I am just … stuck. That is why I wasn’t more in tune with his initial contact. He had been following my blog and sorry though, radio is still government-owned. I didn’t realize this until afterward. That they had truly taken a chance. And knew I had to get it out: 

I didn’t get those messages until after they called. But in them, they asked about who I was and my story. When I told PBN that I wasn’t active in practice as a professional life coach at that time, the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter, as quick as it took her to assure me, any money I spent was for press releases. 

What made you decide to interview. What motivated you?

After a decade of not being believed because it simply doesn’t sound credible, someone was paying attention. Someone was watching me struggle to articulate week after week, month after month, and year after year what was happening. 

How could someone so hurt Not get help>? When that inured. 

Because the stigmatization is too great and I was labeled an addict without a medical diagnosis and for seven years they refused to do an MRI until FORCED TO. When the damage was found it was extensive and too late…

The elements to this sorry are many but the storyline is all too pervasive within this country 

And though I found what she addressed had happened to her unbelievable, if one doesn’t get Positive attention from something they move on! If the information they are putting out is fraudulent and they are becoming even HATED for it? They stop. She didn’t because according to her? She COULDN’T. It wasn’t an option as it was the only safeguard she had against further unjust action against her. Should her last post point in the direction of them they would hesitate to pursue anything drastic. Her making note of this to the officers at certain times did change the course of their actions after whispering urgently with a Sargent before taking her back OUT of THE BACK door. 

There were so many extraneous circumstances it seems

 I haven’t even gotten to her story

Or rather she has. So many times. In many different forums over the years, she tells it mech aI ally now. No feeling. She is detached. She has told it repeatedly in different forums over the years be it podcasts, blogs, documents, etc, but this offer to go international on every major news outlet.. well..that was an opportunity.

So the interview … in hindsight was an opportunity for you? Or given the context was it a risk?

What did you have to gain? And what did you have to lose?

Both. Exactly par for par she said deliciously. To make public what she had a decade former had had severe implications on her credibility and relationships.. instead of being heard concerning the warrantless search and seizure, the resulting misconduct, and the severe head injury untreated as a result. 

Instead, she lost credibility and friends for it, was harassed, bullied by the PD, told to keep my mouth Shut

Why continue unless what I was writing was truly a Safeway for her to survive at this crucial time that had she not reported would have been consumed by like all the others. That’s right. Her attorney agreed. If no one knew, they could do… ANYTHING. They have, they DID AND THEY DO

WHAT I was most shocked by was how they simply throw away the innocent when they are aware they are wrong. how do they sleep at night? 

What did they do?

In short? Subject me  to absolute horror to start then ongoing Harassment misconduct, surveillance, false incarceration shock or pain to injuries they’re caused by their conduct 

Instead of making reparations and moving on instead, they subject the person they’ve already traumatized with false arrest search and seize interrogation build and a remake for a third transfer

I still do not know where that third transfer would have been to had they not Been forced to release me and when I got the $30,000 bill I called them up five minutes later told them I was not payment no way in hell I shouldn’t have been there and they automatically dropped it. 

But I’m getting ahead of myself. No context. But at least we are somewhere near the beginning though that’s not always the best place to start…

. to absolute horror misconduct defamation, false incarceration shock or pain to injuries though caused by their conduct 

I am taken with her not needing to be noted a certain way. Her effect belied someone struggling with demons large enough to snuff out any excitement of being heard by millions. Those are some pretty large demons to take away that joy, that hope that it meant people would listen to the truth, and she had wanted that. The defamation kills her. And in a forum in which she would be validated as nothing But credible after ten years. 

But I learned later she knew everything came with a price, and she was so tired. She quickly explained the three levels of trauma and their effects on the body. There is distress, then distress, then complete dysfunction. Due to the complexity of her story, it wasn’t easy to decipher what caused what and when.

In such a statement, while feeling defenseless., her body broke down completely. She was in a state of trauma at KC dysfunction without the slightest acknowledgment that this was the problem for seven years. 

Her medical issues are not what this piece is about but are the result of what happened and is heard; she would have the conditions she does. She now struggles with every cardiac, digestive, and other issue resulting from being in a state of dysfunctional shock for far too long. And Suddenly she became somewhat hyper defensive. I suppose perhaps because for so long her injuries had been ignored that the scar tissue that never should have been, turned into a deadly form of epilepsy that has now affected her heart and other systems due to the corrosive pharmaceutical medications she has to take. And the One that would harm her system. Her DHMC NEUROLOGIST says it wouldn’t be appealed until she was in acute organ failure. Her liver already heard the marks of someone who has a drinking problem. Except she hasn’t had a drink she was 27. She is now, at the time of the telling of this story, of what happened to her, is 43. She appears about 10-15 younger: at times it’s somewhat eerie. She declares herself a type that never ages. Fast skin cell turnover. Hereditary she guesses. But she is rarely wrong and has she been heard regarding her injuries she wouldn’t be disabled. She would have been able to get up again as she always had and be strong: now all she had were words/ tell what happened/ for the sake of safety mainly due empathizes: like Drake. She makes a quick note of… 

Methodically, she brought up her medical chart to prove to me her conditions though I didn’t know asl/. She was wise to do this because to look at her; no one would believe she was serious. She knew even if, in the Moët, she thought someone would question it if someone did not prove it later. But before me, she didn’t show anyone, she told me. She had shut down nearly completely. Drawn into herself, she almost died from heart failure.

What could do this to a perfectly healthy 32-year-old who had just completed the peace academy after two master’s degrees out in OH at KSU, who had come in third place in the physical piece despite being a woman 32 to the boys in their early 20s? She was in unbelievable condition. Now she can’t get her heart rate up, has severe anemia, kidney and liver dysfunction, lesions, cysts, stones, need reconstructive surgery on her feet; the accident took out my back, and she developed severe temporal love epilepsy and atrophy along with brain bleeds due to lack of treatment.


That is the beginning Ot my story, led off by a warrantless investigation in which all rights were infringed, and they attempted to incriminate. I realized this and fled. If I had to do it repeatedly despite the immensity of damage done to my brain and body due to it? Caused disability due to lack of adequate treatment die to the falsified report and the doctors not believing I crashed at the speed I had. Officer Goard wanted to ensure I was out in prison that night to be falsely transferred. anything under 20mph accomplishes that.

But the superior somehow Wasn’t swayed( didn’t believe he had evidence; had seen me say quietly to him. You know that is not true after he alleged he had… without anger. Because at that point, I hadn’t any. Never HAD: that fake after me worsted injuries denials of it intense life-altering defamation loss of reputation and ability to work.s what did I do? Thank rued for defending me at the end. They had a record it takes charges without ONE conviction. Because no matter how much they attempted to antagonize or entrap; it’s as though I was somehow able to dissociate from the experience and realize it wasn’t personal AJD given they have Nothing legit (never did) don’t react/

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If I’m to die under anaesthesia and its deemed my heart just wasn’t strong enough? It was No accident. Because it’s getting done at WDH. Also my records from Dhmc we’re deleted from all state systems. The records we had to physcjalky go and get. My neurologist called me five times the day the DEA came with their false statements. She said, I think what happened to you in 2011 is happening again. I’d told her about the feds giving false info. There they were after a podcast I was asked to be on airing their dirty laundry and they want to do NOTHING but silence me. Why else woukd all of that HAGE happened . Then they delete my actual physical disabilities from the entire system. They demanded that she cut me cold turkey off all medication. She refused.

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How many ways can I try this

This is a rough draft but it’s a sampl

 

 

The interview

 

Perhaps the question is, how would I know the actuality of what was going on if I want guilty of the offenses. I come clean. They had their reasons. I comprehend how they could not fathom anything other than then what they suspected. What they were so certain if they acted without a warrant , without a shred of evidence ajd no ok from any judge. They were as certain as they were wrong. And it happens all the time. But what I didn’t realize!”? Is what they then proceed to do to those whose rights they’ve violated. How three weeks later I done luselfn

 

gr tie elements they had ‘gathered’ complete with an alleged informant having heard it from mu mouth. Which she didn’t: she felt rejected AJD upset I’d asked her to leave . But that certainly didn’t give her the right to lie to her dqddy after stalking me for me to then four years later get the charge that was in all realism not got kr. Because t those who wouldn’t leave me alone/ like this young woman and then my a man who became my fiancé . I suppose he didn’t go away, so mhe cut happened, he was there to witness it AJD I stuck with the person who believed me and was there to know ue didjt hahe an option not to. We didn’t have the luxury of drny mg a reality that made the world not much not feel but truly be very unsafe..

I spoke with jer for three hours that night

She wouldn’t leave and when it was made very clear her last words to me

We’re

I’m gonna tell my daddy on you

For What?! I recall thinkingV having told her about my profile and intentions

This incentive around the account had a story in its self; the gratitude that had brought me to creating it, the research if out into certain analogs, their lack of additive potential or neurotoxicity, how it was used in Harvard Studies Trials with 80% efficacy rate in the PTSD of war veterans, relative to the 33% with traditional therapy; which also was two years versus eight weeks in duration. The power to heal all ‘diagnosis’ in that they all stem from some type of trauma. And we made the DSM simply to ensure the pharmaceutical company was the wealthiest enterprise in this country. What are rye odds of that: and really. Has mental health improved or been more stigmatized and we now have labels AMD a pill that goes with each and every one: before it was tue odd guy down the street. Now he is schizotypal and feels even more alienated from others than his disorder has him feeling before. How does LABELLING Someone helpful! It’s Not.!

 

 

 

Was she a victim subjected to the nearly implausible and has thus far survived it, or could she have for this long attemp[ted to fool us, cover up her foibles with stories of misconduct and what her could blame for the losses that she suffered?

 

Her story brought far more ridicule than believe. In fact with help from the state and other forms of defamation what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they known that. Because if she was credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences in regard to misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just . Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility. Yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she? .

 

I heard her for the first time on the KC Armstrong show and didn’t believe her. She put it out there, without sensationalism, much sentiment or passion/ it’s as though in a way she had been used up. Been asked too many times and it was this dichotomy between lack of need to get attention and having a story that would that intrigued me. Was she some master of disguise?

 

She had been asked to interview by Armstrong and told me that wity great hesitation she decided to Interview as a professional life coach. They had approached her initially inquiring for an interview for such an when she said she wasn’t active the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter.

 

I ask,

 

How did you get on international radio on one of the most popular podcasts in America? How does that happen. Did you contact PBN.

 

No. KC had messaged me months former to the call from PBN but I never received it under I decided to message him only after the shows began to air. I had to Google him to familiarize myself with his person and was flattered to learned of his celebrity status.

 

I often don’t check my email message or voicemail so it truly was fate I picked up the phone. With the TBI and post concussion little things so get overwhelmed by…. such as messages of any kind

 

It’s not fir lack of want. It’s having been stuck for so long tried everything and getting no where so I am just … stuck. That is why I wasn’t more in tune with his initial contact. He had been following my blog and sorry though , radio is still government owned. I didn’t realize this until afterwards. That they had truly taken a chance. And knew I had to get it out:

 

I didn’t get those messages until after they called. But in them they asked about who I was and my story. When I told PBN that I wasn’t active in practice as a profression life coach at that time, the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter, as quick as it took her to assure me, any money I spent was for press releases.

 

What made you decide to interview . What motivated you?

 

After a decade of not being believed due to the fact that it simply doesn’t sound credible, someone was paying attention. Someone was watching me struggle to articulate week after week, month after month and year after year what was happening.

 

How could someone so hurt Not get help>? When that inured.

Because the stigmatization is too great and I was labelled and addict without a medical diagnosis and dor seven years they refused to do an MRI until FORCED TO. When the damage was found it was extensive and too late…

 

The elements to this sorry are many but the stiryLine is one that is all to pervasive within this country

 

 

And though I found what she addressed had happened to her unbelievable, if one doesn’t get Positive attention from something they move on! If the information they are putting out is fraudulent and they are-becoming even HATED for it? They stop. She didn’t because according to her? She COULDN’T. It wasn’t an option as it was the only safeguard she had against further unjust action against her. Should her last post point in the direction of them they would hesitate to pursue anything drastic. Her making note of this to the officers at certain times did acrually change the course of their actions after whispering urgently with a Sargent prior to taking her back OUT THE BACK door.

 

There were so many extraneous circumstances it seems

 I haven’t even gotten to her story

 

Or rather she has. So many times. In many different forums over the years, she tells it mech aI ally now. No feeling. She is detached. She has told it repeatedly in different forums over the years be it Podcast, blog, documents etc, but this offet to go international on every major news outlet.. well..that was an opportunity.

 

So the interview … in hindsight was an opportunity for you? Or given the context was it a risk?

What did you have to gain? And what did you have to lose?

 

Both. Exactly par for par she said decicisly. To make public what she had a decade former had had severe implications on her credibility and relationships.. instead of being heard in regard to the warrantless search and seizure, the resulting misconduct and the sevre head injury untreated as a result.

Instead she lost credibility and friends for it, harrassed, bullied by the PD, told to keep my mouth Shut

Why continue unless what I was writing was truky a Safeway for her to survive at this crucial time thst had she not reported would have been consumed by like all the others. That’s right. Her attorney agreed . If no one knew, they could do… ANYTHING. They have, they DID AND THEY DO

WHAT I was most shocked by was how they simply throw away the innocent when they are aware they are wrong.how do they sleep at night.

 

What did they do?

In short? Subject me  to absolute horror to start then ongoing Harassment misconduct, surveillance , false incarceration shock or pain to injuries theugr caused by their own conduct

Instead of make reparations and move on instead they subject the person they’ve already traumatized with false arrest search and seize interrogation abgikd and a remake for a third transfer

 

 

I still do not know where that third transfer would have been to had they not Been forced to release me and when I got the $30,000 bill I called them up five minutes later told them I was not payment no way in hell I shouldn’t have been there and they automatically dropped it.

But I’m getting ahead of myself. No context. But at least we are somewhere near the beginning though that’s not always the best place to start…

. to absolute horror misconduct defamation, false incarceration shock or pain to injuries theugr caused by their own conduct

 

 

 

I and am taken with her not needing to to be noted a certain way. Her effect belied someone struggling with demons large enough to snuff out any excitement of being heard by millions. Those are some pretty large demons to take away that joy, that hope that it meant people would listen to the truth, and she had wanted that. The defamation kills her. And in a forum in which she would be validated as nothing But credible after ten years.

But I learned later she knew everything came with a price, and she was so tired. She quickly explained the three levels of trauma and their effects on the body. There is distress, then distress, then complete dysfunction. Due to the complexity of her story, it wasn’t easy to decipher what caused what and when.

 

In such a statement, while feeling defenseless., her body broke down completely. She was in a state of trauma at KC dysfunction without the slightest acknowledgment that this was the problem for seven years.

 

Her medical issues are not what this piece is about but are the result of what happened and is heard; she would have the conditions she does. She now struggles with every cardiac, digestive, and other issue resulting from being in a state of dysfunctional shock for far too long. And Suddenly she became somewhat hyper defensive. I suppose perhaps because for so long her injuries had been ignored that the scar tissue that never should have been, turned into a deadly form of epilepsy that has now effected her heart and other systems due to the corrosive pharmaceutical medications she has to take. And the One that would harm her system. Her DHMC NEUROLOGIST says it wouldn’t be appealed until she was in acute organ failure. Her liver already heard the marks of someone who has a drinking problem. Except she hasn’t had a drink she was 27. She is now, at the time of the telling of this story, of what happened to her, is 43. She appears about 10-15 younger: at times it’s somewhat eerie. She declares herself a type that never ages. Fast skin cell turnover . Hereditary she guesses. But she is rarely wrong and has she been heard regarding her injuries she wouldn’t be disabled. She would have been able to get up again as she always had and be strong: now all she had were words/ tell what happened/ for the sake of safety mainly due empathizes: like Drake. She makes quick note of. .

 

 Methodically, she brought up her medical chart to prove to me her conditions though I didn’t know asl/. She was wise to do this because to look at her; no one would believe she was serious. She knew even if, in the Moët, she thought someone would question it if someone did not prove it later. But before me, she didn’t show anyone, she told me. She had shut down nearly completely. Drawn into herself, she almost died from heart failure.

 

What could do this to a perfectly healthy 32 year old who had just completed the peace academy after two masters degree out in OH at KSU, who had come in third place in the physical piece despite being a woman 32 to the boys in their early 20s? She was in unbelievable condition. Now she can’t get her heart rate up, has severe anemia, kidney and liver dysfunction, lesions, cysts, stones, need reconstructive surgery on her feet; the accident took out my back, and she developed severe temporal love epilepsy and atrophy along with brain bleeds due to lack of treatment.

 

Because, she said, the matter of factly, as though she had no more emotion to breathe any longer,  no one believed her. Why? Because the officer had falsified the report. She later learned he did this so he could bring her to jail instead of admitting her to ICU. He stated she laughed at 18mpyh when she, in fact, crashed at 48nph. In a ditch., The chiropractor told heart she was lucky she didnt break her neck; the hoots show in the severity the injury and how close she came to becoming a paraplegic,’

 

BUTShe was told by a DHMC Sven years later when she finally git an MRI, she should Not be alive She should have died in that cell, And that night was just the beginning of her nightmare. She began with a brain suddenly stripped of all defense mechanisms, ability to thing, recall or be as she had been and people blamed her character for symptoms she had no control over. Of course at that point she was unaware that the damage was only getting worse , the scar tissue ensuring i ratio tramporal l0eb epit0tse For seven years. The increasingly worsening symptoms of what was Not within her control snd caused her immense pain, she was blamed.

 

 

In 2011, in the small née England town of Newmarket, NH, a young woman was subjected to a warrantless search and seizure based on informant misinformation alone.

We have heard too many stories of the inequality of incarceration rates when it comes to race to go out of their way and commit immense resources to without warrent arrest a wealthy white woman? When the liability on their end is so great, that for a judge to hear the evidence which would prove the damage and incident as it occurred beyond a reasonable doubt would have the federal government charged with solicited attempted murder. There is no other explanation. ANd this isn’t her imaginative iOS, nor some rational yet unevidenced sensical happening after the fa, she incarceration the year before. That in and itself was merely ONE element to prove it did not happen as they had falsified. But they also had great motive, opportunity, concurrence, deliberately, the false incarceration Just the year before which was ruled AS FALSE BY A FEDERAL JUDGE HERSELF. All these elect together with the three years before of nothing But a pervasive pattern of harassment and misconduct on the polices end> It was safe to say, She wasn’t jumping to any conclusions.

 

A perspective or opinion is that of a hypothetical character. But an idea or perspective backed by hard evidence>? That brings it into the legal arena TRUTH. And The Truth that happened was and is not what everyone else made it, but what indeed Did happen and WHY.

The Whys that have been missing have kept people skeptical as these events make no sense without context. And frankly they do sound paranoid and conspicuous. To have a truth less belieave than any lie you could tell? That wouldnt be easy, But she refused t9 oi8e t9 be believed,

 

so systemically when I went to research this, the events that occurred to this young woman happened to coincide precisely with what happens to those who end up ‘disappearing’. To where? I researched further and came across what is referred to as black sites. To my horror, I realized that given what she had been suspected of without any evidence they could have brought her to a location in or outside this country in which her amendment rights would have been suspended.

 

She would later tell but show me the report, as she did with several when they were handy. The four boxes were there. That was a lie. …On the document she reviewed with me, I saw where it ordered a second transfer even AFTER it was proven the problem was not her mental status but the fact the DEA had acted rashly a double transfer. Given she was already at NH State, the principal and only hospital for mental health commitments, and I was only designated to the first floor, so had Lots of room for crazy before going anywhere….Where would they have brought her had her fiancé not come every SINGLE day to ensure they knew they would be accountable. My parents had left the country after signing off on a prayer request. Many would later ask her how she could forgive her mother for this. She didn’t have an answer then and didn’t give me one. I didn’t push.

 

Eleven days after her mother did this the judge ordered her to mandated therapy and discharged me with an absolute. And DX f NOTHING. She has said so many times she wishes to write this all out, then attach the documents she generously shared with me but for whatever reason, self-sabotage, or maybe deep down inside of her she realized that what was happening to her now and had too many times before, would have had she said anything then,

 

Because not that she had, having been asked to be on a show for six episodes the state and feds acted swiftly against her I’m the ONLY way they could, by going to her medical providers and making false claims so they would for op her or change her treatment to justify their misconduct. This last time, she said she knew enough it having already occurred several times, to realize the reason he cal;ed on her;ast RX as he did was to ensure it appear she was in a state of mind and on drugs she was not. In the lands of the the supposed justice system legally, this  would give EVIDENCE to mere OPINION or perspective  and a judge reason to grant a warrant to look into it, rather than write it off as something of an unsound mind,

 

 

 

The reason I decided to do a story about a somewhat controversial topic and a woman of uncertain sanity, If I may. She spoke in what seemed a most honest manner,m neither attempting to embellish nor upset nor angry. I wondered whether her rather robotic way of retelling the events was an indication of credibility and accuracy or not.

 

But as the episodes progressed I noted that’s not once, no matter the context or how it came up, did one detail she mentioned changed,. SHe told me how it was only after she learned that it was a Warrebtless search as opposed to Unwarrented but she figured thirty fgir grew necessary ,

SHe said she had hesitated to do rthwe show, almost as though she knew if she did she would have to brace herself for another i\mpact, explaining any and every com[lait about major violations or resulting injuries were met with unwarrented outside police harassment, whether it be two weeks of being told my tail light was out, to being stopped and given a sobriety test without reason. THere was a;was lash back and the more i spoke out? THe ore they heard i told? The more they made her pay. I realized as she spoke, her having to take sips of water and catch her breath every so often, that she reminded me of an older adult. One who appeared about 25 despite being 43. So I understood when she said that more disabling that her seven conditions over the past seven years was that she was treated as though she wasn’t telling the truth when she was. NO matter what. SHe had no reason to lie.

 

SHe told me for seven years she had tried to get medical help for a severe head injury obtain three weeks after she was released fro her elven day stint at NH state for the search and seize. They’d found nothing in , on Her nor in her apartment. Becuase she ad not association with the activity they had associated her with. Though she understood why they may have thought w2at they did. It didnt help that she tried to explain howrever, because it was what got her committed fro the ointerrpgation. The admission of knowledge of what they were referrrinh.

 

She though whe was being So wise

 

This was because the pervasive pattern of abuse she suffered in effect of what happened to her, continues. People are aware of the 70s when it was routine to withhold evidence whuch wohkd have exonerated death row inmates?

The here oremeidcaitrf murder and happened all the timeS as do narendra Still where peolle go to jail fir lifr when they didn’t do the The tie

Of course this galena to African American at a disproportionately erroneous rate relative to caucasuinsS equally is the cases. But pardon my objective factual disruptions. This story isn’t about keZ or them but I figure it may give some context. Or at the very least remind The American public that the system has been corrupt for a very long time.

 

But here’s the odd thingS the woman I interview is neither black ke poor: she is white, some would say weakthy, highly educated and an internship away from a MLADC licensure. To target this woman? The DEA, state, Feds had to be SURE of what they suspected which she alleged could have only been one thing judging from the interrogation and the fact she engaged in nothing but research writing biking and reading …

 

. It wasn’t a one stop shop and perhaps by airing the truth of her story, others will receal their own in like. Maybe they do not have the case she does regarding the DEA and state that make her the liability she is today. But she had planned to move on until this last year they made it clear , they wouldn’t allow it. And so she seeks jow formal closure after a decade of the false incarnations, charges, entrapments, even a solicited attempt on her life. Something I never would have believed if she hasn’t shown me the evidence which made it so I wasn’t able not to think what I like many before me; chose not toZ because it’s far easier to believe what we are do dbtooned to than know the world is not the safe bubble iwe’ve all made it out to be.

 

At least not to those whose truths threaten to shed a light on the myth of governmental infallibility / also it’s becoming increasingly known that court isn’t equivalent with justice. If anything it’s become an Avenue to incarcerate those we choose . Or those they choose. As the laws C the statue, the judges and all the variability in betweeen makes it so any judge can impose any sentence for any crime these days. As easy as it is to set someone up for life in jail. Three incidents in which you touched or assaulted someone whether you did or didntX , if they want you chargedZ

 

Her example was telling. She was arrested in her own home for stalking she explained S how they accomplished this?

And how fate intervened to safe her from a fraudulent transfer to federal where she would become a number with another ‘crazy story’.

How did she have parents who said… when the jail called after a life of As good to have in class and not one issue all her life?

 

 

There is no hierarchy of humanity. There isn’t even one self or one way to be, or even two, but many. As many as there are yous and mes. As many as there are she’s. And what she went through split her in half ij more ways than one. She became like a walking slogan for

‘Why to stay silent after youve beej f**** with by the government’

Literally. The before and after was shocking and permeating from every cell: she wasn’t the same person and yet she was. Constitutionally and psychologically. So should we ask to whom will I be speakingV that is irrelevant. What is? Is her story and the need for those in like situations to know others have been there and speak out .

 

I asked her to speak after hearing her on a five part podcast series with KC Armstrong…

 

Repeated traumas crashed the identity She had become comprised of through genetics upbringing and integrated experiences and severe brain damage had been shattered she said

But it wasn’t in effect Igbo longer knowing whom she was but the reflection of others in which she lost herself over a long slow period, a painful AJD perhaps ce pattern of devaluation

Amd when that devaluation is based on assumptions akd lies, one is still reflected as they are not, and it gets to them. It takes character to realize you aren’t who others have made you

 

But that took ten years of shock, realities too quickly denied in favor of believing the world was still as safe as it was

As it was before what, I asked

It wasn’t a simple question

Before she realized he government would take out its people, even learning their innocence if their liability were involved.

Has it been an instance or two? Perhaps we could call her conspiratol but it was ofer a ten year period of whuch she began to research the systematicf way the givers e t takes liabilities out, Silences them. Offers state employees big bucks to white wash the likes of someone who can prove a federal case against the federal, government like solitude attmepted murder, they want HER GONE . Snuffed out. For good. It’s happened before and is happening now yet few are talking about it,

 

 any attempt to tell s met with surveillance or harassment that eventually the person gives up. Worn Doiwn, Bug what they can Cibtrik and didnt predict? Was her being asked to be on a radio show that would broadcast to millions; flattered she said yes to this initiative

 

If ones physical constitution including the structure of their brain is no longer the same, is that person the same

 

She says she struggled with this question indefinitely on some existential level until the answer stood starkly before her. She wasn’t her physical being. As Descartes woukd himself have had ir, I’m more comprised of my spirit in identification than my body as it is the ‘thing’ that has been passed on, that which has survived . And If such things are not authentic I decided whether she was or was not the same anymore didnt matter as nothing would to her in a world without God

 

A co founding statement coming from someone with a story which would onky push someone no longer to believe than to believe more. But it was in the details she says, not the larger picture that was always going to be embedded within her dates that she could not rscaoeD GodV allowed her to survive what those of the state and DES, those whom tried to take her life, were confounded by.

 WHen I herd of this woman’s story i thought to interview her if only to see how i could catch her in lies or perhaps reveal a path to truth She had been online for years attempting t9 tell what had happened to her. If she was sensat9ojao9sa9jyntuej what she was saying needed not only to be heard. She needed to know she was not alone and that someone Heard her and related to what happened , We all have a breaking point and it was clear she was close to hers.,

 

Where, when why, how, whom , what

 

Who sky

What WARRENTLESS search and seizure that led to subsequent ongoing pattern of abuse and misconduct

Where in the state of NH, mainly portsmouth

Why; due to suspicions raised by a young woman i told to leave me alonie

When in 2011 until today

 

In= the state of NH, un theb state of NH, Sky was subjected to a WARRENTLESS search and seizure that led to to a pervasive pattern of misconduct in the form of NH, due to susinionw firm 2011 until today

 

 

I heard her on the KC Armstrong show 8in which she did a five part series and briefly went over what happened to her., But She skimmed quite a but and much of it wasn’t clear. I wanted to learn whether she was telling the truth

 

 

I didnt even know what i liked to do until I was able to do one thing at a time;l Before then i was racing from one thing to another. When I was put on adhd medication And could focus those interests of hers became something more easily read about,., and the more she read about what she was interested in? THe more she became curious.

Granted before being able to focus she would have not lose interest but lost the ability to pursue the appeal further than her focus of the hour or day would allow her. Now?> she confessed , she was able to lean in, no matter where she dropped off. And she found herself winding into information on the internet she may not have been supposed to need privy to .

 

But this isn’t about her interests, This is about what happened to her. It made her realize she wasn’t as she had constructed. But that those around her determined more her composition. It was only after some time she realized she was the same person as the one who had become devalued over the last five years due to circitmstaces beyond her control. But those which appeared to others as a criminal mark on her person that was unforgivable. What she had been charged with in her own home with an order placed on the neighbors below, was a mark on her character, to which she would have preferred murder.

 

She confessed to an obsession in high school with a man who represented a father figure Ana’s gave her what she needed. A man she subsequently had an affai with and while he could move on after his children of her same age found out, she found it mr9oe difficult. Her only mistake. Two iPhone calls. THe last thing she did was drive by or to his place. The last instinct she has when she was wound up with this one person was to stalk him. A fruitless endeavor that would get one no where when it came to reconciliation or getting back together in some way with a person you love. So to be charged with this and have others come to know this though she was never asked about it so she could never explain it.

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After a year at home following a failed marriage, a new town an ironically genuine need to get an order on the other party whom it was alleged put me in prison in 2014. She mentions an accident the following year though um certain he is confused Guinean she has already mention one in 2011. The one obtained due to a falsified police report and not being in ICU where she by law belonged had the officer put the correct speed of 45..

 

But why would he do this? Becuase he had been solicited, she said., Now I was getting skeptical > The state is getting involved, I was on board with the false charges but,.,,I decide to listen. SHe seems unexictavble as though it is an unpleasant task to tell what happened. Again, That is what intruguiges me i supposes. The combination of her lack of sensationalism together with what sounds like an impossible story.

 

But the things we do not hear of often nor hear of often do sound unreasonable or impossible just like new hypothetisis formulated after we have already become set on a former one. It’s far easier to keep believing what we knew, so we dont have to chance anything, so we can still stay comfortable and safel dont I think she had that option. She had to reconcile what was happening to her, as the facts were indisputable. Each incident her then fiancé insisted they obtain the report, Four boxes of original pieces, not reduced falsified or omitted entirely. That is evidence most never have at the end of a decade of what she alleges she wentthrohjgh

 

She begins , It happens. And I suppose it does.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. THe broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

 

 

Ive begun this story over a thousand times, whether in attempts to document

what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

 

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps

It is All? The will of God

 

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that need be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original * . Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write this sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be whay it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask ebery possoble question a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality . Below that is another way i wrote it up.

 

 

The last Tim this occurred, three officers were suspended and two were put on leave. They are aware, I have what i need even to show they were complicit in the 2015 attempt on my life, that the state falsified the report and that more than easily proven, would enforce, they then explain why. This would ensure many, too many, officials would be facing federal charges, such as solicitation to murder, and well, they will do anything to avoid this. And they did. But perhaps i was just a better strategist than the entire state and local officers over the span of five years, or perhaps, i was meant to slide out this other side and be j voice for those who were silenced for the same reasons they attempted to silence me. To avoid dire consequences of their intensely illegal actions.

 

So what is my story

Where does it start

Where does it end

I don’t think it has ended. And I’m not sure it ever will. Just last week I found the whole bolt system removed from my rear wheel of my bike that I ride? All the time I asked the shop manager if her was certain there was no way the bolt could have been removed or fallen out due to natural causes. Or the fact I’ve been rear ended five times in the last year and my number just got taken off. The fact that each of these reports were falsified and I made it clear I could prove irZ the fact I wasn’t given a ticket or court date or had no insurance agent call me. Certainly that didn’t scream GUILT. And after the officer spoke with the woman who had slammed me for a good hour he would ask for my license number no statement and take off. Always I knew to pull over because even if it isn’t your fault? It can still count as a hit and run if the other pulls off and ‘says’ you did as well. Given what was alleged in Hampton thru were sure they’d be given permission to say it was assumed I fled on purpose. I never did. Not once. Not even when After slammed I let THEM GO. No reason for them to call except for entrapments. They were all immigrants. Cops say green card. They do whatever they say.

 

Any doubt I had had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced grace that was otherworldly and beyond my own doing. I live now today with the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time had been up far more times than I am meant to be here and he Alive

 

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we are able to live no other choices of my own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had Already injured me severely ? I’ve never been one to play victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your own intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you

truth is truth

And if I could change it , I would

If I could instead assume all responsibility as oppose to simmer in an anger I’ve jeher asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.

Infinitely

et me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least .

 

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.

I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years by those I didn’t know then those m whom I’d been conditioned to trust then worse the former and loved ones unable to understand I’m not my inability to be whom I was. Unless you treat me like I am. I react to being abused. Treated less than I was. Stupid. When I’ve gained in wisdom and knowledge no education could have given me. No matter how hard I tried I Always I ended up more damaged

 

They say to look and see where you are responsible. I am responsible for continuing to believe a truth that had I not spoken abojt coulf have landed me in a hell I could not have escaped or could have allowed this to slowly unfurl in other ways they had planned. What seemed better to me. What would I do differently. Nothing. Each move I made was out of defense in effect of on of their actions, whether a third time that week again pull over, to a full on false arrrst without telling me the charges. None .to be later declared a false incarceration and the changes that day dropped. Yet slapped back on my record three weeks later  for five years . My public defender ran from any possibility of fulfilling her role and literally ran from my fiancé asking her help than failed to answer any questions regarding why a change she witnessed he deemed false was still there? To take all employment pops etc away from me. And this was after five years of their having tried everything. Well then again the next year I’d learn everything includes murder.

 

 

I moved back here with A Masters in Counseling from KentState, I was prepared to begin an Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing to the Seacoast Mental Health Center, a local counseling center.  Three months before we were going to begin, i was in a major car accident following an amendments violating search and seizure. But first things first.

 

I stayed on in OH TO take a few extra classes prior to moving back and also entered the pd academy for fun. Honestly. It was. Very easy. I figured, why not.

All for a reason. There is a God.

When the  indiscriminate illegal things began occurring, I learned ten times more law then i knew from the police academy thirteen years prior. And they as well. Fellow officers , to realize exactly what they were up to.

 

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. THe broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. And does except most don’t talk about it. I made the mistake of saying yes to being on an international six series broadcast, and decided it was time for the truth to be told. Had I known the consequences that year ago I would have said no. I had no idea how threatened they would be at my telling the truth despite the fact all they had done tI and abojt me was lie. Repeatedly… I’m asked on the show tell it once and the DEA.l went to my DHMC Manchester medical providers and lied knowing I have severe condrions and al due for four surgeries. They were waylaid due to the fact my heart is weak and they worry about it and the effects of anasthesia.

 

But that is closer to now. Maybe I should go back a bit…

 

I met a man who would not go away around this time who later became my fiancé. Or perhaps not that much later. Mere months he proposed and at 33, fond of this man who truly was an anomaly but one i (correctly) had surmised was also a narcissist . A long as I brought my steady steely self to the table,, huge was warm glue I hadn’t enough broken for. I allowed him to stick and spread despite the fact none of my family or friends were fond of him and i was plenty aware of the stereotypes signs Not to end up with a particular person. I ignored all posts and went full speed ahead, as though some sense of adolescent immunity had finally caught up with me and i had no fear. I would learn a lot about fear in the oncoming years, far more than i had experienced in a lifetime.

 

learning even more law then i knew from the police academy thirteen years power, to realize exactly what they were up to.

 

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. THe broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

 

Far more than i ever will experience again. Unless i am placed in isolation without rhyme or reason again, never told when i will be released. or in a full spin on the highway after being hit at 95mph, I do not believe I will ever be as afraid again..But at that time, I hadn’t a notion on any conscious level my whole life would change completely, except for that little voice inside of me Knowing, Certain, that i could not get away with doing what i was doign without some sort of ramification. That i couldn’t possibly be so smart as to be the First one to have thought of such a system’ for obtaining free samples of what i had researched extensively. Agents that allowed one to tap into more than just that 3% of our brain.My intention was good and i was hurting no one. Not even myself, part of the plan ensuring any and all samples would be clean as any fistricuout local or overseas would be certain to send pure, as i would promise to buy in bulk if we tested it as such. Had i in fact planned to purchase large quantities, had i in fact Done So, After my primary Arrest for being an alleged domestic terrorist, they acted without evidence, a judges signature or a warrant. In a sense of these things, were they mistaken, As they Would then be guilty of severe human rights violations. Most especially the way i was handled, interrogation and held for element days while they tore up my apartment. They found nothing., because there was nothing to find and the head Agent, Garry Decker (who subsequently took over the property i lived on in order to dig up the entire yard,,,). Was furious. On my back fro the bathroom, arms and feet cuffed themselves then tougher, i saw him throw a [plastic cup again the wall, unaware i was passing. God DAMMIT he shouted. They had nothing on me and he hadn’t expected this,, He was aware unless they FOUND something or were able within three years to charged me with a felony drug crime, He would be the one who may not walk free. NOT ME. But i didnt know all this then.

 

 

It took years of reading orginal reports obtained,  putting things together, officer testimony itself and, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was deemed not only a federal offense but a threat on. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a domestic terrorist.

I will indulge the details of exactly why they not only suspected this, but had nothing else To suspect. But the irony lies in the fact, that was the point. I had created a profile…..

 

 

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. The last Tim this occurred, three officers were suspended and two were put on leave. They are aware, I have what i need even to show they were complicit in the 2015 attempt on my life, that the state falsified the report and that more than easily proven, would enforce, they then explain why. This would ensure many, too many, officials would be facing federal charges, such as solicitation to murder, and well, they will do anything to avoid this. And they did. But perhaps i was just a better strategist than the entire state and local officers over the span of five years, or perhaps, i was meant to slide out this other side and be j voice for those who were silenced for the same reasons they attempted to silence me. To avoid dire consequences of their intensely illegal actions.

 

So what is my story

Where does it start

Where does it end

I don’t think it has ended. And I’m not sure it ever will. Just last week I found the whole bolt system removed from my rear wheel of my bike that I ride? All the time I asked the shop manager if her was certain there was no way the bolt could have been removed or fallen out due to natural causes or wear and tear

He sais? No way

It was manually removed

So why, eight years after the unwarranted arrest of my person for what I did not do, do I still suspect that they would rather I he incriminated or exi FYI she’s? Because until 2021, since I now have medical evidence of the atrophy which was experienced in the Brentwood jail cell, the arresting officer having lied on the report to ensure I wasn’t admitted for emergency treatment / and that literally nearly cost me my life and now, eight years later I have the medical evidence I could get for years. No one believed me. Not until they had to and that took a very very long time. This story will be written in spurts and pieces slowly then stitched together to shape some cohesive formation for the masses to better understand that the system isnt what they had perhaps thought, and as oppose to a protectant, is out main source of disease, enemy and conflict. Whether we see it or not, agents used in the past mainly invisible to kil the lots, why not slowly but

Surely. Unless we have already solved the issue of why we have become so diseased. And we are far from that

This is a rough draft but it’s a sample

 

 

 

The interview

 

Perhaps the question is, how would I know the actuality of what was going on if I want guilty of the offenses. I come clean. They had their reasons. I comprehend how they could not fathom anything other than then what they suspected. What they were so certain if they acted without a warrant , without a shred of evidence ajd no ok from any judge. They were as certain as they were wrong. And it happens all the time. But what I didn’t realize!”? Is what they then proceed to do to those whose rights they’ve violated. How three weeks later I done luselfn

 

gr tie elements they had ‘gathered’ complete with an alleged informant having heard it from mu mouth. Which she didn’t: she felt rejected AJD upset I’d asked her to leave . But that certainly didn’t give her the right to lie to her dqddy after stalking me for me to then four years later get the charge that was in all realism not got kr. Because t those who wouldn’t leave me alone/ like this young woman and then my a man who became my fiancé . I suppose he didn’t go away, so mhe cut happened, he was there to witness it AJD I stuck with the person who believed me and was there to know ue didjt hahe an option not to. We didn’t have the luxury of drny mg a reality that made the world not much not feel but truly be very unsafe..

I spoke with jer for three hours that night

She wouldn’t leave and when it was made very clear her last words to me

We’re

I’m gonna tell my daddy on you

For What?! I recall thinkingV having told her about my profile and intentions

This incentive around the account had a story in its self; the gratitude that had brought me to creating it, the research if out into certain analogs, their lack of additive potential or neurotoxicity, how it was used in Harvard Studies Trials with 80% efficacy rate in the PTSD of war veterans, relative to the 33% with traditional therapy; which also was two years versus eight weeks in duration. The power to heal all ‘diagnosis’ in that they all stem from some type of trauma. And we made the DSM simply to ensure the pharmaceutical company was the wealthiest enterprise in this country. What are rye odds of that: and really. Has mental health improved or been more stigmatized and we now have labels AMD a pill that goes with each and every one: before it was tue odd guy down the street. Now he is schizotypal and feels even more alienated from others than his disorder has him feeling before. How does LABELLING Someone helpful! It’s Not.!

 

 

 

Was she a victim subjected to the nearly implausible and has thus far survived it, or could she have for this long attemp[ted to fool us, cover up her foibles with stories of misconduct and what her could blame for the losses that she suffered?

 

Her story brought far more ridicule than believe. In fact with help from the state and other forms of defamation what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they known that. Because if she was credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences in regard to misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just . Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility. Yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she? .

 

I heard her for the first time on the KC Armstrong show and didn’t believe her. She put it out there, without sensationalism, much sentiment or passion/ it’s as though in a way she had been used up. Been asked too many times and it was this dichotomy between lack of need to get attention and having a story that would that intrigued me. Was she some master of disguise?

 

She had been asked to interview by Armstrong and told me that wity great hesitation she decided to Interview as a professional life coach. They had approached her initially inquiring for an interview for such an when she said she wasn’t active the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter.

 

I ask,

 

How did you get on international radio on one of the most popular podcasts in America? How does that happen. Did you contact PBN.

 

No. KC had messaged me months former to the call from PBN but I never received it under I decided to message him only after the shows began to air. I had to Google him to familiarize myself with his person and was flattered to learned of his celebrity status.

 

I often don’t check my email message or voicemail so it truly was fate I picked up the phone. With the TBI and post concussion little things so get overwhelmed by…. such as messages of any kind

 

It’s not fir lack of want. It’s having been stuck for so long tried everything and getting no where so I am just … stuck. That is why I wasn’t more in tune with his initial contact. He had been following my blog and sorry though , radio is still government owned. I didn’t realize this until afterwards. That they had truly taken a chance. And knew I had to get it out:

 

I didn’t get those messages until after they called. But in them they asked about who I was and my story. When I told PBN that I wasn’t active in practice as a profression life coach at that time, the woman on the other end quipped doesn’t matter, as quick as it took her to assure me, any money I spent was for press releases.

 

What made you decide to interview . What motivated you?

 

After a decade of not being believed due to the fact that it simply doesn’t sound credible, someone was paying attention. Someone was watching me struggle to articulate week after week, month after month and year after year what was happening.

 

How could someone so hurt Not get help>? When that inured.

Because the stigmatization is too great and I was labelled and addict without a medical diagnosis and dor seven years they refused to do an MRI until FORCED TO. When the damage was found it was extensive and too late…

 

The elements to this sorry are many but the stiryLine is one that is all to pervasive within this country

 

 

And though I found what she addressed had happened to her unbelievable, if one doesn’t get Positive attention from something they move on! If the information they are putting out is fraudulent and they are-becoming even HATED for it? They stop. She didn’t because according to her? She COULDN’T. It wasn’t an option as it was the only safeguard she had against further unjust action against her. Should her last post point in the direction of them they would hesitate to pursue anything drastic. Her making note of this to the officers at certain times did acrually change the course of their actions after whispering urgently with a Sargent prior to taking her back OUT THE BACK door.

 

There were so many extraneous circumstances it seems

 I haven’t even gotten to her story

 

Or rather she has. So many times. In many different forums over the years, she tells it mech aI ally now. No feeling. She is detached. She has told it repeatedly in different forums over the years be it Podcast, blog, documents etc, but this offet to go international on every major news outlet.. well..that was an opportunity.

 

So the interview … in hindsight was an opportunity for you? Or given the context was it a risk?

What did you have to gain? And what did you have to lose?

 

Both. Exactly par for par she said decicisly. To make public what she had a decade former had had severe implications on her credibility and relationships.. instead of being heard in regard to the warrantless search and seizure, the resulting misconduct and the sevre head injury untreated as a result.

Instead she lost credibility and friends for it, harrassed, bullied by the PD, told to keep my mouth Shut

Why continue unless what I was writing was truky a Safeway for her to survive at this crucial time thst had she not reported would have been consumed by like all the others. That’s right. Her attorney agreed . If no one knew, they could do… ANYTHING. They have, they DID AND THEY DO

WHAT I was most shocked by was how they simply throw away the innocent when they are aware they are wrong.how do they sleep at night.

 

What did they do?

In short? Subject me  to absolute horror to start then ongoing Harassment misconduct, surveillance , false incarceration shock or pain to injuries theugr caused by their own conduct

Instead of make reparations and move on instead they subject the person they’ve already traumatized with false arrest search and seize interrogation abgikd and a remake for a third transfer

 

 

I still do not know where that third transfer would have been to had they not Been forced to release me and when I got the $30,000 bill I called them up five minutes later told them I was not payment no way in hell I shouldn’t have been there and they automatically dropped it.

But I’m getting ahead of myself. No context. But at least we are somewhere near the beginning though that’s not always the best place to start…

. to absolute horror misconduct defamation, false incarceration shock or pain to injuries theugr caused by their own conduct

 

 

 

I and am taken with her not needing to to be noted a certain way. Her effect belied someone struggling with demons large enough to snuff out any excitement of being heard by millions. Those are some pretty large demons to take away that joy, that hope that it meant people would listen to the truth, and she had wanted that. The defamation kills her. And in a forum in which she would be validated as nothing But credible after ten years.

But I learned later she knew everything came with a price, and she was so tired. She quickly explained the three levels of trauma and their effects on the body. There is distress, then distress, then complete dysfunction. Due to the complexity of her story, it wasn’t easy to decipher what caused what and when.

 

In such a statement, while feeling defenseless., her body broke down completely. She was in a state of trauma at KC dysfunction without the slightest acknowledgment that this was the problem for seven years.

 

Her medical issues are not what this piece is about but are the result of what happened and is heard; she would have the conditions she does. She now struggles with every cardiac, digestive, and other issue resulting from being in a state of dysfunctional shock for far too long. And Suddenly she became somewhat hyper defensive. I suppose perhaps because for so long her injuries had been ignored that the scar tissue that never should have been, turned into a deadly form of epilepsy that has now effected her heart and other systems due to the corrosive pharmaceutical medications she has to take. And the One that would harm her system. Her DHMC NEUROLOGIST says it wouldn’t be appealed until she was in acute organ failure. Her liver already heard the marks of someone who has a drinking problem. Except she hasn’t had a drink she was 27. She is now, at the time of the telling of this story, of what happened to her, is 43. She appears about 10-15 younger: at times it’s somewhat eerie. She declares herself a type that never ages. Fast skin cell turnover . Hereditary she guesses. But she is rarely wrong and has she been heard regarding her injuries she wouldn’t be disabled. She would have been able to get up again as she always had and be strong: now all she had were words/ tell what happened/ for the sake of safety mainly due empathizes: like Drake. She makes quick note of. .

 

 Methodically, she brought up her medical chart to prove to me her conditions though I didn’t know asl/. She was wise to do this because to look at her; no one would believe she was serious. She knew even if, in the Moët, she thought someone would question it if someone did not prove it later. But before me, she didn’t show anyone, she told me. She had shut down nearly completely. Drawn into herself, she almost died from heart failure.

 

What could do this to a perfectly healthy 32 year old who had just completed the peace academy after two masters degree out in OH at KSU, who had come in third place in the physical piece despite being a woman 32 to the boys in their early 20s? She was in unbelievable condition. Now she can’t get her heart rate up, has severe anemia, kidney and liver dysfunction, lesions, cysts, stones, need reconstructive surgery on her feet; the accident took out my back, and she developed severe temporal love epilepsy and atrophy along with brain bleeds due to lack of treatment.

 

Because, she said, the matter of factly, as though she had no more emotion to breathe any longer,  no one believed her. Why? Because the officer had falsified the report. She later learned he did this so he could bring her to jail instead of admitting her to ICU. He stated she laughed at 18mpyh when she, in fact, crashed at 48nph. In a ditch., The chiropractor told heart she was lucky she didnt break her neck; the hoots show in the severity the injury and how close she came to becoming a paraplegic,’

 

BUTShe was told by a DHMC Sven years later when she finally git an MRI, she should Not be alive She should have died in that cell, And that night was just the beginning of her nightmare. She began with a brain suddenly stripped of all defense mechanisms, ability to thing, recall or be as she had been and people blamed her character for symptoms she had no control over. Of course at that point she was unaware that the damage was only getting worse , the scar tissue ensuring i ratio tramporal l0eb epit0tse For seven years. The increasingly worsening symptoms of what was Not within her control snd caused her immense pain, she was blamed.

 

 

In 2011, in the small née England town of Newmarket, NH, a young woman was subjected to a warrantless search and seizure based on informant misinformation alone.

We have heard too many stories of the inequality of incarceration rates when it comes to race to go out of their way and commit immense resources to without warrent arrest a wealthy white woman? When the liability on their end is so great, that for a judge to hear the evidence which would prove the damage and incident as it occurred beyond a reasonable doubt would have the federal government charged with solicited attempted murder. There is no other explanation. ANd this isn’t her imaginative iOS, nor some rational yet unevidenced sensical happening after the fa, she incarceration the year before. That in and itself was merely ONE element to prove it did not happen as they had falsified. But they also had great motive, opportunity, concurrence, deliberately, the false incarceration Just the year before which was ruled AS FALSE BY A FEDERAL JUDGE HERSELF. All these elect together with the three years before of nothing But a pervasive pattern of harassment and misconduct on the polices end> It was safe to say, She wasn’t jumping to any conclusions.

 

A perspective or opinion is that of a hypothetical character. But an idea or perspective backed by hard evidence>? That brings it into the legal arena TRUTH. And The Truth that happened was and is not what everyone else made it, but what indeed Did happen and WHY.

The Whys that have been missing have kept people skeptical as these events make no sense without context. And frankly they do sound paranoid and conspicuous. To have a truth less belieave than any lie you could tell? That wouldnt be easy, But she refused t9 oi8e t9 be believed,

 

so systemically when I went to research this, the events that occurred to this young woman happened to coincide precisely with what happens to those who end up ‘disappearing’. To where? I researched further and came across what is referred to as black sites. To my horror, I realized that given what she had been suspected of without any evidence they could have brought her to a location in or outside this country in which her amendment rights would have been suspended.

 

She would later tell but show me the report, as she did with several when they were handy. The four boxes were there. That was a lie. …On the document she reviewed with me, I saw where it ordered a second transfer even AFTER it was proven the problem was not her mental status but the fact the DEA had acted rashly a double transfer. Given she was already at NH State, the principal and only hospital for mental health commitments, and I was only designated to the first floor, so had Lots of room for crazy before going anywhere….Where would they have brought her had her fiancé not come every SINGLE day to ensure they knew they would be accountable. My parents had left the country after signing off on a prayer request. Many would later ask her how she could forgive her mother for this. She didn’t have an answer then and didn’t give me one. I didn’t push.

 

Eleven days after her mother did this the judge ordered her to mandated therapy and discharged me with an absolute. And DX f NOTHING. She has said so many times she wishes to write this all out, then attach the documents she generously shared with me but for whatever reason, self-sabotage, or maybe deep down inside of her she realized that what was happening to her now and had too many times before, would have had she said anything then,

 

Because not that she had, having been asked to be on a show for six episodes the state and feds acted swiftly against her I’m the ONLY way they could, by going to her medical providers and making false claims so they would for op her or change her treatment to justify their misconduct. This last time, she said she knew enough it having already occurred several times, to realize the reason he cal;ed on her;ast RX as he did was to ensure it appear she was in a state of mind and on drugs she was not. In the lands of the the supposed justice system legally, this  would give EVIDENCE to mere OPINION or perspective  and a judge reason to grant a warrant to look into it, rather than write it off as something of an unsound mind,

 

 

 

The reason I decided to do a story about a somewhat controversial topic and a woman of uncertain sanity, If I may. She spoke in what seemed a most honest manner,m neither attempting to embellish nor upset nor angry. I wondered whether her rather robotic way of retelling the events was an indication of credibility and accuracy or not.

 

But as the episodes progressed I noted that’s not once, no matter the context or how it came up, did one detail she mentioned changed,. SHe told me how it was only after she learned that it was a Warrebtless search as opposed to Unwarrented but she figured thirty fgir grew necessary ,

SHe said she had hesitated to do rthwe show, almost as though she knew if she did she would have to brace herself for another i\mpact, explaining any and every com[lait about major violations or resulting injuries were met with unwarrented outside police harassment, whether it be two weeks of being told my tail light was out, to being stopped and given a sobriety test without reason. THere was a;was lash back and the more i spoke out? THe ore they heard i told? The more they made her pay. I realized as she spoke, her having to take sips of water and catch her breath every so often, that she reminded me of an older adult. One who appeared about 25 despite being 43. So I understood when she said that more disabling that her seven conditions over the past seven years was that she was treated as though she wasn’t telling the truth when she was. NO matter what. SHe had no reason to lie.

 

SHe told me for seven years she had tried to get medical help for a severe head injury obtain three weeks after she was released fro her elven day stint at NH state for the search and seize. They’d found nothing in , on Her nor in her apartment. Becuase she ad not association with the activity they had associated her with. Though she understood why they may have thought w2at they did. It didnt help that she tried to explain howrever, because it was what got her committed fro the ointerrpgation. The admission of knowledge of what they were referrrinh.

 

She though whe was being So wise

 

This was because the pervasive pattern of abuse she suffered in effect of what happened to her, continues. People are aware of the 70s when it was routine to withhold evidence whuch wohkd have exonerated death row inmates?

The here oremeidcaitrf murder and happened all the timeS as do narendra Still where peolle go to jail fir lifr when they didn’t do the The tie

Of course this galena to African American at a disproportionately erroneous rate relative to caucasuinsS equally is the cases. But pardon my objective factual disruptions. This story isn’t about keZ or them but I figure it may give some context. Or at the very least remind The American public that the system has been corrupt for a very long time.

 

But here’s the odd thingS the woman I interview is neither black ke poor: she is white, some would say weakthy, highly educated and an internship away from a MLADC licensure. To target this woman? The DEA, state, Feds had to be SURE of what they suspected which she alleged could have only been one thing judging from the interrogation and the fact she engaged in nothing but research writing biking and reading …

 

. It wasn’t a one stop shop and perhaps by airing the truth of her story, others will receal their own in like. Maybe they do not have the case she does regarding the DEA and state that make her the liability she is today. But she had planned to move on until this last year they made it clear , they wouldn’t allow it. And so she seeks jow formal closure after a decade of the false incarnations, charges, entrapments, even a solicited attempt on her life. Something I never would have believed if she hasn’t shown me the evidence which made it so I wasn’t able not to think what I like many before me; chose not toZ because it’s far easier to believe what we are do dbtooned to than know the world is not the safe bubble iwe’ve all made it out to be.

 

At least not to those whose truths threaten to shed a light on the myth of governmental infallibility / also it’s becoming increasingly known that court isn’t equivalent with justice. If anything it’s become an Avenue to incarcerate those we choose . Or those they choose. As the laws C the statue, the judges and all the variability in betweeen makes it so any judge can impose any sentence for any crime these days. As easy as it is to set someone up for life in jail. Three incidents in which you touched or assaulted someone whether you did or didntX , if they want you chargedZ

 

Her example was telling. She was arrested in her own home for stalking she explained S how they accomplished this?

And how fate intervened to safe her from a fraudulent transfer to federal where she would become a number with another ‘crazy story’.

How did she have parents who said… when the jail called after a life of As good to have in class and not one issue all her life?

 

 

There is no hierarchy of humanity. There isn’t even one self or one way to be, or even two, but many. As many as there are yous and mes. As many as there are she’s. And what she went through split her in half ij more ways than one. She became like a walking slogan for

‘Why to stay silent after youve beej f**** with by the government’

Literally. The before and after was shocking and permeating from every cell: she wasn’t the same person and yet she was. Constitutionally and psychologically. So should we ask to whom will I be speakingV that is irrelevant. What is? Is her story and the need for those in like situations to know others have been there and speak out .

 

I asked her to speak after hearing her on a five part podcast series with KC Armstrong…

 

Repeated traumas crashed the identity She had become comprised of through genetics upbringing and integrated experiences and severe brain damage had been shattered she said

But it wasn’t in effect Igbo longer knowing whom she was but the reflection of others in which she lost herself over a long slow period, a painful AJD perhaps ce pattern of devaluation

Amd when that devaluation is based on assumptions akd lies, one is still reflected as they are not, and it gets to them. It takes character to realize you aren’t who others have made you

 

But that took ten years of shock, realities too quickly denied in favor of believing the world was still as safe as it was

As it was before what, I asked

It wasn’t a simple question

Before she realized he government would take out its people, even learning their innocence if their liability were involved.

Has it been an instance or two? Perhaps we could call her conspiratol but it was ofer a ten year period of whuch she began to research the systematicf way the givers e t takes liabilities out, Silences them. Offers state employees big bucks to white wash the likes of someone who can prove a federal case against the federal, government like solitude attmepted murder, they want HER GONE . Snuffed out. For good. It’s happened before and is happening now yet few are talking about it,

 

 any attempt to tell s met with surveillance or harassment that eventually the person gives up. Worn Doiwn, Bug what they can Cibtrik and didnt predict? Was her being asked to be on a radio show that would broadcast to millions; flattered she said yes to this initiative

 

If ones physical constitution including the structure of their brain is no longer the same, is that person the same

 

She says she struggled with this question indefinitely on some existential level until the answer stood starkly before her. She wasn’t her physical being. As Descartes woukd himself have had ir, I’m more comprised of my spirit in identification than my body as it is the ‘thing’ that has been passed on, that which has survived . And If such things are not authentic I decided whether she was or was not the same anymore didnt matter as nothing would to her in a world without God

 

A co founding statement coming from someone with a story which would onky push someone no longer to believe than to believe more. But it was in the details she says, not the larger picture that was always going to be embedded within her dates that she could not rscaoeD GodV allowed her to survive what those of the state and DES, those whom tried to take her life, were confounded by.

 WHen I herd of this woman’s story i thought to interview her if only to see how i could catch her in lies or perhaps reveal a path to truth She had been online for years attempting t9 tell what had happened to her. If she was sensat9ojao9sa9jyntuej what she was saying needed not only to be heard. She needed to know she was not alone and that someone Heard her and related to what happened , We all have a breaking point and it was clear she was close to hers.,

 

Where, when why, how, whom , what

 

Who sky

What WARRENTLESS search and seizure that led to subsequent ongoing pattern of abuse and misconduct

Where in the state of NH, mainly portsmouth

Why; due to suspicions raised by a young woman i told to leave me alonie

When in 2011 until today

 

In= the state of NH, un theb state of NH, Sky was subjected to a WARRENTLESS search and seizure that led to to a pervasive pattern of misconduct in the form of NH, due to susinionw firm 2011 until today

 

 

I heard her on the KC Armstrong show 8in which she did a five part series and briefly went over what happened to her., But She skimmed quite a but and much of it wasn’t clear. I wanted to learn whether she was telling the truth

 

 

I didnt even know what i liked to do until I was able to do one thing at a time;l Before then i was racing from one thing to another. When I was put on adhd medication And could focus those interests of hers became something more easily read about,., and the more she read about what she was interested in? THe more she became curious.

Granted before being able to focus she would have not lose interest but lost the ability to pursue the appeal further than her focus of the hour or day would allow her. Now?> she confessed , she was able to lean in, no matter where she dropped off. And she found herself winding into information on the internet she may not have been supposed to need privy to .

 

But this isn’t about her interests, This is about what happened to her. It made her realize she wasn’t as she had constructed. But that those around her determined more her composition. It was only after some time she realized she was the same person as the one who had become devalued over the last five years due to circitmstaces beyond her control. But those which appeared to others as a criminal mark on her person that was unforgivable. What she had been charged with in her own home with an order placed on the neighbors below, was a mark on her character, to which she would have preferred murder.

 

She confessed to an obsession in high school with a man who represented a father figure Ana’s gave her what she needed. A man she subsequently had an affai with and while he could move on after his children of her same age found out, she found it mr9oe difficult. Her only mistake. Two iPhone calls. THe last thing she did was drive by or to his place. The last instinct she has when she was wound up with this one person was to stalk him. A fruitless endeavor that would get one no where when it came to reconciliation or getting back together in some way with a person you love. So to be charged with this and have others come to know this though she was never asked about it so she could never explain it.

\

After a year at home following a failed marriage, a new town an ironically genuine need to get an order on the other party whom it was alleged put me in prison in 2014. She mentions an accident the following year though um certain he is confused Guinean she has already mention one in 2011. The one obtained due to a falsified police report and not being in ICU where she by law belonged had the officer put the correct speed of 45..

 

But why would he do this? Becuase he had been solicited, she said., Now I was getting skeptical > The state is getting involved, I was on board with the false charges but,.,,I decide to listen. SHe seems unexictavble as though it is an unpleasant task to tell what happened. Again, That is what intruguiges me i supposes. The combination of her lack of sensationalism together with what sounds like an impossible story.

 

But the things we do not hear of often nor hear of often do sound unreasonable or impossible just like new hypothetisis formulated after we have already become set on a former one. It’s far easier to keep believing what we knew, so we dont have to chance anything, so we can still stay comfortable and safel dont I think she had that option. She had to reconcile what was happening to her, as the facts were indisputable. Each incident her then fiancé insisted they obtain the report, Four boxes of original pieces, not reduced falsified or omitted entirely. That is evidence most never have at the end of a decade of what she alleges she wentthrohjgh

 

She begins , It happens. And I suppose it does.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. THe broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

 

 

Ive begun this story over a thousand times, whether in attempts to document

what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

 

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps

It is All? The will of God

 

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that need be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original * . Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write this sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be whay it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask ebery possoble question a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality . Below that is another way i wrote it up.

 

 

The last Tim this occurred, three officers were suspended and two were put on leave. They are aware, I have what i need even to show they were complicit in the 2015 attempt on my life, that the state falsified the report and that more than easily proven, would enforce, they then explain why. This would ensure many, too many, officials would be facing federal charges, such as solicitation to murder, and well, they will do anything to avoid this. And they did. But perhaps i was just a better strategist than the entire state and local officers over the span of five years, or perhaps, i was meant to slide out this other side and be j voice for those who were silenced for the same reasons they attempted to silence me. To avoid dire consequences of their intensely illegal actions.

 

So what is my story

Where does it start

Where does it end

I don’t think it has ended. And I’m not sure it ever will. Just last week I found the whole bolt system removed from my rear wheel of my bike that I ride? All the time I asked the shop manager if her was certain there was no way the bolt could have been removed or fallen out due to natural causes. Or the fact I’ve been rear ended five times in the last year and my number just got taken off. The fact that each of these reports were falsified and I made it clear I could prove irZ the fact I wasn’t given a ticket or court date or had no insurance agent call me. Certainly that didn’t scream GUILT. And after the officer spoke with the woman who had slammed me for a good hour he would ask for my license number no statement and take off. Always I knew to pull over because even if it isn’t your fault? It can still count as a hit and run if the other pulls off and ‘says’ you did as well. Given what was alleged in Hampton thru were sure they’d be given permission to say it was assumed I fled on purpose. I never did. Not once. Not even when After slammed I let THEM GO. No reason for them to call except for entrapments. They were all immigrants. Cops say green card. They do whatever they say.

 

Any doubt I had had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced grace that was otherworldly and beyond my own doing. I live now today with the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time had been up far more times than I am meant to be here and he Alive

 

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we are able to live no other choices of my own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had Already injured me severely ? I’ve never been one to play victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your own intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you

truth is truth

And if I could change it , I would

If I could instead assume all responsibility as oppose to simmer in an anger I’ve jeher asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.

Infinitely

et me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least .

 

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.

I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years by those I didn’t know then those m whom I’d been conditioned to trust then worse the former and loved ones unable to understand I’m not my inability to be whom I was. Unless you treat me like I am. I react to being abused. Treated less than I was. Stupid. When I’ve gained in wisdom and knowledge no education could have given me. No matter how hard I tried I Always I ended up more damaged

 

They say to look and see where you are responsible. I am responsible for continuing to believe a truth that had I not spoken abojt coulf have landed me in a hell I could not have escaped or could have allowed this to slowly unfurl in other ways they had planned. What seemed better to me. What would I do differently. Nothing. Each move I made was out of defense in effect of on of their actions, whether a third time that week again pull over, to a full on false arrrst without telling me the charges. None .to be later declared a false incarceration and the changes that day dropped. Yet slapped back on my record three weeks later  for five years . My public defender ran from any possibility of fulfilling her role and literally ran from my fiancé asking her help than failed to answer any questions regarding why a change she witnessed he deemed false was still there? To take all employment pops etc away from me. And this was after five years of their having tried everything. Well then again the next year I’d learn everything includes murder.

 

 

I moved back here with A Masters in Counseling from KentState, I was prepared to begin an Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing to the Seacoast Mental Health Center, a local counseling center.  Three months before we were going to begin, i was in a major car accident following an amendments violating search and seizure. But first things first.

 

I stayed on in OH TO take a few extra classes prior to moving back and also entered the pd academy for fun. Honestly. It was. Very easy. I figured, why not.

All for a reason. There is a God.

When the  indiscriminate illegal things began occurring, I learned ten times more law then i knew from the police academy thirteen years prior. And they as well. Fellow officers , to realize exactly what they were up to.

 

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. THe broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. And does except most don’t talk about it. I made the mistake of saying yes to being on an international six series broadcast, and decided it was time for the truth to be told. Had I known the consequences that year ago I would have said no. I had no idea how threatened they would be at my telling the truth despite the fact all they had done tI and abojt me was lie. Repeatedly… I’m asked on the show tell it once and the DEA.l went to my DHMC Manchester medical providers and lied knowing I have severe condrions and al due for four surgeries. They were waylaid due to the fact my heart is weak and they worry about it and the effects of anasthesia.

 

But that is closer to now. Maybe I should go back a bit…

 

I met a man who would not go away around this time who later became my fiancé. Or perhaps not that much later. Mere months he proposed and at 33, fond of this man who truly was an anomaly but one i (correctly) had surmised was also a narcissist . A long as I brought my steady steely self to the table,, huge was warm glue I hadn’t enough broken for. I allowed him to stick and spread despite the fact none of my family or friends were fond of him and i was plenty aware of the stereotypes signs Not to end up with a particular person. I ignored all posts and went full speed ahead, as though some sense of adolescent immunity had finally caught up with me and i had no fear. I would learn a lot about fear in the oncoming years, far more than i had experienced in a lifetime.

 

learning even more law then i knew from the police academy thirteen years power, to realize exactly what they were up to.

 

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. THe broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

 

Far more than i ever will experience again. Unless i am placed in isolation without rhyme or reason again, never told when i will be released. or in a full spin on the highway after being hit at 95mph, I do not believe I will ever be as afraid again..But at that time, I hadn’t a notion on any conscious level my whole life would change completely, except for that little voice inside of me Knowing, Certain, that i could not get away with doing what i was doign without some sort of ramification. That i couldn’t possibly be so smart as to be the First one to have thought of such a system’ for obtaining free samples of what i had researched extensively. Agents that allowed one to tap into more than just that 3% of our brain.My intention was good and i was hurting no one. Not even myself, part of the plan ensuring any and all samples would be clean as any fistricuout local or overseas would be certain to send pure, as i would promise to buy in bulk if we tested it as such. Had i in fact planned to purchase large quantities, had i in fact Done So, After my primary Arrest for being an alleged domestic terrorist, they acted without evidence, a judges signature or a warrant. In a sense of these things, were they mistaken, As they Would then be guilty of severe human rights violations. Most especially the way i was handled, interrogation and held for element days while they tore up my apartment. They found nothing., because there was nothing to find and the head Agent, Garry Decker (who subsequently took over the property i lived on in order to dig up the entire yard,,,). Was furious. On my back fro the bathroom, arms and feet cuffed themselves then tougher, i saw him throw a [plastic cup again the wall, unaware i was passing. God DAMMIT he shouted. They had nothing on me and he hadn’t expected this,, He was aware unless they FOUND something or were able within three years to charged me with a felony drug crime, He would be the one who may not walk free. NOT ME. But i didnt know all this then.

 

 

It took years of reading orginal reports obtained,  putting things together, officer testimony itself and, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was deemed not only a federal offense but a threat on. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a domestic terrorist.

I will indulge the details of exactly why they not only suspected this, but had nothing else To suspect. But the irony lies in the fact, that was the point. I had created a profile…..

 

 

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. The last Tim this occurred, three officers were suspended and two were put on leave. They are aware, I have what i need even to show they were complicit in the 2015 attempt on my life, that the state falsified the report and that more than easily proven, would enforce, they then explain why. This would ensure many, too many, officials would be facing federal charges, such as solicitation to murder, and well, they will do anything to avoid this. And they did. But perhaps i was just a better strategist than the entire state and local officers over the span of five years, or perhaps, i was meant to slide out this other side and be j voice for those who were silenced for the same reasons they attempted to silence me. To avoid dire consequences of their intensely illegal actions.

 

So what is my story

Where does it start

Where does it end

I don’t think it has ended. And I’m not sure it ever will. Just last week I found the whole bolt system removed from my rear wheel of my bike that I ride? All the time I asked the shop manager if her was certain there was no way the bolt could have been removed or fallen out due to natural causes or wear and tear

He sais? No way

It was manually removed

So why, eight years after the unwarranted arrest of my person for what I did not do, do I still suspect that they would rather I he incriminated or exi FYI she’s? Because until 2021, since I now have medical evidence of the atrophy which was experienced in the Brentwood jail cell, the arresting officer having lied on the report to ensure I wasn’t admitted for emergency treatment / and that literally nearly cost me my life and now, eight years later I have the medical evidence I could get for years. No one believed me. Not until they had to and that took a very very long time. This story will be written in spurts and pieces slowly then stitched together to shape some cohesive formation for the masses to better understand that the system isnt what they had perhaps thought, and as oppose to a protectant, is out main source of disease, enemy and conflict. Whether we see it or not, agents used in the past mainly invisible to kil the lots, why not slowly but

Surely. Unless we have already solved the issue of why we have become so diseased. And we are far from that

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Slideshow with music

Willl this work?

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Just written

Good to know you he said
Yea indeed
As much as one can
Through words without inflection
Meaningless, primed for projection or ideation all depending on
Your own motive, desire and intention
We forget
Then
This has nothing to do with the actual
Person
We have made into an automated
Reflection
Of whatever we want
And damn them if they are not
This is what we have come to in regards to our dating scenarios’.

My poem about ?

And How tight
It’s grip
Before we even realized
We slipped
That’s when the panic set in
A sudden need of flight from a self we aren’t able to run from or through or to
Until we’ve reclaimed its origin
Where we wish to run to or what we run from
To escape the self takes death to the conscious mind
To all
Or the body so we aren’t able to know the joy grief pain shame , all that glides through us in this life
Each time one had us elated and we promise we will alw it last
Another comes from the depths
Whether by love lost, hatred, betrayal or life circumstances having tossed around a soul
From the best guesses we come from and go back to what matters

Just bitten

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The Actuality of how I spend my time beyond so much else that takes it up. I love learning. I’ll MEVER stop.

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Here is a link to my several certificates achieved in the last few months

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Facts

I did NOT BECOME DISABLED DIE TO ACTIONS MY OWN BUT BECAUSE I COULD NOT GET THE PROPER MEDICAL TX UNTIL SEVEN YEARS AFTER THE FACT BECAUSE NO ONE BELIEVED ID BEEN IN THE EXTENT OF ACCIDENT ID BEEN IN DUE TO FALSIFIED REPORTS COURTESY OF OFFICER GOARD.! I have nothing to LOSE I DIE WITHIN FIVE YEARS ANYWAY

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Lie low; PD will try anything now

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WAS ASKED Personally by KC Armstrong to do the podcast series

This is important because there is a big distinction between my wanting attention and going about looking to get it versus missing a message from a celebrity because I’m so caught up in my health issues asking me to be on a podcast my only realizing this because two months later the radio station on which she hosts calls me personally and asked me to interview

So no I didn’t expect to go on a podcast that would air to millions yes I was very hesitant to do it but then I thought it would be a good opportunity to finally tell my story and I was exceptionally discreet about it leaving out any names or entities or places but I’ll tell you what given the consequences that they made me pay next time I’m on air every name will be said. Check out the next episode of my podcast ‘Here We Are”

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No good explanationExcept the obvious

Except the only one backed by evidence which makes it fact

My neurologist called me that day warning me what they were trying to do and my having told her what happened in 2011 when she asked why I didn’t get medical help .Given I have conveyed this at the time she thought I was crazy but because it was happening again she realized I had told the truth

So what explanation was there the fact that the DEA went to my medical providers a week after the first podcast of the six series podcast with Casey Armstrong aired, in which their illegalities were made clear. I was told that if I am not made to look crazy then other people may want to come forward with their story

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The Epitome of ..SHADEFREUDE; Suggestion;..

Julie Assmus; me

Please read my latest post. A FIRST FIRST DRAFT

as oppse to jump to conclusions about who I AM, how about Learn about who that IS. OR you can assume, project your Own disowned bullshit, be that coward and blame my character or hear the truth; of HOW AND WHY it all came Out to be; the opposite of who Was Me; I have seemed to become; the epitome of SHADEFREUDE

My being a most perfect source of the idealized crashed and enviable shat on. I’m certain there’s a more eloquent way to say that. But I have more urgent matters to attend to. So do you. Reading this. Take away the ideal and you’ll just get shit on. I’ve learned that. In America, it’s image. And I’ve lived both spectrums. The ideal and the devalued, the second I was so luckily opportuned in effect of a complex series of events. Those which led to conditions misconstrued as psychological by those whose didn’t know me; desired to gaslight me and knew it was the perfect cover for their gains. To ensure I was not credible. Unheard: and for years I was to the loss of my entire health. Until medical scans finally done produced results I had already assumed. Severe damage in EFFECT OF THE NEGLIGENCE OF THOSE SEVEN YEARS. Now? Inoperable. Irreparable. And given my family has denied it’s existence I’ve been demanded to be a person I literally am NO LONGER ABLE TO BE
a narcissist borderline mother who lies to a judge in collaboration with an investigation as opposed to calling me? Saying I was as I was not because she was angry at something I had written? she, was subsequently Sentenced at MY COMMITMENT HEARING To THERAPY, told by the judge she was lucky she wasn’t whacked with a felony. But they didn’t tell anyone those truths. Instead it was lies. In American the image is more important than the truth and it is to my parents. Even to my death I sometimes suspect.!:9!/

they even began to believe them.
As Americans these days seem to do in absence of any BLACK AND WHITE explanation, they stop thinking at all for alternatives. It’s too easy to assume, judge; take what you want. That’s what you’ve done. F94 for me to tell people , to tell You; beyond those who were there, had been solicited, my attorney or those working with the state whom are familiar with such white washing what happened, meant risking my reputation but today it means telling the TRUTH AS I AM MEANT TOS MY PURPOSE IS CLEAR.
I know what it means to automatically be stigmatized. To be treated the opposite of what I was. To experience a slow crucifixion. To be labeled all I’m bots a fraud. As a liar. All while UNABLE to get the much needed medical help which she was told seven years by multiple specialists, had she would have left her WITHOUT severe permanent Life altering Injuries, chronic pain, epilepsy and severe brain damage the tip fo the iceberg. So in America, one will assume, especially if their envy or aggression has been activated towards this person. Especially is they would like to find REASON To justify their OWN projections and anger; Which would mean a bout 90% of people. So much shame that us displaced onto others.
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Given Americans are only comfortable with the expression of designated which fit neatly into a square box, they will devalue or feel shame should one admit to or should they feel anything else. At best they will perhaps be mystified as to the emotion they are feeling, and at worst, if it surrounds an area of importance, shame. But few are able to tolerate or deal with their own shame and so displace it onto others, namely those brave enough to admit to the very emotions the finger pointers themselves are feeling... they shame anyone who experiences anything outside of them, despite the fact that no ones emotions or values fit neatly into any box, Why? Because we are human not god damn auto mans. The auto mans have had their personality replaced by the conditions of society completely, and these are the most dangerous among us, having literally traded their soul in order to join a rat race, no one will ever win, because their is no prize, and this game, is made up, by the mind of men. 

So we do not acknowledge any emotions that are between those designated as appropriate yet in every other country there is a word for certain emotions that Americans w2ould never admit to today but given these words are as common in all the rest of the world but ours, IT seems Americans are the Least comfortable with their own humanity, given the fact they’ve been essentially conditioned to feel shame for any emotion, impulse, desire or need OUTSIDE of what Americans have designated as ‘successful’ or ‘appropriate’. Have we not forgotten that we are the land of the free, home of the brave? Perhaps these days more so cowardly, beyond those who actually live their lives for a purpose greater than their own selves and fulfillment of ego, There is nothing in that life, not for me, at least, but emtptiness. All peace one has within comes From their sense of connection to other Loved ones,. Beyond this it matters not how far along one is in this race, there are so many of, but he will be plagued by bafflement and disillusionment, as he can not male out why he is not happy or satisfied, given what he has ‘achieved’., perhaps BECAUSE in the process of doing so he sacrificed that which truly mattered, Others.

 But shadefreide will make us do, think and feel things we never imagined. And would never tell anyone. At least not in America where we do not acknowledge the shades of grey. Where we would instead deny anything other than compassion in the face of another’s suffering. Yet here is a word in every other country for the exact opposite. No wonder the shame in this country, merely for being human. I don’t canary that, I carry shame for things I’ve said i wish i had not. Even when it isn’t my fault but the result of combined severe trauma and two major head injuries. Even when the words and behavior never happened prior and isn’t apart of mg character. The shame however comers from knowing what others make of it. And that I can not help or stop because there is no way to explain the long term pain and desperation without belief or help until it was too late.

The shade that most emotions are, Are grey, For which only our country does not and can not name. And as we know language can shape a county and a coutry as well. And it has shaved ours down to bite sized nuggets of politically appropriate words to emotions, where no one acknowledges, the in between. Where most of our emotions live if at not least lean. There are no clear cut happy and sad and truly for everyone the definitions of these themselves are even not so clear. Subjective, even that is too confusing for Americans. We want our beef and potatoes, none of this fancy shit on the side which if we tried..bunt we done,…\If we are confused about emotions ruled as the only ones we are to have, perhaps we need to look at the fact we are not experiencing JUST them. Why? Becujase we are not MACHINES . We are humans. I know this is a revelations for the mounting number of auto-mans whom have seemed to replace our civilization

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Photos taken by Julie Assmus this past summer
But my point here is not political. IT is about searching me based on falsified records made so in order for subsequent and severe human rights violations to not have to face the light of day, let alone those accountable for them. No, Instead they will defame, incriminate and if these measures fail to shut that person up and or down? Extermination. All three? Were tried on me/ AS fact. Not story. And certainly not one i chose to have. It didn’t leave me stronger. IT has left me broken, albeit my humility and faith have grown in the process of this slow crucifixion exponentially. 

Envy is a bitch and that bitch ain’t me? In every country BUT the US there is a word which acknowledges what it means to be happy at another’s misery. Because there are many shades of grey. Like shadefreude. The delight at an envied demise. No? Why no belief? Empathy? Easier to see it the fun way? Your way?

Nice. That ain’t on me. I have my support in the form of those who have enough se,f respect and confidence to know the result of my trauma and injuries isn’t me nor an excuse to talk about me. I never have about you. Never would. That’s isn’t like me. So I don’t put up with it. WHen I find out about it. You’ll know.

My point? Please do not allow your judgement and projections to overcome the desire to know the truth beyond the false charges: not convictions. Charges unable to be annulled for a decade now. Charges I can not explain because I have no association with even the behavior OF THE OFFNSE, .UNLESS YOU CAN explain why you committed murder, i can no better explain my own false charges. Not annulled. Because every prosecutor has heej threatened by the state. Because you see, if I am credible? Any case I present against an employee of thrm? Would be LOOKED INTO AND THE WHOLE OF WHAT HAPPENED? blown wide open

They, those who were responsible for the unwarranted federal investigation, carried out without warrant, judges signature or any evidence, like with any secret; will go to great lengths to cover it, whether it a fact or the misconduct. It will be the subject of their investigation, guilty or innocent as I was in my case, will pay.

So I ask? That you ask me or get to know who I am Past the shot and the story. The fact prior to 2011 all o did was work in schools with children and adults with disabilities before attending graduate school at KSU for a Masters in counseling. I moved here to start an internship with Deb Braun Mills. Every fact I state checks out. 

None they have, does: that is what they are so concerned about. Perhaps. Most especially the solicited 2015 attempted murder. It happened and caused me to have to go from dealing with an UNTREATED +HEAD INJURY from 2011 to a SEVERE successive CONCUSSION WHICH BROGHT ME TO MY KNEES and which was not as well properly treated. The officers there had to get me out before their superiors arrived to ask me questions. And they did. And i again paid the price after years of seizures and vomiting every morning and being treated like an addict in the ER. And when they asked why there were no scans from 2011 (the ones the officers denied i be treated for) i would attempt to explain. And be labeled an addict and crazy as well. When the truth was I was SEVERELY handicapped and gone without help that i desperately needed and had only told THE TRUTH. THATS ALL IVE DONE AND COMMITTED NONE OF THE CRIMES I HAVE ATTEMPTED TO GET ANNULEED FOR the past five years that every prosecutor has denied as a result of their being threatened by the state for doing otherwise. 

Knowing how easily I can bring it back to what happened. I don’t plan to unless i am forced to. Unless i am threatened and I will not live my life that way. So if i am left alone, i can safely move forward.

I want to MOVE FORWARD NOT BACK but giving me no option to Move forward propels me towards the exacts thoughts and actions of the past that will come to sabotagE

them as allowing me to be free from false charges would be. I am not Lomé you people . I have not and will not pursue charges. But I will if th is continues. And credible or not? I have someone who very much is who will fight for me hard. So if you want to take that chance? Take the rest of Mine. OTHERWISE, please annul my record of false charges which have ruined my life and the former misconduct which destroyed my brain and health.

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Can’t DEFEND lies when you have none to defend

Why talk about all this now? Because the impact of the illegalities on the end of the federal goverWe have heard too many stories of the inequality of incarceration rates when it comes to the race to go out of their way and commit immense resources without warrent arrest a wealthy white woman? When the liability on their end is so great, that for a judge to hear the evidence which would prove the damage and incident as it occurred beyond a reasonable doubt would have the federal government charged with solicited attempted murder. There is no other explanation. ANd this isn’t her imaginative iOS, nor some rational yet unevidenced sensical happening after the fa, she incarceration the year before. That in and itself was merely ONE element to prove it did not happen as they had falsified. But they also had great motive, opportunity, concurrence, deliberately, the false incarceration Just the year before which was ruled AS FALSE BY A FEDERAL JUDGE HERSELF. All these elect together with the three years before of nothing, But a pervasive pattern of harassment and misconduct on the polices end> It was safe to say, She wasn’t jumping to any conclusions.

Was she a victim subjected to the nearly implausible and has thus far survived it, or could she have for this long attem[ted to fool us, cover up her foibles with stories of misconduct and what her could blame for the losses that she suffered? If I believed In II DX, I’d say if not, then she is a borderline histrionic gone wild. But for ten years regarding a highly complex subject matter where no matter the context, the details Always match. When you tell the truth, there are no variations, yet what happened to her is truly unbelievable. I wanted an interview to see up close this evidence she kept alluding to and promised at long length she will post. She has gotten backlash from every attempt to voice what happened. Though she admits she was hesitant to go on a significant podcast show; though flattered, she has been asked

I heard her for the first time on the KC Armstrong show. I interviewed as a professional life coach and am taken with her not needing t9 to be noted a certain way. Her effect belied someone struggling with demons large enough to snuff out any excitement of being heard by millions. Those are some pretty large demons to take away that joy, that hope that it meant people would listen to the truth, and she had wanted that. The defamation kills her. And in a forum in which she would be validated as nothing But credible after ten years.

I had just gotten out of graduate school and entered the peace academy at KSU in OH. … I mean, I still felt young and had no agenda other than to start working. I met up with a friend of a friend who asked me to do a collaborative internship to lead substance abuse groups. It was all planned out; my ducks were in a row. I wasn’t prioritizing marriage or a baby because it was the mind I wanted to use. It wasn’t until I hit my 40s the mourning indeed came… And it willcome… It’s there and will he for a while now…

All that happened…How if innocent this whole time

Whether by trying to find evidence of fault where there was none or being told things abojt my person, defamation, untrue, but had been pervasive means as I was anything but a criminal and no matter how hard they tried she somehow kept slipping through there fingers. God. She suddenly interject. We are speaking of narrowly she escaped certain this and that and she takes no credit, not even for a moment. ‘Because she said ‘there were too many things that happened that could not have been mere coincidences nor at such last minute, knowledge I suddenly had, that I would not have known unless I was him. But I’m not. So he helped me in that last moment. Each time when the DEA or state were so certain they had me …’ EACY time’ she smiles meekly ‘ they didn’t’. And they were furious.

KC Armstrong is the maN who asked me to go public so I did, to great consequence. Hadn’t been as the feds planned I would have been behind four walls between them over two months ago and had I not had the help they expected me not to I would have ended up there. And that is today after the final record an element of false charges

But TIMELINE? Fine. But it won’t satisfy. 2011: warrantless search and seizure upon my person in which my rights were violated, they don’t take accountability, didn’t like what I was saying; gaining a following? The ideas are only coming out? Today. I had been speaking of a the inevitability of a police state and how pharms should be replaced by what is natural. So they are now saying… then in 2011 three weeks after my weeks from being held after an interrogation there was an ‘accident’ caused by a corrupt officer who falsified the report so I didn’t get proper treatment which BY FACT ACCORDING TO DHMC NEUROLOGIST LED TO BEAIN BLEED TROOHY AND SEVERE EPILEPSY. The officer involved was later proven to be acting in collaboration so they could falsely get a felony drug charge and me for INTENT for what they suspected me of . They didn’t suspect if flee and given I’d never had that REACTION neither did I but it was for good reason. I’d been through the academy free obtaining my graduate em degree in a whim and could tell he we about to plant something on me. Stop the car. Keys out the window. Hands on the wheel. After what had just happened to me, I don’t think so. Not when I’d done nothing wrong and it wasn’t was 12:01. Got a charger at a gas station.. so that was the beginning of the end of my ability To think. 2011-2014: years of pervasive ongoing Harassment, illegal stops, false arrests and charges including assault, all based on my having called in. 2014; false arrest for major charge the alleged defendant came to the jail every day to say he did not file and was told to go away, then threatened that what was going to happen to me what happened to him. But due to my heart nearly failing was release 2015 solicited attempt on my life easily proven beyond ANY REASONABLE SOIBT GIVEN THE MOTIVD WITNESSES, direct statement, other mans insurance paid out which doesn’t match the false report, opportunity, etc. 2015- today continued attempts to incriminate and given Ive made what happened public via a podcast I was asked to he on they again went to my medical provider ms lied and got me cut off all help. If my neurologist had complied I’d have been in the ER where they had them drop the report from the STATE system so my severe disabilities in effect of their beatings and negligence thereafter? Would be seen s domestic and withdrawal as opposed to documented through DHMC. Please see the report belowbelow. I procured. Copy . Onky able because the neurologist didn’t comply giving me time to find the necessary providers to find now three months later no one will take me. Even places I have never been before are sending me letters from their managers or say they have. Can you explain that? Because I cAn.. but…

You tell me

Is it my fault that the truth is less believable than any lie I could concoct. That the series of events, the fact I knew the coming of them or how to defend myself from them, I admit wasn’t simply in my hands but something higher. Or I wouldn’t have survived. It’s that simple. I won’t stop telling thTo defend a lie for ten years when you were idealized prior? WHY? Why would I CHOOSE TO SUDDENLY ACT CRAZY WHEN MY LIFE WAS ONE OTHERS ENVIED. I had literal stalkers. It has been both disturbing and humbling to see the underbelly of people ideation. The devaluation. Their projections when you’re down and have no means to get up, you’ve become suddenly viscously disabled in ways people not only can see but issues not diagnosed medically until seven years. Because no one believed me. So I was labeled and treated as all is never been until that point from the time of the initial accodmt and severe brain trauma. Not realized Until an MRI was finally done and showed extensive brain trauma and intractable epilepsy from all the scar tissue. That wouldn’t have been had I been able to Get the help I needed. All those projections when my brain was so atrophied my neurologist says I should not have made it… I realize it’s all based on your presentations. When I couldn’t keep those up, they didn’t like me so much. Oh well!?

Julie Assmus

A perspective or opinion is that of a hypothetical character. But an opinion or perspective backed by hard evidence>? That brings it into the legal arena TRUTH. And The Truth that happened was and is not what everyone else made it, but what ACTUALLY happened abd WHY. I have all that evidence. Whether it’s reports or witnesses, insurance reports to counter falsified police reports…i have what I need as they know it. I have what I need to prove what did happen true. f I didn’t I would not be a liability. I wouldn’t have been and still be Persecuted by officials and those I was conditioned do believed would protect me. Suddenly they were the danger. They are with exceptions. Not all cops are bad. Bit some just can’t resist whatever incentive they are offered and they and are me to believe whatever they are to mess with me. Makes it easy. This is what happens when you give people with The least education the most power and the Feds who initiated the warrantless search and seizure, pry them with incentives, big bucks and who knows what else. Because they were wrong and instead of he accountable go about truly to incriminate . That is what happened to me

Julie Assmus

‘I’m the only one who can give you this story. First person. Given the percentages I’ve been told and the fact I’m willing to put my hide on the line to be a voice for all those who lose their freedom and life to the cover ups & pervasive misconducts on behalf of the state and the federal government. If I won’t say it? Who will? And if they kill me? We will know who is guilty. It’s not like they haven’t tried. Were that not the truth they wouldn’t have falsified a report then handed me disability without my applying. No matter how i go down.’l I won’t go down with people not knowing the truth’

Julie Assmus

I only wanted to move forward … but due to their pervasive misconduct since the annulment of charges that were ruled false by a federal judge to be slapped back on and stay… Gone? I’m free alive credible and have charges against them I can easily evidence before a federal judge/ and they Know that. They think I’ll make a move on That and I wouldn’t as solicited attempted murder in 2015 isn’t a good look for the state even though I was HANDED A NH COMMISSIONER SIGNED FULL DISABILITY. I HADNT applied. (Yes I have a copy and it will be at the end of this interview in Evidence A1) It was their band aid. Their secret admission apology but more so trying to ensure I’d shut the f*** up. I will always be a liability and the state and Feds will always want to be rid of me. I’m not the one who made that rule. I’ve experienced it then it’s been reiterated by my attorney and other officials. To later be recanted. Fully denied.

Julie Assmus
So tell me it ain’t so

That’s pretty damned thick for onlu three years. Maybe because I know have to see every damned s
A bit more detailed. And nothing is resolved. More MRIs and tests were ordered prior to being cut

WHAT BRINGS ALL THIS ON NOW IS MY HAVING MADE PUBLIC WHAT HAPPENED, HAVING BEEN ASKED BY KC ARMSTRONG TO BE ON A PODCAST . Initially, I didn’t respond. A month later, PBN called and asked again. I thought maybe this is Time to make what happened public. It could be cathartic. .. I didn’t know it would lead to the state and DEA Retaliating to the degree they have and continue to. It went on for a decade . The pervasive misconduct is a result of their attempting to cover up their primary human rights violations in a warrantless search and seizure. No evidence, no judge’s signature. Nothing. And they found not big having held me against my will for a crime I didn’t commit and had no intention on so doing….

. And what they had hoped would come to be during that time? It is horrifying and, according to a report from me, directs for a THIRD transfer: where would that have taken me? I was already

In jail, essentially. And it wasn’t to prison. against my will for event days

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Below is one of the several interviews.


One of the many shows I did

SO Was she a victim subjected to the nearly implausible and has thus far survived it, or could she have for this long attem[ted to fool us, cover up her foibles with stories of misconduct and what her could blame for the losses that she suffered? If I believed In II DX, I’d say if not, then she is a borderline histrionic gone wild. But for ten years regarding a highly complex subject matter where no matter the context, the details Always match. When you tell the truth, there are no variations, yet what happened to her is truly unbelievable. I wanted an interview to see up close this evidence she kept alluding to and promised at long length she will post. She has gotten backlash from every attempt to voice what happened. Though she admits she was hesitant to go on a significant podcast show; though flattered, she has been asked

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I hear her for the first time on the KC Armstrong show. She is interviewed by a professional life coach, and I am taken with her not needing t9 to be noted a certain way but don’t believe her story. It’s simply too incredulous. A borderline gone wild or someone who has genuinely endured hell. Her effect belied someone struggling with demons large enough to snuff out any excitement of being heard by millions. Those are some pretty large demons to take away that joy, that hope that it meant people would listen to the truth, and she had wanted that. The defamation kills her. And in a forum in which she would be validated as nothing But credible after ten years.

Where do we begin? I take a breath. I know I’m in for a doozy when she first digs in. Or so I’ve heard.

Where to start/ at the beginning, middle. At the end? Sometimes I think the best place to start is with where I’m at… state how those present circumstances are playing out in a directly relevant way…are in direct correlation with the events over the past eleven years now. The only way that LOGICALLY EXPLAINS EVERY BIT … but that isn’t how it’ll come out.. and Regarding MY CREDIBILITY ? …when HARD EVIDENCE AND FACTS come into play, such as that I possess, that brings an alleged conspiracy into the realm of actuality. And what happened to me was as REAL AS IM PERMANENTLY DISABLED IM EFFECT OF it. Will you tell me my imagination is the sole proprietor of my reality.

Maybe some wish that was the case, but hard evidence dispels that. I apologize to any sadists on here. Please remember this all happened over eleven years and continues, which is why I feel the need to state all I do. I got a call from the superior court today. Unless they do what I was told, she says…, pushing the complaint all the way forward, justice again will elude me as it did in 2015 when I was asked by an investigator as serious as it Was WHO would want to hurt me who would like me dead. Gar Decker, the lead agent of the 2011 warrantless search seizure, has taken over the property where I live, mainly I hadn’t seen him during the interrogations. At first, my statements countered, but then my sent emails in which she contradicted her statements to the board; and there is a reason for her fraudulent behavior, and I made it clear what it was: she did what was easy and collaborated with the state and DEA. Instead of reporting the illegalities against me, she chose to help them make it, so I could not have a life or be credible for over six years.’

Julie Assmus

Her first interview ; I disbelieved from the Beginning

As she said…Please remember this all happened over eleven years and continues. I got a call from the superior court today. Unless they do what I was told, she says..., pushing the complaint all the way forward, justice again will elude me as it did in 2015 when I was asked by an investigator as serious as it Was WHO would want to hurt

Start from Now. Or at least the last year in which you allege you wanted to move forward after the annulment of false charges, those as you say, literally ruled as such by a judge

It was a week after this first podcast that she, for the first time, made federal and stated illegal ties public; Julie alleges the DEA went to her provider and gave false information. She says it’s happened before; her ex-husband demanded the report, which proves my past providers having been directly complicit… And now. All over again, because I was asked to be on a show and publicize what happened to me.

The first car accident was the start of internal injuries that no one could see. Or instead, the first Attempt to have me charged with a crime which would have allowed the government to capture me for Intent in lack of any evidence. For what they had come at me full force three weeks prior. Wrong as they had been inevitable. They wanted to get me for a felony drug crime… To charge with with intent For what I never planned to do. Two Masters. Three weeks from an internship. And what was in OH WAS MY HAVING NO CRIMINAL INTENT SAVE SPARING SEIZURES before A SCHEDULED TAPER FIFTEEN YEARS AGO.

Why is that relevant?

Because if they had accomplished what they had sought out to do, both my providers would’ve cut me off cold, (both refused), and because of my conditions, I would’ve ended up in the ER within a few days of running out of meds…none of which would’ve had any of my reports from DHMC so would not have believed me or that I had the conditions on file

This meant, when I went into convulsions, they’d assume drug withdrawal or whatnot instead of because I didn’t have any of the medication. Because that was nixed from all systems too.

They tried to set me up for a hell after all they’ve done already. They want very badly to discredit me in the wake of that podcast series I WAS ASKED TO Do. I did not look to publicize it.

Julie Assmus

I went through my old files (much of which will be posted such as the warrant from CHIP GOARD SIGNED BY PATRICK DONNELLY; three of them subsequent to the accidentall denied by Newmarket PD. and found a warrant from the same officer who threw me in a cell instead of ICU after the accident in 2011…having lied on the report. He has three contracts signed by Patrick Donnelly, all of which were shot down by the Newmarket PDS

But how does this all relate? Beyond going to that first provider , I found another one in another state. After that, they went to DHMC in Manchester and told them whatever damning lies. In so much, the administration cut me off from all medical services. A provider in 2014 directly told me the feds came and asked for my record Alone. DHMC Would have no reason to believe they were lying. But what They didn't know is it has happened before. I told my neurologist there, who called me the day it happened. She called to warn me, advocated for me, said it was impossible. Sue realized I had been telling the truth. The piece she was missing was WHY they would want to do it again WHEN they did. 

So why Did they go and discredit you at This time as opposed to say three years ago?

Because I HAD JUST MADE PUBLIC ALL THE EVENTS OF THE LAST DECADE AT THE REQUEST OF PBN RADIO. KC Armstrong IMed me prior to the call and expressed interest in who I was. I did tue show AJD was as vague as one could be. Didn’t Matter. They certainly acted swiftly.

Julie, The most extensive critique you have is that you are unable to let this go 

Or worse yet, that you made this all up for attention and are now defending the lie…

What do you have to say about that

This has gone on until now, when I am still being harassed and surveillance due to the information I have on them. Anyone who knows knows

The Feds pay state employees significant incentives or pay to rake out liabilities like me. Those who they repeatedly acted against. …most recent were entrapmentments involving attempts to get me on four hits and run and also on selling my prescriptions, which I don’t. So fail AJD fail, the first because I know ‘too much’…and today, when I’m supposed to let it go when my systems have been hacked into, and a detective has verified that after the ex-chief of police befriended me began to text me and then texted me repeatedly during a recovery meeting to get into my laptop. Mike Frost 

He had been what I had thought was a friend

Had said things like

I’m you’re a right-hand man

And I’ve got your back

And even some quite inappropriate stuff… like I’m having naughty thoughts . When I get to posting evidence , any doubt will be dispelled..,. I promise you that

I asked my therapist I was seeing throughout all this how she believed me… She said it was becuase over the months AJD then years not one of the details or variables in what I said happened ever changed AJD givej I spoke of them in various order and context? She knew no falsity repeatedly panned out evenly like this. But what she did? What she was told? What she did in alliance with the exact entities she knew has severely damaged me? It’s amazing how fast people hop on that train. They say they never will but come along big guns that make them feel special, exclusively needed. If they knew they were being used AJD werejt chosen but the only one who could do the job, maybe they’d think twice, but the officials act as though they’ve been chosen to be privy to certain information. False. Then that person begins to look for evidence of it, whuch thej elicits my mistrust And ptsd. And the cycle begins..: what she did. It took nearly seven years but finally now? She can’t mess with her patients… her life is very very small and what she INTENDED me to feel out of envy and spite, misunderstanding resentment and her own unmet frustrated needs and projection? She now feels. Because of her sadistically inclined actions, acting out repressed sexual aggression , in her fury? Circumstances would have it( she is… sothoit

Just WithOut. Lonely Old woman’s hi can no longer delude herself she is the reflection she is boys that


My loony in here

When I submitted a complaint to NH attorney discripliciplr board they threatened to expose all my information. When I sent direct evidence. Time to report this with the evidence of their misconduct to the I

Essentially anyone… anytime.. for any reason. Like me can he nabbed based merely on suspicion/ all rights violated. Warrantless. Whether it is true or not they act. I learned that the hard way. They were so certain then angry when they found they had been wrong. Perhaps they weren’t willing to accept they were wrong.

I do not make it clear why they are doing what they are. There is NO reason for the I stituontio s such as Dgkc To ban me from all services based on defamation suddenly. And directly added I publicized what had happened to me . Did I want to go back? No . But to tell the truth, in a Safe forum and made it very public to millions internationally through a podcast I was asked to be on by KC Armstrong through IM message On Facebook. But it took the call drom PBN to get the message. I hesitated, then said yes, why not publicize what happened to me when the podcaster was renowned and believed my story. Why would ANYONS wand do intentionally make themselves look crazy when they haven’t even joined social media . I was and am a very private person, so this took those I knew by storm . But I felt I had no choice. And I’m hindsight, had I done it differently, I may well have been done in. I regret none of my actions. They saved my freedom and my life. But we aren’t there yet. I apologize. I hope I answered the question!!

In short 

That’s the thing when the injuries are all on the inside. Still, you’re hindered by them in ways others simply don’t understand, associating epilepsy only with one kind of fit rather than a condition that, when intractable, affects you every second as well as corrupts the brain further. Something that can be helped . ‘Just like the fact I Have to take two medications which are causing severe liver damage. My sixth MRI was just approved. But you know what?! Suddenly, after the DEA and or state went to my providers, my DHMC records were completely DROPPED REOM EVERY SYSTEM. PORTSMOUTH ER. Etc etc etc. I have two upcoming surgeries, one a major one. I physically went and got

I would have moved on as soon as I could have/$ I was in love with lofe for the first time, doe those eight months before I lost 80% of my brain capacities. But the pervasive misconduct that n their continued to This day, has made it very difficult this last year. I thought it would stop. It has not. I’ve since organized to ….nothing they can do. This isn’t a conspiracy theory. This is rear-ended three times by people who be from this country. As like the last ten years since 2011, never a problem or mention of police anything prior… this is what happened This Year for THEM to call the PD, so they show and hope to get me for a hit and run as the law is if rbere is a g accident efdn I you’re not at fault if you don’t pull over od it’s agreed upon, it’s a hit and run which is a demo by up there with stalking. They’d alleged it was. It would, of course, as it always had been set up/ I would also pull over knowing the game . And the fir was always up, but again the reports falsified to make it appear my fault, and this time three in a row would make it, so I lose my license as a severely disabled person.? I for the second time called the NH ATTORNEY GENERAL and the next days both false charges were dropped. But it was also the day I learned without a doubt my attorney had been complicit. That was very difficult to learn. But how she desperately tried to set me up after she suddenly learned an outcome she should have celebrated?! There was no doubt.

It’s well known among those ‘ who know’ (certain State, federal employees, cops, attorneys, all those who can’t openly acknowledge what is happening…but it’s well known I’ve been told by many of the aforementioned sources that feds will pay state employees big bucks to whitewash or eliminate liabilities like mine, and I will always be one. GIVEN the evidence I have could prove a charge against the state and DEA not yet ever proven. As well as that pervasive, ongoing rights violations and what they had planned? A third transfer? I couldn’t make up something less believably than the truth I must provide in touching upon the last decade of my life and to explain why I haven’t worked in the field I related and stretched in the way I would have hs I had CHOICES AS OPPOSED to being held hostage by the staff in the effect of false charges, etc. that led potential employers to say no way

It’s well-acknowledged by those who know, and few that would be otherwise how could we trust our officials. If we knew how corrupt they were when it was one of their own. How they would arrest charge and slaughter an innocent for sake of blue protecting blue. Happens all the time, every day ,every second I presume. But what happened to me continued as I had knowledge of police work and continued to outmaneuver their entrapments which further endangers me as more officials heads were on the table … So the harder I worked to outsmart them as I needed to in order to not get falsely arrested or charged, the angrier and more sadistic they’ve become. It’s outright startling what they NOW AT RHIS JUNCTURE ARE ATTEMPTIKG.z outright instutionalostoonzion, having cut me off from all medical services, providers and services included all medications for major epilepsy and heart conditions .

But why can’t I let it go? They won’t allow it 

Why makeup something crazy when your life COULDNT BE GOING MORE SMOOTHLY, and everyone could see THAT. The smart ones who knew me to know no one, most especially one as private as myself, makes up something nuts to make them appear nuts themselves to then spend all this time and energy lying to defend the lies that mass even look nuts/ WHY?!?’ When I was idealized for EXACTLY WHERE AND WHO I ALREADY WAS. And am. I always have to remember though people who have forgotten who I am 

That I would have let this go after the first accident if they haven’t acted against me pervasively and repeatedly so that I was unable to live my life without having to maneuver around there constantly and treatments are we caught up in them to have then to defend myself against things I did not do

This has gone on up until now this moment when I am still being harassed and when my systems have been hacked into, and that has been verified by a detective after the ex-chief of police befriended me began to text me and then texted me repeatedly during a recovery meeting to get into my laptop

He had been what I had thought was a friend

Had said things like

I’m you’re the right-hand man

And I’ve got your back

And I can’t wait until I can hug you again 

For ten years later, still wanted by the DOJ FOR his role in the very first incident that I will need to explain. I for ti are bir without context NONE of it will make sense

Quite sufficiently 👍! 

Please tell me exactly what happened I realize now there are 211 and one and 2015 both of which you said severely disabled You got to start you please explain the first one and why it happened now who what when where why please

Sure…. 

Then comes what has been Read…draft ONGOING

HAVE NOT YET WRITTEN THIS UP

https://ethics.journalists.org/what-is-the-nature-of-your-journalism/impartial-or-point-of-view/

I will tell the author of the interviewer at the end. It is not KC. Though I’ve intercepted some of the podcasts in

This will all be put in present tense. And hasn’t begun to touch the surface of where when what who and why

In short; why of all people would you be a liability or target for such extensive conduct on behalf of the entities you allege; I begin with rather a difficult one. I admit

I am a liability to the federal government and the state in the effect of the violations of my rights during a warrantless search and seizure in 2011. They suspected me of a form of domestic terrorism as well as were threatened by exposure of their conduct as they-noted i was looking up ‘hot sites’, or those websites the feds key in on should one be more pervasively inquisitive about the nature of their content. I am. And was. As they expose the actuality of the government not it’s fraudulent cover. Still, I believe it was more the words I was stating then and the fact I made and still make information public that kept me safe yet stoked the fires. They were going for me anyway…their indiscretions—; far too many of them… For me Not to be a liability. Should I choose to report id be heard. If I wasn’t a criminal. Defamed or done. Dead. By ‘accident’ of course. They had to ensure my word would be rendered useless. and my person incompetent. Over the years… The number of districts that became involved etc…either way, what followed was more horrific acts, not excluding solicited attempted murder. The last you’d expect from our government acting against one shown innocent after their thirteen-day sweep. As I WAS. As glorious as this sounds, it happens in this country every day to people like myself who are then stigmatized as who the Hell would believe them? I wasn’t

I can also respond like such, many different ways to explain what happened and do. I’m so used to relegating myself… please note the Crackdown on Domestic Terrorism and what that means. And how that can mean doing things I had no association with but I understand why they believed. But they didn’t think of just asking . No instead they have heej terrorizing as opposed to protecting our citizens. Like me

https://www.fbi.gov/investigate/terrorism

What made me such a liability? Was ongoing, pervasive criminality against me and by whom. Systematically they went about every avenue possible to destabilize them criminalize me. When a false arrest and incarceration was officially marked, their next act exceeded this last one by nearly again succeeding in taking my life, again by the car accident. The false incarnation, inducing after all the misconduct and shock and an HR OF 38 /which made me a liability should they transfer me, so they instead released me: each time God's grace. The one honest officer at the scene of 2015 said I had less than a 1% chance of surviving and only did because I lacked the instinct to react. I was and had been in shock for nearly six years at that lokmy? Untreated die to the falsified reported and lies about my person. Essentially what I can prove they did that puts me at a disadvantage because it doesn't mean I intended to. But now? Due to their actions? I HAVE TO

But aside from that…Where are you now? And how does it, if at all, relate to the past.

I had thought I was to move on from that. I fully intended to until the annulment comes up. I had survived the systematic process used on civilians like me and remained Free, alive, but to then be credible as well? That is too threatening. And they began what ill refer to and felt like, digging into me, my computer, and life in all ways, shapes and forms that in combination in no way could be denied. It was targeting. And it was happening again.

You spoke of these landmark moments in the KC Armstrong series. Can you run down those and the dates, perhaps elaborate on one of them?


Well that’s not an issue 2011: feds and state violated my rights in a warrantless search and seizure. Also was the first major car accident in which a chiropractor said he would testify against the state as they had held me in jail with a near broken neckas well as severe brain bleeds. That’s fact that isn’t histrionics. . 2014 I was falsely incarcerated and it was even ruled as such for the charge to be slapped back on three week later 2015 the solicited hit; every bit of evidence needed to prove the government deli attempted this, the frosting being the disability they HANDED ME, commissioner signed. That was nice… shall I go on or into detail on one of them…

I had to admit, I was impressed with her answer .

When it became undeniably clear was this past month when I was cut off from all medical services at DHMC, given three different reasons, and called by my neurologist five times in an attempt to warn me of what she in no way wanted herself to happen. So that right there knocked out two of the wrong reasons. So much of what I’ve been told are outright lies, while I’m made out not to be credible and affect the most? Is my health care.

So, what you are telling me is that the misconduct harassment and abuse is Still happening?

YOU DONT MAKE THIS S*** up when you’ve never lied before in your life. Why would you ruin your reputation on purpose? I knew I had to do that in order to make public why was happening so it could serve as a possible deterrent from their engaging in further illegally if I was reporting it. And it did serve as one when I pointed this out on two occasions. It made a world of difference. It was back out the back door they took me in. Even though I had been the one to call. This happened three times. I called, then was arrested. Any chance they got. How safe the world must feel for me. So sorry.

Most certainly. And most especially after I was asked to be on the KC Armstrong show. I will post a link to one of the six interviews, and I plan to do a few more in the future if not develop mine more fully. So much of my energy has been focused on my health. Each time I go in for a particular procedure, it seems I'm diagnosed with something else. So as opposed to going out into the world, clear of those horrific malicious charges and able to work, my body caught up with the onslaught of my mind. It was told several times I had been in ongoing shock. It had drastically affected my organs, including my heart, but Exeter. However, one was honorable enough, to be honest with me in person> would not repeat these things. When I brought his comments up with patient relations, I received a seven-page letter saying Different reasons. Hospitals and other establishments will never be hells accountable. 

Second or third interview with Armstrong

Was anyone you were acquainted with or knew involved in this….debacle

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