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Evolution of consciousness reworked and written by me; Julie Assmus

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Five 30min interviews with KC ARMSTRONG .Very excited

Five 30min interviews with KC ARMSTRONG .Very excited

https://julieassmustheword.wordpress.com/2021/02/24/five-39min-interviews-with-kc-anthony-very-excited/
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Here’s some of a story not to tell your childreI’ve tried this before I’ll try it again. . n

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MotionNotes

https://julieassmustheword.wordpress.com/2022/08/07/motion/
— Read on motionnotes in regards to the malicious prosecution where the DA defended my own mEspecially when the only REACTION to her betrayal when they expected A LOT MORE WAS A MERE MESSAGE AND PHRASE OF SPEEXH. So ,and phrase of speech based on finding out sue betrayed me for the entire time she was my attorney aligning with the very parties whom had harmed me…they filed based on a VOICEMAIL I LEFT and phrase of speech upon finding out what she did after getting nothing despite trying for three years

So DID THE DA STEP in when I filed with the board of attorneyDISCIPLINE REGARDING #Susan Lowry’s MISCONDUCT?! Because the state and feds didn’t want their federal illegalities and misconduct exposed . They did not want their (and their overhead the feds;but the DOJ? Kinda is) misconduct dating back to a warrantless investigation which all my rights were violated because they had been as wrong as they believed they were certain. It was when I showed them the evidence which contradicted every statement she made to the state/ all the emails which contradicted every single statement she had made to them as well…and the feds and state had a lot to hide and a lot of liability (but that’s too much to get into why here now)

Formerly & a subsequent my phones had been taken over and this Was verified by several parties…I had to get a new phone , new number and Apple ID and believe that has also already been comprised S the feds and the state can hack anything. I constantly feel raped/ also prior to the malicious prosecution once they were aware I he the emails I did they went through each account she wrote me on and erased them . They went through it ALL AND FOUND NOTHING CRIMINAL. They are dying for me to commit a crime or be pressed into doing so (please check out the Google review for the kittery PD… I’ll post THAT next…)

They act out dangerously towards me like this I make it public VERIZON has deleted my other number from my account yet it keeps popping up as though I’m associated with it though I have absolutely no ability to use that number whatsoever. It shut off before I even Got to the Verizon store while I was on the phone with an agent. (Incentive to go to Verizon is literally having no service )…

It’s to stay safe from further harm/ I can’t take more/ I’ve been on my porch more than a few times vomiting after feeling my heart seize and diagnosed with a lot of inner and outer conduction that has my body in shock for seven years prior treatment/ and they still want me to take it up the A**| and #Susan Lowry because they had no one who was wiling to lie about me and her and all they had from he FROM ME WAS A VOICEMAIL AND ANGRY EMAILS AFTER FINDING AOUT she beeesyed me for seven years. Had she not the amount of damage I could have been spared , the amount we could have incurred from the damages done, all the Justice she could have had upon her and the respect that woukd have been deserved for her courage/ instead I not only did whe Ajob? But against her OWN WILL AS MY OWN ATTORNEY. Who is THAT SMART?!? I’m sorry . NOT ME

SO TELL ME THERE IS NO GOD OR explain how that is all Possible/ to have survived against an army of feds and state and local pD and my own attorney without any ‘original’ training\ Ir was NOT was not an easy academy AT ALL/ on par with SEALS EXCEPT dealing with extra sensory phenomenon

Because it’s state run and instead of b th em acting on it as they should they Keyes’s write me a seven page letter essentially blackmailing me stating if I decided to pursue the complaint likely all info about me past and present true r not woukd be made public

There’s nothing more that I want than the truth abo he me to be known. But the fact they acted in alliance with the state as opposed To helo me with not something I had thought through. And because they are rats they told they state I had evidence that could expose their grievous illegalities/ em essentially. If she was questioned it was quite possible the whole truth would unravel and that was the last thing the state wanted so they stepped. I HAD WONDERED MOST RECENTLY PRIOR TO THAT, why I was being as targeted as I was/

But I never finished regarding the malicious prosecution (short form)…

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Thanks to two likes from those I want to mention though you perhaps I’ll keep you Anonymous. Thank you for reading and the likes

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Yes I wrote it. It’s a totally different topic. Thank GOD. Much more . enjoyable. Link at bottom of photo

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MOTION FOR RELIEF from many parties.

Any points I’m missing?!?

I’m sure there are several elements I’m missing but this is a good start and took two hours to summarize, a complete fool I’d be to publicize what ISNT TRUE. But to say what is, I don’t have anything to lose . Except what they keep taking any how. My credibility and repeated attempts at my freedom.

THERE WOULD BE NO REASON NOT TO CONTINUE TO PURSUE MY SAFETY FROM FURTHER DAMAGE AND HORROR INFLICTED BY THE STATE AND FEDERAL POLICE RESPONSIBLE, not excluding those likes of Stephen MCcauely, Gary Decker, a Wilbur whom are the type of cop of comply with fraud and further discrimination against me; Mike Frost & such corrupt of like . To say Nothing is what led them to use a voicemail to file a stalking charge against me. So they lost their chance at that. Now no more anonymity.

THIS last pArticular MALICIOUS PROSECUTION was begun and served after they learned of the evidence I held against my attorney of late, Susan Lowry, who I found too late had collaborated with the state. That led to the board , state sanctioned, then blackmailing me when they realized I held the evidence needed to charge her. They threatened to re expose my annulled record of false charges being Re exposed and charges that were not present added.

I take responsibility for the s*** I’m my 20s but not what I have no association with. Nope . Can’t do it!

Defamation and a host of other damage to occur within the six years my record could have been annulled the first year by petition. There were no convictions. Only charges.

The other motive may also have been retaliation as She was angry her ILLEGALITIES WERE EXPOSED to the board ofattorneys and instead of be accountable, she gave the state just enough to move forward with allegation they alleged piggy backed off a charge that had never existed and been ruled a false charge by a federal judge

In a court of law in front of several competent witnesses

Malicious prosecution through state Commissioner will be first

I request the following relief in the amount of? for the ongojng defamation, false statements given, ger direct collaboration with state misconduct & malicious prosecutions, tgis last one going so far as to base an alleged second one on a first one AHE was well aaafd had been ruled false by a federal judge. She attempted to hand over certain emails and false allegations to the state OUT OF RETALIATION DIRECTLY AFTER MY HAVING FILED A COMPLAINT WITH THE STATE

Susan Lowry never reported any illegalities against me nor my federal disability status. She instead made repeated false allegations on

JUNE 15th, 2022 in regards to my person And in alliance with federal and state misconduct that began in 2011 after a need for them to cover up many illegals aNd human rights violations on their end

I became severely disabled ♿ n the process and to learn my attorney had been worming against me. I said many things. Yet never went to her office.

WERE IT NOT but FOR HER REPEATEDLY PROMPTING ME TO ASK HER LEGAL QUESTIONS after that last trial, charges only dropped in effect of a last minute call j made to the attorney general…AND TELLING ME OF HER GREAT RESPECT FOR WHAT I WENT THROUGH, her essentially stating the opposite of what she alleged in court June 15, 2022.

I’ll make sure to post that email

She lied, perjury in court and out, the prosecutor who had planned to prosecute this and decide it ended up defending her in small claims

Despite the fact all my communication was for the purpose of legal matter or understanding where she WAS, it was all covered by first amendment . Desperately tried to make me look like a dangerous stalker

Uhhh good luck when all you have is a voicemail after five months and not once did I ever go to her office. And man they wanted me to go.

Second she NEVER acted out of fear having stated her in an email she understood my anger but not to scare people with my words . Indicating she was not one of them? Having this awAreness of my disabilities.

First the hearing was held on a day it would not have been had the pla tiff not lied about the grounds for which the emergency order was based in that she well knew the first charge was ruled false by a federal judge, the alleged plaintiff everyday coming to the jail begging for the release of gis fiancé, only to be threatened on the seventh day and Told if he continued to attempt to help me get out THE CONSEQUENCES woukd be that what

And her. Playing victim? Oh yes. Especially after all the damage she did to me. I did nothing illegal. She did. Repeatedly then dated press false charges based on a FRAUDULENT FIRST CHARGE against me. All the other elements As well from lying etc she met the criteria for: easily: and easily proven. They had one STATEMENT ON ME. Nothing done. A phrase of speech they used to get a stalking charge?!? How?!

WOULD HAPPEN TO ME WOULD HAPPEN TO HIN

And the officer did not identify himself.

The facts? Had it not been for near heart failure given I was in shock and when it was tKeb it was 36; you all had already injured me severely and then the state made it impossible to get held by falslfying the report

You ask why would they do all this?

It ALL BEGAN IN 2011 with the feds DEA and state then subsequently several local police officers violating my rights on an insane level. I almost died in jail . Because the report was falslfied. The notice? Incriminate the one who was violated when it was without a warrant or any judges permission or anything which permitted them to do all they did , UNLESS I WAS GUILTY AND THEY WERE SO HELL bent on proving what they were wrong abojt ybdy subjected my person to what was undeserved in All ways. I never had trouble with the law former to calling in one RX in OG TO BE MEDICALLY safe prior a psychiatric appointment and tAper from benzos. I wanted to be physically safe and he wouldn’t help me until j sA bin. I didn’t want to drink and we were out of options. That was what that charge was about. Unless the judge wants to make an example of you and desire NO CRIMINAL MOTIVE AND ONE OVCURANCE? I was charged ten times As though tbis was. Repressed occurrence. Then All that should not be is still on my record.

NOW YOU KNOW THE CONTEXT

ITS HARD TO BE SORRY FOR WHAT I HAD TO DO to stay safe from severe state and federal corruption. Unless you’ve faced of you have no idea

AND IN REGARDS TO THE S CHARGE

LITERALLY SUSAN LOWRY Damn well knew it was false and tried to use it to uo this to a district level where the state prosecutor who ended up defending her in small claims would have put me AWAY. From what he was emphasizing and the fact they had wanted to indict me and find any reason. AND THEY HAVE TRIED, continue to. And I feel nothing but harrassed by them. As though the cops have the liberty to do that and we don’t have the right to call them on it when they are in fact harrassing. I have EVIDNCE OF THE KITTERY CHIEF HAVING acted out FRAUDULENT UPON MEETING ME.

What did he do? Stopped Dead center on a highway on ramp and pulled over. Unmatked car. I passed and his lights went on. Pulled over but glad I continued on. It wasn’t until other cops got involved that I felt safe and he had to explain what he wasn’t able to without lying.

And I have it all recorded. I did nothing wrong and had the chief not been attempted to entrap me, I would not hold evidence by way of dashdam that he soz

THIS MALICIOUS PROSECUTION was begun and served after they learned of the evidence I held against am attorney who I found too late had collaborated with the state. That led to the board then blackmailing me, my annulled record being Re exposed and charges that were not present added.

Defamation and a host of other damage to occur within the six years my record could have been annulled the first year by petition. There were no convictions. Only charges.

In a court of law in front of several competent witnesses

Please contact me for ANY NEEDED INFORMATION AS NONE OF WHAT I STATE IS PERJURY, most of what she alleged in the malicious prosecution was and they had truky thought I’d be indicted based on making me out as a bad seed though I am the opposite, all As grad sxhool 4.1, etc,

They had a large investment in it as this was what they have wanted desperately for a long long time

To SILSNCE ME

THE LIABILITY TO THE STATE DUE TO SEVERE HUMAN RIGHT VIOLATIONS

(Ive been interviewed for international podcasts and other shows, etc)

My complaints regarding Susan Lowry were justified she acts out like a child and gave the state exactly what it needed. Something. Anything to hold against me. She like me did not l if it would Lead my life behind bars they intended to piggyback it on a charge ruled false and was. In a district where the public defender would have had 70% weight in the decision and from the way he was defending her, I would have been institutionalized based on his falsified account completely leaving out the severity of my struggles with my disabilities, how I’m dealing with several health issues, and so much that was in every way contrary to what they alleged.

I CAN EASILY PROVE THEY LIED. And why. Like the board of the emails in which she TELLS ME TO ASK HER any legal questions, especially if someone is trying to steal my identity which was odd considering that’s exactly what happened next.

So many messages saying YOUR PHONE NUMBER IS NOW BEING USED ON A NEW IPHONE. And there isn’t a hell of a lot I can do about it you know?

No option to. Then people call and ask me not to text them when I’ve never contacted them before… Tell them this, go to the number under text and ass I’ve already texted them I haven’t texted, and please not call me with the same complaint again. So I just cut and paste it so it proves the person called twice. Just annoying.

I’ve been told by Verizon AMD other to change my number and identify its entirety. Thars scary.

Motive; retaliation as well as planned;

The antagnism

concurrence

EVIDNCE: tons

How the plaintiff directly contributed to the crime; direct entrapment, repeated, alliance with state and other.

State collaboration ; motive; too difficult to NOT

We’re it NOT BUT FOR THE BEHAVIOROF THE PLANTIFF AND WORDSDIRECTLY CONTRARY TO THE PERJERY AHE PFFETED IN COURT, u would not have made the statementaI did

Also LET IT BE NOTED THAT I never went down to her office

Not even as her client and I have or had enails to prove it

Also please let it be noted that she acknowledged AFTER SHE ALLEGED SHE CUT OFF CONTACT THAT MY cloud accounts had been hacked.

I read that one email in court to cross examine the statement she made about the alleged email in March and how she couldn’t have told me that if she wrote me so casually several times thereafter including to tell me she was still my attorney and to feel free to ask her any question; ESPECIALLY IF I FELT THE STATE WAS EVER ATTEMPTING TO STEAL MY IDENTITY

Fraud; ger emailing confirming my iCloud accounts were hacked

I never mentioned I cloud

But she was right . She knew. She set me up for much of what she subsequently charged me on.

We’re it NOT BUT FOR HET HAVING WRITTEN EMAILS DIRECTLY SHOWING her having stated to me the opposite of what she alleged on client, my communication would have ceased. But I had no reason to believe I should reach out to anyone BUT HER should any legal issue arise. Even in the Alleged September email. We’re it sent? It still didjt express that.

AFTER I OFFERED THIS EVIDENCE IN COURT FROM AN EMAIL ACCOUNT I thereafter found out that the several dozens of rest of them had been deleted but NOT THE ONES SENT TO THE OTHER ACCOUNTS which led me further to beldodcs that she gave the state just enough for them to file and press a charge as they attempted the first time, yet y like that time this time I was NOT INDICTED

Felnonious reporting; fraud & perjury

THEY USED A FALSE FIRST CHARGE IN ATTEMPTING TO ALHAVE ME indicted a second time, despite the fact she was well aware of was false, ; the state took the complaint to a level have wanted and needed AMD attempted to indicate to me based on what they were WELL AWARE was a false primary stalking charge official typed false by a federal judge in a courtroom in front of five credible witnesses my public defender included. So this proves a strong desire to act out against me in the same illegal manner they have innumerable times before. The first charge The state took Over despite the local Of protests and arrested me for stalking based on an order a judge placed on the neighbors below is, my own the house we were renting. Arrested in my own home for stalking every person will stay was obsessed with ME to the degree the next year I needed. PD

scort to get out of there safely Nd assures them he WOULDNT conspire with the PD to help them then find out what was truly in store. An express to federal without a hearing which souls have proved what it did. THE ALLEGED PLAINTIFF NEVER FILED CHARGES DIRECTLY against me. NOTHING LIKE BEING ACCUSED OF WHAT IS OCCURRING TO YOU WITH REGARDS TO YOUR FIANCÉ AND PD. harassment and stalking behavior. I had NONe. And would not change a thing or I’d be dead. The local cops came to visit after I got out, the two that helped were suddenly absent from the department, and their fate was not disclosed. So while Goard was promoted to STATE PD FROM EXETER PD FOR ALL HIS FEDERAL ILLEGALITIES WITHOUT ANY RECOURSE NOT EVEN 1893. Because his thee warrants after keeping me in jail instead of ICU based on his falsified report… he tried to kill me once and wanted me in his cursory again in such a vulnerable state. And that animal was promoted. While the two who did what was ETGICllt MORLLLT AND LEGALLY IN THE RIGHT WERE SOMEHOW LET GO. How is that going to make the PD safer? When those who justifiably helped me were punished and that abo nearly killed or severely injuries me promoted/ and Exeter hospital. Wentworth Douglas AMD all their liabilities: THERE is NO STATUTE OF LIMITATIONS FOR FLASLFIED STATEMENTS AND THAT IS ALL THEY HAVE!!! no evidence. Just bullshit false allegations they can’t prove for shit as much as they have set me up and tried/ even n trying to put me away for life on an alleged second charge based on a PHONE CALL. That was very much warranted. What I said to that woman, Lowry? Was accurate. Not sorry! She the fuck should be for all her fraud and lies and the damage that did to me for years, the defamation, this malicious prosecution. She will be prosecuted. I do not care what they try. I won’t allow this to continue ringing in my life. A charge that again disallows me to be functional in society and is based on a JUSTIFIED PHONE MESSAGE CALLING &Susan Lowry on her shit. She deserved every good damnEd word. I did NOT deserve what she did. Until she apologizes for conduct that nearly destroyed my life I have no incentive to be apologetic towards her for my REACTION TO REPEATED BETRAYALS, every statement made to the board was a lie and when I evidenced to them they proceeded to threaten me. Because they state-affiliated. When the state learned of the evidence I had against Susan Lowry they panicked as if she was prosecuted and questioned perhaps their part in WHY SHE BETRyed my confidence on every level would be EXPOSEDConcurrence

; THIS MALICIOUS PROSECUTION was begun and served after they learned of the evidence I held against am attorney who I found too late had collaborated with the state. That led to the board then blackmailing me, my annulled record being Re exposed and charges that were not present added.

Defamation and a host of other damage to occur within the six years my record could have been annulled the first year by petition. There were no convictions. Only charges.

In a court of law in front of several competent witnesses

They had a large investment in it as this was what they have wanted desperately for a long long time

To SILSNCE ME

THE LIABILITY TO THE STATE DUE TO SEVERE HUMAN RIGHT VIOLATIONS

(Ive been interviewed for international podcasts and other shows, etc)

My co-prints were warranted and justified she acts out like a child and gave the state exactly what it needed. Something. Anything. RO hold against me. She like me did not l if it would Leandro mg life behind bars they intended to piggyback it on a charge ruled false and was. In a district where the public defender would have had 70% weight in the decision and from the way he was defending her, I would have been institutionalized based on his falsified account completely leaving out the severity of my struggles with my disabilities, how I’m dealing with several health issues, and so much that was in every way contrary to what they alleged.

So many messages saying YOUR PHONE NUMBER IS NOW BEING USED ON A NEW IPHONE. And there isn’t a hell of a lot I can do about it you know?

I’ve been told by Verizon AMD other to change my number and identify its entirety. Thars scary.

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MOTION FOR RELIEF for malicious prosecution; fair considering it’s the truth and staying silent hasn’t helped

The WHOLE CASE WAS BASED OFF ALL THEY COULD GET, defamation of my character with help from the attorney, and a phrase of SPEECH. Thirteen years of charges yet NO ACTION. So the judge asks where’s the behavior that is dangerous or illegal? I see the allegations and defamation of her character, prior nothing bad to he said in her 32 years… odd considering there was motive, opportunity, concurrence evidence and all else to pan out a case proving WHY THE FEDS AND STATE NEEDED TO ENSURE MY SILENCE; one way or another only AFTER THEIR OWN ILLEGAL ACTIONS. Nor MINE

Susan Lowry never reported any illegalities against me nor my federal disability status. She instead made repeated false allegations on

JUNE 15th, 2022

WERE IT NOT but FOR HER REPEATEDLY PROMPTING ME TO ASK HER LEFAL QUESTIONS after that last trial, charges only dropped in effect of a last minute call j made to the attorney general…AND TELLING ME OF HER GREAT RESPECT FOR WHAT I WENT THROUGH, her essentially stating the opposite of what she alleged in court June 15, 2022.

I’ll make sure to post that email

She lied, perjury in court and out, the prosecutor who had planned to prosecute this and decide it ended up defending her in small claims

Uhhh good luck when all you have is a voicemail after five months and not once did I ever go to her office. And man they wanted me to go.

WOULD HAPPEN TO ME WOULD HAPPEN TO HIN

And the officer did not identify himself.

You ask why would they do all this?

NOW YOU KNOW THE CONTEXT

WHY DID I GET CHARGED TEN TIMES FOR A FELONY? Because I called in once as my vetonarian for the exact amount needed to be physically safe before a planned taper with a psych I HADNT met and would not help me until we did. I was out of options

There was no criminal intent and as OPPOSED TO HURTING MYSELF OR OTHERS, I WAS TRYINF TO BE MEDICALLY SAFE AND NOT DRINK AND BREAK MY SOBRIETY

ITS HARD TO BE SORRY FOR WHAT I HAD TO DO

AND IN REGARDS TO THE S CHARGE

Defamation and a host of other damage to occur within the six years my record could have been annulled the first year by petition. There were no convictions. Only charges.

In a court of law in front of several competent witnesses

They had a large investment in it as this was what they have wanted desperately for a long long time

To SILSNCE ME

THE LIABILITY TO THE STATE DUE TO SEVERE HUMAN RIGHT VIOLATIONS

(Ive been interviewed for international podcasts and other shows, etc)

My complaints regarding Susan Lowry were justified she acts out like a child and gave the state exactly what it needed. Something. Anything. RO hold against me. She like me did not l if it would Leandro mg life behind bars they intended to piggyback it on a charge ruled false and was. In a district where the public defender would have had 70% weight in the decision and from the way he was defending her, I would have been institutionalized based on his falsified account completely leaving out the severity of my struggles with my disabilities, how I’m dealing with several health issues, and so much that was in every way contrary to what they alleged.

So many messages saying YOUR PHONE NUMBER IS NOW BEING USED ON A NEW IPHONE. And there isn’t a hell of a lot I can do about it you know?

I’ve been told by Verizon AMD other to change my number and identify its entirety. Thars scary.

Motive; retaliation as well as planned;

The antagnism

concurrence

EVIDNCE: tons

How the plaintiff directly contributed to the crime; direct entrapment, repeated, alliance with state and other.

State collaboration ; motive; too difficult to NOT

We’re it NOT BUT FOR THE BEHAVIOROF THE PLANTIFF AND WORDSDIRECTLY CONTRARY TO THE PERJERY AHE PFFETED IN COURT, u would not have made the statementaI did

Also LET IT BE NOTED THAT I never went down to her office

Not even as her client and I have or had enails to prove it

Also please let it be noted that she acknowledged AFTER SHE ALLEGED SHE CUT OFF CONTACT THAT MY cloud accounts had been hacked.

Fraud; ger emailing confirming my iCloud accounts were hacked

I never mentioned I cloud

But she was right . She knew. She set me up for much of what she subsequently charged me on.

Felnonious reporting; fraud & perjury

Defamation and a host of other damage to occur within the six years my record could have been annulled the first year by petition. There were no convictions. Only charges.

In a court of law in front of several competent witnesses

They had a large investment in it as this was what they have wanted desperately for a long long time

To SILSNCE ME

THE LIABILITY TO THE STATE DUE TO SEVERE HUMAN RIGHT VIOLATIONS

(Ive been interviewed for international podcasts and other shows, etc)

So many messages saying YOUR PHONE NUMBER IS NOW BEING USED ON A NEW IPHONE. And there isn’t a hell of a lot I can do about it you know?

I’ve been told by Verizon AMD other to change my number and identify its entirety. Thars scary.

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My art of the last ten years I’ve never sold or hung being severely disabled, being knocked off by #Todd Bonita & his galleries alongside #Gretchen Desautels who will also be sued for due distress and damages, copyright fraud, selling my art and keeping full commission , fraudulently using my signature and these are facts. #Pleasant Shoppe . If my art is there it should NOT BE V

STEALING my work of years and betraying my trust for hears as an attorney are the only two federal crimes of dozens committed against me that I am choosing to pursue unless anyone else would like to try and intervene and be added to the list. I understand the complications of my suit against SUSAN, but her directly AIDING THE PARTY THAT WRONGED ME TOGETHER with lack of reporting and neglect and failure to adhere to the gee legal obligations as duties…is TOO HEAVY FOR ANY WRONGED CLIENT WHOSE PAID A MAJOR PRICE.

Among several other things I was most recently SET UP FOR AN EXPRESS qay TO FEDERAL PRISON BASED ON AN ORDER LATER RULED FRAUDULENT AS IT WAS BASED OFF AN ATTORNEY SJE WAS vet well aware hr only was not true vt literally ruled false by a judge… so they could feed off am alleged bad seed theory; in district would have of ‘me’ could have landed me in federal without being heard or anyone hearing or seeing the evidence of her perjury ; they HER, even knowing it was not a second charge. And prosecution knows, okcs you are in jail its no longer sit-in the government governments duties. In other words the only word in there that goes is not the law? But the warden. And do you think they would set me up for a warden understanding of my situation or convinced I was planning what they shape fed originally. As he could not believe I rid what he would know by law I sis nor but could tell hik self to rationalize me presence and his pubijtovdkeaurea upon it had they not intervened I would have done whatever they had thought that was. I am still not sure exactly what to this day/ Anyways…

The more reverse image searches I do of my older work, the sicker I feel, as BONITAS has officially committed copyright fraud as has Desautels. It’s something that will see the light of a courtroom, and with an SD CARD UNLOCKED in an inactive iPhone? And the hundreds of shots of the same shot that is a good one I’ve ever used? It won’t be hard to prove the art is mine
I got sloppy or lazy and stopped being so diligent about watermarking
That along with the fact it’s TEN YEARS OF MY WORK IVE NEVER GOTTEN OUT DUE, TO MY DISABILITIES, it’s pretty devastating and will be amended and settled.

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There are three accounts. Only one is correct. Also as I’ve tried to inform the PD, I’ve received several messages and texts stating that my number is being used on a new iPhone. Then actual strangers calling angry because they infer I’ve texted them given it’s coming from my number , allegedly. And apparently whomever has hacked my accounts and phone now, has not had pleasant things to say to these strangers who calls whose number I don’t know and there is no record of my having texted on my phone which if I had there definitely would be. I need to report this ASAP before it is assumed I’ve said what I never did.

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The Matter at HAND

Free speech

Yes what was said concerned legal

IN this matter Susan attempts to use a past charge she knows was ruled false by a federal judge in 2014 against me in this case which is misleading and fraudulent. She also lied to the board which when I evidenced they then blackmailed me given their alignment with the state incentives at this time & she Will lie to you in order to show me as she well knows I am not/

There’s no way she can explain her conduct in a sense that seems legal s as it was not/

SHE WANTED THIS ORDER TO ENSURE MY Onmg time to give you an impression of myself is 30 minutes whereas most admit I’m well liked and other positive things she doesn’t want you to see, having painted the picture of a ‘bad seed’ by not calling me back in regards to one of the accidents except try one BEFORE THE ANNULMENT THAT would have taken it off the table: I NEVER HAD LEGAL ISSUES BEFORE. Never had a no a no trespass or ANYTHING OF SUCH A NATUE issued

For Susan Lowry to attempt to make me out as the opposite is the last and worst betrayal most especially after acknowledging it all happened and how brace I was to get through it. Of course I can’t find the email for it now..:

She says I wanted to she the state for conspiracy and the damages associated? We far as I AM AWARE there is no evidence of that nor her stating on One OCCASION SHE MAY HE WILLING TO SUE FOR DAMAGES ONCW THE ANNULLMENT WAS COMPLETE

I HAVE A many emails FROM her, which given they contradict her words to everyone else, would make anyone suspicious. She was supposed to have my back but instead ENACTED the kind attorney to not act as one in far more ways than one

OF EMAILS IN WHICH indicates THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT SHE INDICATED TO OTHERS, such as the board

Such HERE FOR EXAMPLE IS EVIDENCE of ACKNOWLEDGING THE SERIOUSNESS OF BEING HACKED AND THAT SHE WELL KNEW IT WAS HAPPENING OR WOULDNT HAVE WRITTEN IT AS SHE DID

She would never just acknowledged it as opposed to questiom my competence or whether I was being ‘paranoid’….instead she has verified the truth

YET LIKE ALL OTHER PREVIOUS MISCONDUCT SHE SAID SOMETHING IN NOT RESPONSE UT NEVER REPORTED THE MAJOR ILLEGALTKES

INVESTIGATED AS A SOLIITED ATTEMPTED MURDER by estimate of the first question the agent asked me

HERE IS EVIDENCE I TOLD HER OF A MAJOR ACCIDENT AS YOU FAN HERE see, and her acknowledgment: GIVEN WHAT WAS RULED A FALSE INCARCERATION THE YEAR BEFORE, she had every reason to report it yet she didn’t. The YEAR AFTER THE ANNULMENT I WAS REAR ENEED SEVERAL TIMES WHICH WOUKD AND COULD HAVE REVERSED IT.

He said it we a miracle I survived. I know !

‘…:/..’

But then subsequently spoke with Susan and the state whom made me out as competent ivcometent

THOUGH I HAVE PROOF HER SHE FAILED TO DISMISS A MOTION TO

ALSO she alleged she couldn’t amnill the debate u tol 2020 to my parents yet to me her is evidence she is stating we shoukd attempt to file the petition in 2017. And as far as I know there was No good reason we couldn’t file it first thing , espeiday given it was the plentiff himself who defended me that day, had gone to the jail and pled he never filed the charges, to my to he threatened on the seventh .

Playing the victim? Yet bet

Susan is playing the victim so as to not have to face consequences for all her illegalities and role in conspiring with the state as opposed to aiding me. As was her legal obligation. I found out six years in she had been betraying me the entire time.

In the email below she is Telling me how to plead to my compete detriment. Ok a case I WAS REAR ENDED THAT SAME YEAR I WAS REAR ENDED AGAIN FOUR TIMES.

Is she bluffing? I wish I didn’t have so much evidence of it

The evening prior the last trial I called the nh attorney general and that may have been the only reason the false charges were drilled. So they literally tried the exact same thing thee time again. i tried to tell Susan-of tgis if o my to have a record I was TRying to do what WAS RIFYT AND CONTACT HET Rather than try and handle it. Had I not called him I would have ended up losing my license after losing everything else. For her to KNOW THIS and still lie to me and everyone else instead of help me get JUSTICE. It made it so I wasn’t beleoce and nearly worse still was her acknowledgement j was likely part of o my 5% sho got through what I did, Dre and alive: she will never admit to this Now. And she knows when NOT When to keep record

Susan never explained anything to me. And I am federally disabled but certainly able, with a masters degree and a ton of life experience. As far as I am aware she conspired with the state & their defamation. Otherwise she would have filed the petition for my annulment the first year she was hired not the fifth given they were all charges. No convictions . They want to charge me.

I am a liability given what was done to me in 2011.

Charges were dropped in effect of my calling the NH attorney general AMD explaining the situation thrn and how it had been pervasive repeated and ongoing misconduct and abuse with motive . And I learned Susan, my own attorney , had been apart of that, as opposed to reporting any of the illegalities that were happening to me.

Had she I would have been spared an infinite amount of damage distress pain & injury. She was HIRED IN 2014 for a record annulment. And didn’t accomplish this until she filed the petition five years into my case, her excuse always the same. She said the prosecution was to blame. But they were just charges. No evidence ever of any crimes. Because none were committed.

It wasn’t until the last hearing that I realized she had tried to set me up. Several times. I can explain and describe exactly how if you’d like me to.

The delay of annulling my record was repeatedly emphasized in her emails after I was rear ended in Hampton then literally blackmailed by the civil attorney to admit to being there or be sued for a million. And though she could have achieved that in the six years prior to it she is going along with the states agenda as she had always been

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to know; they will do anything for an indictment.

Please note there js ACTUALLY A FORM OF STALKING IM EHICH THE STALKER STAYS AWAY BECAUSE THEY believe the ‘victim’ is in love… withvTHEN! The defendant accusedbofbm

SL INTENDS TO USE what she is aware is a charge ruled false by a federal judge. Along with UNWARRANTED BASELESS other accusations over the years in attempt falsel accuse me of stalking

The state needed something.. ANYTHING THEN I CALLED SUSAN. Someone Who was my attorney for seven years until a few months ago. And she gave them something to use abaiShe acts out of Retaliation or it was something and they used it. Baseless in legal arena so I’m guessing they PLAN TO INDICT ME BASED ON AN ALLEGED PATTERN OF BAD CHARACTER & behavior. After legit report to the attorneys association, given they work for tue state they subsequently attempted to blackmail me should go forward with the case.

It took me a few, but slowly it comes together, all the false NPs,completely baseless orders that never pan out, haggard eyes officers generally serving them, carrying out orders it is clear they’d prefer not to carry out… how recent this all is to DHMCand their recent call for me to have another MRI on an ailing liver be told it was cancelled. I would have otherwise left and never called, showing up and

Giving them reason to arrest me. Easily alleging they tried to warn me not to come, havi g the officers review the message left. But they wouldn’t need to. It

Dog would be al

D tol said and do

She never reported any of the major illegalities that occurred to me, a repeated and pervasive pattern of misconduct becuase she was complicit

Went on to collaborate for five more years as opposed to annull my record in one through a petition. My being disabled we had a legal obligation to point it out . She didn’t file it for five years blaming prosecutors each year for not pushing through a perfectly reasonable case.

Attempting to INDICT ME based on false information… charges she is well aware were literally ruled as false before four competent witnesses by a federal judge on 2014 prior to the attempt ahaon on my person in 2015. Just a more drastic form *•. This can be evidenced as can the fact the state falsified the report. They were involved.

I’m a liability given the human rights violations committed upon my person in 2011 in Rockingham country, Newmarket, Hampton, Stratham, Exeter & Portsmouth, NH. I’ve moved several times in effect of the pervasive and ongoing harrassment on the state and feds end.

Also important is the fact these allegations that she are BASELESS; no actions which constitute this crime were taken; baseless like all the attempts to defame my character; just words to ensure seem as the problem. The one of bas character.

The cops tell me just two weeks; no social media; why would that be when all I’ve written is true. So she can defame me in the a sense OF IT? That is the opposite of just. Shame on you Susan.

No social media so the EXIGENT CIRCUMSTANCES CANT BE KNOWN. As dojt jusges check social media prior to issuing something that would be on the case not only reckless but due to my medical conditions and lack of medical care of medications there must heart wouldn’t last more than three days. The epilepsy would have it. Along withthe major withdrawals from needed seizure and heart meds/ not only do they know this , they are counting on it. The measure the government takes when they want you silekt are insidious .

And am I obscene

By layman’s mind , yea

With my f*** this and that

HOWEVER

Not legally

As by law it’s defined by fraudulence and dishonesty.

Susie Q KNOWS that last charge was false, and will try and use this against me, as FACT, RULED AS SUCH BY A FEDERAL JUDGE IN FRONT OF THREE WITNESSES

She alleged to me the exact opposite I’m emails as she did to the board AJD when I proved I was able to science this through her emails? I was subsequently blackmailed • literally

Told if I chose to follow through with this case? All my info, including my SS number etc would be exposed.

Just ridiculous stuff

But definitely

Ed across state likes as local PD refused to become involved

Obvious collaborations make them as guilty of the crimes as those who initially committed or are committing them.

And the repeated lying on the end of them and Susan and well everyone that is saying differently than I? Have some weong & need to cover it

It’s that simple

Delay or Neglect

Perhaps the most common kinds of complaints against lawyers involve delay or neglect. This doesn’t mean that occasionally you’ve had to wait for a phone call to be returned. It means there has been a pattern of the lawyer’s failing to respond or to take action over a period of months. In some instances, this may result in your losing a case or losing the right to bring a case where there are time limits involved.

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This is part One; all others HACKED. I mean that.

I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they were. What the reader mainly has to benefit from or instead perhaps learn from reading this book is knowledge of the actuality . Not what the government wants you to see, propaganda it’s first weapon of choice. Then comes technology. Then the pharmaceutical industry stigmatizing people whom before they DSM came out a few decades ago there was no name for certain oddities, though now we do And ensure we have a medication for every disorder we have name that.

Is this country better since we have increased medicated and incarcerating it’s people? I’m going to have to say no, not in the least. In fact set in a never ending cycle of narcissism and egoism we will not forever repeat the past, the g
Hate Of those not like us, the wars. Just because we dress it all up differently doesn’t it is different at its core.

Cause really is it more than a mere word now? Do we mean it when we say it? Are we better people or just better liars

This is a firsthand account of an experience with the underbelly of the government and the insidious lengths they will go to cover up their crimes and liability; even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent. that’s nothing new, ever since the war on drugs deliberately withholding evidence they knew would exonerate an African-American on death row if you ask me that’s premeditated murder not to mention 2/3 of crack cocaine users or Caucasians yet every single person incarcerated for crack cocaine was African-American can somebody please explain that to me,?, you can’t but those numbers say it all.. The number said all this was not a war on drugs this was a war on blacks. And so it is again

History repeats until we beat the cycle of egoism which we won’t until we are aware we exist within it

THIS is a journey of discovery. You will learn things that you will not discover elsewhere, and likely the material will make you feel uncomfortable. This is because you will be forced to change your conditioned thinking
My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that. Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are humans engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself, don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she?

While the establishments that govern our country are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer over any innocent civilian. No matter if that officer has made a grievous mistake and if it will cost a clear their freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone.

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever. All I had was my voice. My attorney never ecen spoke up for me

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps
It is All? The will of God

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.
So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that need be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original * . Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write this sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be whay it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask every possible question a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality . A mock interview in which the interviewer is asking every question that any amazingly adept prosecutor would ask, and be able to answer, with evidence , likely. So that is another way i wrote it up.
But till then many times I’ve cut and paste and the results is less of the same bit more of what is NOT

This isnt a story about my life, it is a story of survival, the Police, both local and state the very ones who had engaged in the very rights violations and other illegalities that then, in my innocence, made me a liability.
If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical becuase I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A so mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.
And I have little protection….

Government corruption has been long throughout the ages. It didn’t just stop

Americans struggle to see reality clearly, even if it happening before their eyes they may go on to choose to deny it, in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot if reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows jow constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ by means of hundreds of Apps which allow contact without the effort.

I am by nature a skeptic. I have Always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when every one else
premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.
The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure , or perhaps it truly began with mu voracious curiosity, my only offense.

Any doubt I had had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced grace that was otherworldly and beyond my own doing. I live now today with the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time had been up far more times than I am meant to be here and he Alive

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we are able to live no other choices of my own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had Already injured me severely ? I’ve never been one to play victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your own intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you
truth is truth
And if I could change it , I would
If I could instead assume all responsibility as oppose to simmer in an anger I’ve jeher asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.
Infinitely
et me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least .

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.
I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years repeated b tenfold.

They say to look and see where you are responsible. I am responsible for continuing to believe a truth that had I not spoken abojt could have landed me in a hell I could not have escaped or could have allowed this to slowly unfurl in other ways they had planned. What seemed better to me. What would I do differently. Nothing. Each move I made was out of defense in effect of on of their actions, whether a third time that week again pull over, to a full on false arrrst without telling me the charges. None .to be later declared a false incarceration and the changes that day dropped. Yet slapped back on my record three weeks later for five years . My public defender ran from any possibility of fulfilling her role and literally ran from my fiancé asking her help than failed to answer any questions regarding why a change she witnessed he deemed false was still there? To take all employment opportunities etc away from me. And this was after five years of their having tried everything. Well then again the next year I’d learn everything includes murder. Didn’t matter that I was so agoraphobic I never left my home due to the harrassment on their end. They ended up arrested me In it despite the pleas from the local police that that was my home

I moved back here with A Masters in Counseling from Kent State, I was prepared to begin an Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing to the Seacoast Mental Health Center, a local counseling center. Three months before we were going to begin, i was in a major car accident following an amendment violating search and seizure. But first things first.

XXX

I stayed on in OH TO take a few extra classes prior to moving back and also entered the pd academy for fun. Honestly. It was. Very easy. I figured, why not.
All for a reason. There is a God.
When the indiscriminate illegal things began occurring, I learned ten times more law then i knew from the police academy thirteen years prior. And they as well. Fellow officers , to realize exactly what they were up to.

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what i have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in effect of rampart defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, us that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as oppose to redeem the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed in order to ensure they are safeguarded,
While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. And does except most don’t talk about it. I made the mistake of saying yes to being on an international six series broadcast, and decided it was time for the truth to be told. Had I known the consequences that year ago I would have said no. I had no idea how threatened they would be at my telling the truth despite the fact all they had done tI and about me was lie. Repeatedly… I’m asked on the show tell it once and the DEA.l went to my DHMC Manchester medical providers and lied knowing I have severe conditions and al due for four surgeries. They were waylaid due to the fact my heart is weak and they worry about it and the effects of anesthesia.

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…
A book concerning these truths has not yet been written about though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such … my last attempt to make what happened to meet Public was met with my providers being told falsities so I was cut off of all help when I need it for surgery
I hesitate to reveal such Headey information early on given its gravity but the fact of the matter is I can ever since all of this and I will in the back of the book which will end up being hundreds of pages give and I wrote these first 200 in the last four days

I have either stated or written about what has happened to me to keep myself safe or otherwise document it so many times I cannot tell you if I were to put all of it together it would be tens of thousands of pages and that is not a not an overestimation

This isn’t a story about my life, it is a story of survival, the Police, both local and state, the very ones who had engaged in the very rights violations and other illegalities that then, in my innocence, made me a liability.
If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical because I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.
And I have little protection….
I am by nature a skeptic. I have Always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when everyone else
premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect, I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney, the attorney general, the DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.
The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure, or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

I’ll admit
I’m well adept at pointing out the very truths that make most uncomfortable. I wasnot know how
else to be. . I’ve written an immense amount of material mainly on what I’ve gone through these
last thirteen years. Though I wore quite abut before that as well, mainly about enlightenment and
how other cultures were able to gain it. That is where the filling point of the investigation began I
believe. The informant using my interests against me. A borderline pathology who daddy
happened to be the ex chief of PD. But the stalling has to shop; she had to leave and the least
thing she said is
I’m going to tell my daddy on you
I wasn’t concerned.
I knew I hadn’t dont qmuthing wrong nor planned to.’
I was wrong in my assumptions that unless they had a warrent or evidence or some form of proof
they couldn’t act. But they decided to. Stomped on my fourth and fourteenth and not once but for
fourteen days I was held against my will, a third transfer ordered . And where I would be taken
from a staye hospital it was clear I did not belong. I could tell you Amd you wouldn’t believe it.
So fine then; tell me where that third transfer would have taken me… tell me
I grew up as a tomboy, still am in many ways, with a woman for seven years and married to a man for ten. A narcissist just like dad. Soft soul at least he had. The latter. Not the sociopath a judge ordered an order again. DD as his friends eloquently called him. The surfer crew from Hampton. For three years we lived above the bagel shop right along the ocean strip, waking up every morning to the smell of surf suntan lotion breast bagels, coffee and given the situation harrassment a bail bondsman who knew me sat downstairs to protect me from when it was realky bad. 5am-12pm for two weeks straight. He likely saved my life . And must have heard what their plans had been the last time they had tried to arrest me when I had called them. When I tell them I posted what had been occurring then and previous they suddenly rake me back out the back door they had brought me in. No finger printing or any of what they generally would do/ neither the next year when I was falsely arrested and incarcerated. I was never officiated into the system and they planned that I disappear. My attorney even admitted this is what does happen. I’ll be sure to put the relevant emails in the back for fact of evidence .

Today having had the carpet pulled on the chance at work family , my health down the tubes due to severe battery. I am now severely disabled now due to misconduct on the end of those I can not prosecute. I do plan to worn again AMD if I regain my health have a child via in vitro.
Today, I am a professional in research & Development , a signature away from an official private investigators license , am a freelance content, profressional, blog, and non fiction
writer.She has been working closely with B2B and B2C businesses offering content that gains
great search engine visibility and reader attention…. Average 300k a month all together

This book will invariably surprise any reader that has not directly been through this experience
or does not work for the state, the feds or within a state or federal complex. What is ironic is I
have always hated politics to the extent that I never even picked up a newspaper or read an
article but I have learned that the less you read of the propaganda the farther away you are as
to what is actually going on . when the come to realize it is all true, The evidence in the back

disallowing any other conclusion they will most certainly be grateful for the rest them about the
actuality of our system
. If you are looking for a book where the protagonist overcomes what she should not
have have but did too after a decade find a reason to be to share it for all those whose
voice was taken and mine certainly should have been as well it is almost as though I do
not have a choice but to tell the story. And it is mine to tell. I cannot say I am not proud of
that
And when she did try to tell about the illegalities about her because she was
threatened…? ALWAYS A CONSEQUENCE. but it has been ten years . She spoke out.
The consequences were quick in coming. But at least unlike before She now has some
form of protection… people who know what is happening and did to the extent I was told
to move to a different state and not tell anyone where I am. Please let me tell you how I
got here. Let me tell you how she (I) got here And I promise you won’t be disappointed . It
is a story of one who is now living controlled by outside constructions and
circumstances she didn’t choose or want. It’s made her realize how many people feel this
way from the moment they come unto this earth
And what Of all those African Americans the prosecution deliberately withheld evidence
which would have exonerated them
I think that’s called premeditated murder. This book examines the ways in which the government systematically attempts to ensure the silence and keep the silence of those they have violated lest stories of their direct assaults be exposed as their criminality and fraudulaiance.

I’ve never been one to play victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your own intention
and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on
resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you
truth is truth
And if I could change it , I would
If I could instead assume all responsibility as opposed to simmer in an anger I’ve jeher asked for
or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.
Infinitely
let me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least .
I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.
I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years by those whom I’d
been conditioned to. Always I ended up more damaged
See
I Moved here with A Masters in Counseling from KentState, I was prepared to being an
Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area and interested in working
with me. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing to the Seacoast
Mental Health Center, a local counseling center. THree months before we were going to begin,
i was in a major car accident. But first things first.

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a
united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to
protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an
innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. In my
instance I was indicted on murder, or grand theft ardently, but on Disticution of Research
Cheimcals, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was
deemed not only a federal offense but a threat on. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a
domestic terrorist.
I will indulge the details of exactly why they not only suspected this, but had nothing else To
suspect. But the irony lies in the fact, that was the point. I had created a profile…..

would enforce, they then explain why. This would ensure many, too many, officials would be
facing federal charges, such as solicitation to murder, and well, they will do anything to avoid
this. And they did. But perhaps i was just a better strategist than the entire state and local
officers over the span of five years, or perhaps, i was meant to slide out this other side and be j
voice for those who were silenced for the same reasons they attempted to silence me. To avoid
dire consequences of their intensely illegal actions.
So what is my story
Where does it start
Where does it end
I don’t think it has ended
In the interview type form I share what happened. Also there are podcasts, for example to be on
the KC Armstrong show for a six episode series. I should have known better. After the firsr they
began going to my medical providers former to that attempting to get NO trespass orders or
ANYTHING POSSIBLE even against the well wishes of the establishment. This was toMy ex fiance went to the jail every day and pled that he never filed any domestic abuse charges on me, that I was arrested in my own home for stalking and the order he filled out was in regards to the neighbors down below. Not to mention I owned the residence I was arrested in and in which we cohabited. It is difficlt to ‘Stalk’ someone who wont let you go, is obsessive in that regards, and whom you LIVE with. How is that possible. Despite his pleas, they had finally goltten me where they needed me and as soon as I was transferred to federal tney all well knew the DOJ no longer would be involved, it would likely just be a sadistic warden. And given the insidious lengths that he had already witnessed she was spared only in accordance with some divine intervention and his will several times as well. Had it not been for my ability to surrender completely in the fact of severe amger amd amtagonism together with the will of his and my own to make right what had been so wrong. Amd all of it had been. I was after the ‘accident’, one year later afforded disablity without any application.

The answers you seek about the actual ality of the governing forces are all here I say that with full competence knowing had I not had that experienced what I did I would not apprehend the degree of insidiousness. Or lengths the federal government will go to to cover their miconduct.

Of course half of you all already are consideribg that what I write is simply too fantastical to be trye and then there are those of you who KNOW , what I say is as true as saying the sky is blye. Those who work for the state, or the federal government, attornies, those who had several times been up close and personal with state miscondict and the reason for it. Despite the fact the officers can legally lie, and despite the fact the have the least educatiom, there is not a one of them within our prison system. NOT ONE OFFICER IS WITHIN OUR PRISONS> they are immune from any type of prosecution. And many do commit offenses. NO one will tell me they do notr. Most especiallly with what I went through

You can choose to believe what I write. Look at the evidence I provide, click on the links I will ensure is on any online platform….

This hasn’t ended and it never will. I will always be considered a liability to the federal government in so much that I hold immense amount of evidence of their ongoing maleficeance, falsifications, false incarcerations, an attempt to take my voice for good.

I never wanted to tell this story, yet when I attempt to tell another, or right of something else, always I come back to what has occurred within the last 14 years of my life. His story is true as you will invariably doubt it. He had by the end of the book, I guarantee you will your skepticism will yield into belief. If this isn’t true for you I will amend this personally. Asking your doubt and providing specific evidence is needed. Years of obtaining every document related so the pervasive misconduct attempt on my life false incarcerations attempts on my freedom and to take away my voice. I have no doubt this will all sound as conspiratorial as it is true, but I cant way abpit let that stop me from telling the truth.
A perspective no longer is merely a perspective when it is backed repeatedly by evidence logic and fact. Then it becomes. Even in the eyes of the law, TRUTH. The evidence I will provide at the back of the book may be what ends up fully persuading you.

Conspiracy by definition means two or more people collaborating to achieve a certain objective in other words conspiracy so often used as a criminal term is actually a common way that people achieve things and do things productively together. We the people repeat our histories American struggle for transparency in a time of technology and systematic warfare. Ever more and increasingly we are becoming programmed to the extent we can no longer connect on a human level. I thought the science biology this would be very well known to scientists and we have to ask ourselves this is deliberate.
I speak of this because there are many things that are going on

This is a journey of discovery that will lead you into the underbelly of the government. You will learn things that you will not learn elsewhere and likely of the material will make you feel uncomfortable. This is because you will be forced to change your conditioned thinking
My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that. Because if she was credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility. Yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she?

There is the argument why repeatedly write or what has discredited yoiZ because I’ve had to

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.
So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that need be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original * . Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write this sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be whay it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask ebery possoble question a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality . Below that is another way i wrote it up.

The international podcast I had great hesitation to be on, but who had called and asked me to do the show was named after the second episode and told to shut me down, or they would be. Why? They did not want the information I was sharing exposed. I knew this
but not the lengths they would again go to ensure my silence. If the American public were aware
of the techniques meant to disarm, disables, cripple, incriminate, defame, they would be as
horrified as I felt subjected to it,
PBN initially didn’t honor the request. They had asked me to do the Show then requested not to
expose the defamation while acting it out. The past, forever haunting me, is a part of
my story no matter how much I attempt to escape t. Once you are a liability because they acted
upon you as they did upon me in 2011, the horror does not end until you do. And so long as I I
amended, not I will speak. It is my obligation/ God’s grace. Or hate. I haven’t been able to
distinguish at times,. …but this isn’t what the story is about, It’s About a truth that brings out the
reality of the underbelly of the American government and the horrors that rest within it.

So MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO TELL…

Ive begun this story over a thousand times, whether in attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out
any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a
whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.
But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which
come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what
happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to
interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in
the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense
that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And
genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps
It is All? The will of God

Many are unaware that 1983 laws bring the potent defense of immunity to officers if it can be shown that they acted as another reasonable officer would. The second act against me was an attempt to get me on a false felony drug charge
Such a wrong gift would grant them immunity from the rights violations three weeks former in a warrantless federal investigation into what was a suspected form of terrorism.
And allow them to arrest or intend for a crime never thought of or planned to commit.
I understand why they suspected what they did but acting on information alone, even if it’s the ex-chief of police’s daughter, is not a Good idea.’ but they haven’t and won’t simply admit that. .’

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What A JUDGE SHOULD SEE ; the truth . I realize the state would prefer to shut me up already having told me No ‘social media’. Can they do that? That is very unsafe. They put me and my safety in danger. I’ll not speak of certain people but my life in general I most certainly will. Law is neither fair nor just. She has committed too many felines against me to play victim now

…when my NOW PAST attorney of six years told me MAKING WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO ME PUBLIC was likely the only means that kept me safe, free and Alive unlike the other 95%…. When I’m not threatened by an order in which I hadn’t even gone to or seen or spoken with the person more than a permissible amount given the exigent circumstances…

I’ll no longer feel the need to state what the actuality of what is happening when my attorney doesn’t betray me as she did, when my phone is no longer repeatedly hacked and my accounts aren’t either. That is what keeps me from barking on this stuff, … you…’men’ who came to my home

But THE TRUTH NOT CORRUPT LINKS WILL BE POSTED AND SCHEDULED TO POST DAILY FROM 6/15 out. From multiple accounts. Many unknown about. Freedom of speech, especially when it involves what is occurring to ME. No one can shut me down for stating my reality. Doesn’t everyone do that daily? Why are the rules different for me? Especially when not to say anything could mean my life , freedom. No more. … on here .. this site…when I go through the links I realize the extent to which the document has been hacked making me appear completely illegitimate , incompetent, borderline, not credible. All they would need me to appear in CASE A JUDGE HAPPENS RI LOOK ME UP. She won’t see the MASTERS DEGREE, the fact I went through the police academy * won’t have it. Perhaps I can’t speak of certain things and people at this time but I can certainly say I do NOT APPRECIATE MY GMAIL AND ALL DOCS ETC ASSOCIATED HACKED TEN MILLION TIMES. That’s why the posts ARE NOW IF POSSIBLE written out instead. So SUCH hacking is avoided

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My research so far on evolution of ego & consciousness

My research thus far on evolution of consciousness

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Thinkin & Drinkin… a smoothie

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Read away if you’d like to;)

I’ll throw some fun photos j took in there in my neighborhood of Ogunquit, maine

but not the lengths they would again go to ensure my silence. If the American public were aware

of the techniques meant to disarm, disable, cripple, incriminate, and defame, they would be as

horrified as I felt subjected to it,

PBN initially didn’t honor the request. They had asked me to do the Show and then requested not to

expose the defamation while acting it out. The past, forever haunting me, is a part of

my story no matter how much I attempt to escape t. Once you are a liability because they actedupon you as they did upon me in 2011, the horror does not end until you do. And so long as I

amended, not I will speak. It is my obligation/to God’s grace. Or hate. I haven’t been able to

distinguish at times, …but this isn’t what the story is about; it’s About a truth that brings out the

reality of the underbelly of the American government and the horrors within it.

So MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO TELL me…

whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which

comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what

happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. How self-love is taught, or nor, we learn to interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open. If we know to self-loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sensethat it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And

genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or maybe

It is All? The will of God

Many are unaware that 1983 laws bring the potent defense of immunity to officers if it shows that they acted as another reasonable officer would. The second act against me was an attempt to get me on a false felony drug charge

Such a wrong gift would grant them immunity from the rights violations three weeks former in a warrantless federal investigation into what was a suspected form of terrorism.

And allow them to arrest or intend for a crime never thought of or planned to commit.

I understand why they suspected what they did but acting on information alone, even if it’s the ex-chief of police’s daughter, is not a Good idea.’ but they haven’t and won’t simply admit that. .’

This truth I dare share is truly a journey of discovering what I never expected to find nor was ever seeking. Likely what will make you feel uncomfortable? What you will want to deny. I wasn’t and am still not allowed such luxury despite being the one injured and traumatized, disbelieved and former to it all happening, never having made a complaint, asked for help, or my word doubted. Perhaps then, because my truth wasn’t less believable than any fallacy, I could concoct, and yet still blaming the victim is what makes the world feel safe for all those ‘spectators’ out there in the world. My father from a land where to stand out meant certain death. Perhaps that’s why instead of seeking justice and being transparent regarding the actuality of the misconduct, he outright lied. Like my mother, sentenced to therapy as opposed to q felony. The judge said she was lucky. he just somehow wanted to hide me.

This book is FOR

I AM THE ONE TO WRITE IT BECAUSE it is solely due to the direct experience I had together with rampant research in the effect of it that you will Herein learn things that you will not discover elsewhere.

Exceptionally will be willing to write about what I will lay bare, my reasons applying in the fact I have already publicly exposed the truth on the advisement of the products have nothing to lose as I’ve already made it public for years then explicitly after being asked to him on an international podcast

And as in the other times, the consequences of so doing after made beyond apparent…but I’m getting ahead of myself. This discomfort you may feel as you reveal the reality behind certain veils is because you are forced to change your conditioned thinking

My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. Br of the Howard Stern show, until they were told to shut it down. They did. But hadn’t they know that? Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human, engaged in our desires, AND want more than right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do.

Why READ this Book?

I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit from or instead learn from reading this book is a firsthand account of the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new.

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

A book concerning these truths has not yet been written though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such …r

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

A book concerning these truths has not yet been written though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such … my last attempt to make what happened to meet the Public was met with my providers being told falsities so I was cut off of all help when I need it most. I would love to post a list outlined by DHMC Of the disabilities but will save it for the appendix.

I hesitate to reveal such Headey information early on given its gravity but the fact of the matter is I can ever since all of this and I will in the back of the book which will evidence the major events or smaller ones as factually outlined.

PERSPECTIVE VERSUS TRUTH

A perspective is just that until it is back pervasive by evidence and logic, then even in the eyes of the law, it IS TRUTH.

A book that sells fills a gap in the market. This one does. It fills the American public in on what happens to those falsely judged in this country and the systematic way their lives are destroyed. Their person indefinitely. Defamed. Not only is the topic interesting and riveting This is A book that has a huge market at this time, given its political relevance; how it directly proves government liability and how no accountability is taken, it will be a needed shock to the American system, a true wake up call.

Perhaps we can say it is not within our government exclusively but throughout them and their constituents, the highly wealthy, the relevancy of this story politically, woven in where there once was an actual system to protect the American Citizens. Four years ago I developed an App that was subsequently patented entitled Safety for Citizens. It was developed by me for those who had been and are in the position I was and still am prone to be given I am a liability in the effect of their offense against me.

It would have allowed And will not, someone who is in the position I was in to contact one from internal investigations without alerting the very authorities which are anything from harassing to attempting to full out silencing a particular individual, namely a liability. And one becomes as such when they have been acted upon illegally by governing forces. A member of the team THEN uses the unique ID NUMBER TO ensure that citizens’ safety and an investigation BEFORE A DEPARTMENT CAN BE INFORMED. What I went through made me need to think I’m such measures

Why do I TELL!? After already being made public I have NOTHING TO LOSE

What happened to me has happened to millions, but it is rarely spoken about, largely in part because the majority of those who have lived what I have are no longer living or had their voices stolen in the effect of rampant defamation or federal incarceration. The broadest example of what I lived I, or any, can imagine, is that of an African American, falsely accused of a crime and when the state realizes they made a mistake in their prosecution, as opposed to redeeming the innocent, they instead ensure that person becomes who they needed to ensure they are safeguarded,

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Another Possible start

but not the lengths they would again go to ensure my silence. If the American public were aware

of the techniques meant to disarm, disable, cripple, incriminate, and defame, they would be as

horrified as I felt subjected to it,

PBN initially didn’t honor the request. They had asked me to do the Show and then requested not to

expose the defamation while acting it out. The past, forever haunting me, is a part of

my story no matter how much I attempt to escape t. Once you are a liability because they acted

upon you as they did upon me in 2011, the horror does not end until you do. And so long as I

amended, not I will speak. It is my obligation/to God’s grace. Or hate. I haven’t been able to

distinguish at times, …but this isn’t what the story is about; it’s About a truth that brings out the

reality of the underbelly of the American government and the horrors within it.

So MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO TELL me…

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document

what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out

any ability for productive thought or non-reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a

whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which

comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what

happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self-love, we learn to

interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in

the face of open. If we know to self-loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense

that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And

genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or maybe

It is All? The will of God

Such a wrong gift would grant them immunity from the rights violations three weeks former in a warrantless federal investigation into what was a suspected form of terrorism.

And allow them to arrest or intend for a crime never thought of or planned to commit.

This is truly a journey of discovering what I never expected to find nor was ever seeking. Likely what will make you feel uncomfortable? What you will want to deny. I wasn’t and am still not allowed such luxury despite being the one injured and traumatized, disbelieved and former to it all happening, never having made a complaint, asked for help, or my word doubted. Perhaps then, because my truth wasn’t less believable than any lie, I could concoct, and yet

This book is FOR

Why READ this Book?

I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit from or instead learn from reading this book is a firsthand account of the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new.

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

A book concerning these truths has not yet been written though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such …r

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

PERSPECTIVE VERSUS TRUTH

A perspective is just that until it is back pervasive by evidence and logic, then even in the eyes of the law, it IS TRUTH.

Why do I TELL!? After already being made public I have NOTHING TO LOSE

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I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit from or instead learn from reading this book is a firsthand account of the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new.

My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that. Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are humans engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself, don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she?

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document

what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

There is the argument why repeatedly write or what has discredited yoiZ because I’ve had to

It is All? The will of God

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that need be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original * . Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write this sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be whay it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask every possible question a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality . A mock interview in which the interviewer is asking every question that any amazingly adept prosecutor would ask, and be able to answer, with evidence , likely. So that is another way i wrote it up.

But till then many times I’ve cut and paste and the results is less of the same bit more of what is NOT

If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical becuase I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A so mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.

And I have little protection….

There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows jow constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ by means of hundreds of Apps which allow contact without the effort.

premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.

The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure , or perhaps it truly began with mu voracious curiosity, my only offense.

truth is truth

And if I could change it , I would

If I could instead assume all responsibility as oppose to simmer in an anger I’ve jeher asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.

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et me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least .

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.

I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years repeated b tenfold.

They say to look and see where you are responsible. I am responsible for continuing to believe a truth that had I not spoken abojt could have landed me in a hell I could not have escaped or could have allowed this to slowly unfurl in other ways they had planned. What seemed better to me. What would I do differently. Nothing. Each move I made was out of defense in effect of on of their actions, whether a third time that week again pull over, to a full on false arrrst without telling me the charges. None .to be later declared a false incarceration and the changes that day dropped. Yet slapped back on my record three weeks later for five years . My public defender ran from any possibility of fulfilling her role and literally ran from my fiancé asking her help than failed to answer any questions regarding why a change she witnessed he deemed false was still there? To take all employment pops etc away from me. And this was after five years of their having tried everything. Well then again the next year I’d learn everything includes murder.

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I stayed on in OH TO take a few extra classes prior to moving back and also entered the pd academy for fun. Honestly. It was. Very easy. I figured, why not.

All for a reason. There is a God.

When the indiscriminate illegal things began occurring, I learned ten times more law then i knew from the police academy thirteen years prior. And they as well. Fellow officers , to realize exactly what they were up to.

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. And does except most don’t talk about it. I made the mistake of saying yes to being on an international six series broadcast, and decided it was time for the truth to be told. Had I known the consequences that year ago I would have said no. I had no idea how threatened they would be at my telling the truth despite the fact all they had done tI and about me was lie. Repeatedly… I’m asked on the show tell it once and the DEA.l went to my DHMC Manchester medical providers and lied knowing I have severe conditions and al due for four surgeries. They were waylaid due to the fact my heart is weak and they worry about it and the effects of anesthesia.

This is a subject matter that needs to be written due to the current political Uncertain environment…

A book concerning these truths has not yet been written about though there have been books written about false prosecutions and such … my last attempt to make what happened to meet Public was met with my providers being told falsities so I was cut off of all help when I need it for surgery

I hesitate to reveal such Headey information early on given its gravity but the fact of the matter is I can ever since all of this and I will in the back of the book which will end up being hundreds of pages give and I wrote these first 200 in the last four days

If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical because I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times . Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.

And I have little protection….

premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs’, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect, I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney, the attorney general, the DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult, before they would, as they in fact were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.

The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure, or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

I’ll admit

I’m well adept at pointing out the very truths that make most uncomfortable. I wasnot know how

else to be. . I’ve written an immense amount of material mainly on what I’ve gone through these

last thirteen years. Though I wore quite abut before that as well, mainly about enlightenment and

how other cultures were able to gain it. That is where the filling point of the investigation began I

believe. The informant using my interests against me. A borderline pathology who daddy

happened to be the ex chief of PD. But the stalling has to shop; she had to leave and the least

thing she said is

I’m going to tell my daddy on you

I wasn’t concerned.

I knew I hadn’t dont qmuthing wrong nor planned to.’

I was wrong in my assumptions that unless they had a warrent or evidence or some form of proof

they couldn’t act. But they decided to. Stomped on my fourth and fourteenth and not once but for

fourteen days I was held against my will, a third transfer ordered . And where I would be taken

from a staye hospital it was clear I did not belong. I could tell you Amd you wouldn’t believe it.

So fine then; tell me where that third transfer would have taken me… tell me

I grew up as a tomboy, still am in many ways, with a woman for seven years and married to a man for ten. A narcissist just like dad. Soft soul at least he had. The latter. Not the sociopath a judge ordered an order again. DD as his friends eloquently called him. The surfer crew from Hampton. For three years we lived above the bagel shop right along the ocean strip, waking up every morning to the smell of surf suntan lotion breast bagels, coffee and given the situation harrassment a bail bondsman who knew me sat downstairs to protect me from when it was realky bad. 5am-12pm for two weeks straight. He likely saved my life . And must have heard what their plans had been the last time they had tried to arrest me when I had called them. When I tell them I posted what had been occurring then and previous they suddenly rake me back out the back door they had brought me in. No finger printing or any of what they generally would do/ neither the next year when I was falsely arrested and incarcerated. I was never officiated into the system and they planned that I disappear. My attorney even admitted this is what does happen. I’ll be sure to put the relevant emails in the back for fact of evidence .

Today, I am a professional in research & Development , a signature away from an official private investigators license , am a freelance content, profressional, blog, and non fiction

writer.She has been working closely with B2B and B2C businesses offering content that gains

great search engine visibility and reader attention…. Average 300k a month all together

This book will invariably surprise any reader that has not directly been through this experience

or does not work for the state, the feds or within a state or federal complex. What is ironic is I

have always hated politics to the extent that I never even picked up a newspaper or read an

article but I have learned that the less you read of the propaganda the farther away you are as

to what is actually going on . when the come to realize it is all true, The evidence in the back

disallowing any other conclusion they will most certainly be grateful for the rest them about the

actuality of our system

. If you are looking for a book where the protagonist overcomes what she should not

have have but did too after a decade find a reason to be to share it for all those whose

voice was taken and mine certainly should have been as well it is almost as though I do

not have a choice but to tell the story. And it is mine to tell. I cannot say I am not proud of

that

And when she did try to tell about the illegalities about her because she was

threatened…? ALWAYS A CONSEQUENCE. but it has been ten years . She spoke out.

The consequences were quick in coming. But at least unlike before She now has some

form of protection… people who know what is happening and did to the extent I was told

to move to a different state and not tell anyone where I am. Please let me tell you how I

got here. Let me tell you how she (I) got here And I promise you won’t be disappointed . It

is a story of one who is now living controlled by outside constructions and

circumstances she didn’t choose or want. It’s made her realize how many people feel this

way from the moment they come unto this earth

And what Of all those African Americans the prosecution deliberately withheld evidence

which would have exonerated them

I think that’s called premeditated murder. This book examines the ways in which the government systematically attempts to ensure the silence and keep the silence of those they have violated lest stories of their direct assaults be exposed as their criminality and fraudulaiance.

I’ve never been one to play victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your own intention

and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on

resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you

truth is truth

And if I could change it , I would

If I could instead assume all responsibility as opposed to simmer in an anger I’ve jeher asked for

or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.

Infinitely

let me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least .

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.

I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years by those whom I’d

been conditioned to. Always I ended up more damaged

See

I Moved here with A Masters in Counseling from KentState, I was prepared to being an

Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area and interested in working

with me. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing to the Seacoast

Mental Health Center, a local counseling center. THree months before we were going to begin,

i was in a major car accident. But first things first.

While these establishments are rigorous in attempting to ensure the public only sees them as a

united front in the interest Of the Public, the Actuality is they will unite and band together to

protect a fellow officer, even if that officer has ade a grievous mistake and if it will cost an

innocent their own freedom or life. If it happened to me, it could happen to anyone. In my

instance I was indicted on murder, or grand theft ardently, but on Disticution of Research

Cheimcals, which, in 2011, following the World Trade Center Bombings ten years prior, was

deemed not only a federal offense but a threat on. Domestic welfare, thereby labeling me a

domestic terrorist.

I will indulge the details of exactly why they not only suspected this, but had nothing else To

suspect. But the irony lies in the fact, that was the point. I had created a profile…..

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven year span, one

week, month, year at a time. Do i start in the middle and then go back in order to explain the

hows and whys. So many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force

again without my permission.

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations,

permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect

of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human

rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not

stand b enforce a judge. The last Tim this occurred, three officers were suspended and two

were put on leave. They are aware, I have what i need even to show they were complicit in the

2015 attempt on my life, that the state falsified the report and that more than easily proven,

would enforce, they then explain why. This would ensure many, too many, officials would be

facing federal charges, such as solicitation to murder, and well, they will do anything to avoid

this. And they did. But perhaps i was just a better strategist than the entire state and local

officers over the span of five years, or perhaps, i was meant to slide out this other side and be j

voice for those who were silenced for the same reasons they attempted to silence me. To avoid

dire consequences of their intensely illegal actions.

So what is my story

Where does it start

Where does it end

I don’t think it has ended

In the interview type form I share what happened. Also there are podcasts, for example to be on

the KC Armstrong show for a six episode series. I should have known better. After the firsr they

began going to my medical providers former to that attempting to get NO trespass orders or

ANYTHING POSSIBLE even against the well wishes of the establishment. This was to

My ex fiance went to the jail every day and pled that he never filed any domestic abuse charges on me, that I was arrested in my own home for stalking and the order he filled out was in regards to the neighbors down below. Not to mention I owned the residence I was arrested in and in which we cohabited. It is difficlt to ‘Stalk’ someone who wont let you go, is obsessive in that regards, and whom you LIVE with. How is that possible. Despite his pleas, they had finally goltten me where they needed me and as soon as I was transferred to federal tney all well knew the DOJ no longer would be involved, it would likely just be a sadistic warden. And given the insidious lengths that he had already witnessed she was spared only in accordance with some divine intervention and his will several times as well. Had it not been for my ability to surrender completely in the fact of severe amger amd amtagonism together with the will of his and my own to make right what had been so wrong. Amd all of it had been. I was after the ‘accident’, one year later afforded disablity without any application.

You can choose to believe what I write. Look at the evidence I provide, click on the links I will ensure is on any online platform….

A perspective no longer is merely a perspective when it is backed repeatedly by evidence logic and fact. Then it becomes. Even in the eyes of the law, TRUTH. The evidence I will provide at the back of the book may be what ends up fully persuading you.

I speak of this because there are many things that are going on

My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that. Because if she was credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are human engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility. Yet after the period in which you delude yourself; don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she?

Ive begun this story over a thousand times, whether in attempts to document

There is the argument why repeatedly write or what has discredited yoiZ because I’ve had to

It is All? The will of God

So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violations and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer i not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that need be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original * . Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write this sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be whay it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask ebery possoble question a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality . Below that is another way i wrote it up.

but not the lengths they would again go to ensure my silence. If the American public were aware

of the techniques meant to disarm, disables, cripple, incriminate, defame, they would be as

horrified as I felt subjected to it,

PBN initially didn’t honor the request. They had asked me to do the Show then requested not to

expose the defamation while acting it out. The past, forever haunting me, is a part of

my story no matter how much I attempt to escape t. Once you are a liability because they acted

upon you as they did upon me in 2011, the horror does not end until you do. And so long as I I

amended, not I will speak. It is my obligation/ God’s grace. Or hate. I haven’t been able to

distinguish at times,. …but this isn’t what the story is about, It’s About a truth that brings out the

reality of the underbelly of the American government and the horrors that rest within it.

So MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO TELL…

Ive begun this story over a thousand times, whether in attempts to document

what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out

any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a

whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which

come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what

happens to us.Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to

interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in

the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense

that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And

genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps

It is All? The will of God

Such a wrong gift would grant them immunity from the rights violations three weeks former in a warrantless federal investigation into what was a suspected form of terrorism.

And allow them to arrest or intend for a crime never thought of or planned to commit.

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What?

Yeah yeah maybe ocd said it before. Well read it again! Or don’t!

Americans struggle to see reality clearly in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot of reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows how the constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ utilizing hundreds of Apps that allow contact without the effort.

I am by nature a skeptic. I have always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when everyone else
premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult before they would, as they were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.
The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure, or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

How does this apply to me? I would like to interfere with what directly occurred to me but not make it about what did.
I do not doubt that this book and the truth of it will far exceed any reader’s previous expectations of what they believe they may learn, especially from truths as unbelievable as they happened. What mainly does the reader have to benefit from or instead learn from reading this book is a firsthand account of the experience with the underbelly of the government and the links they will go to cover up their crimes and liability even at the cost of completely silencing whom they know is innocent but that’s nothing new.

THIS is a journey of discovery. You will learn things that you will not discover elsewhere, and likely the material will make you feel uncomfortable. This is because you will be forced to change your conditioned thinking
My truth brought far more ridicule than belief. In fact, with help from the state and other forms of defamation, what happened had disabled her physically and psychologically. But hadn’t they know that? Because if she were credible, if others heard her, perhaps others would also want to share their own experiences concerning misconduct at the hands of the governing forces/ and not the type reserved for the media to broadcast if only for good measure to ensure we appear transparent, honest. We are not. History will repeat itself so long as we are humans engaged in our desires AJD wants more than what is right and just. Because does not a sense of superiority feel better than humility, yet after the period in which you delude yourself, don’t you feel drained rather than renewed? I do. Does she?

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or nonreactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

There is the argument why repeatedly write or what has discredited you because I’ve had to

But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which comes in part to shape our lives, or is it instead what we make of them. How do we interpret what happens to us? Others reactions. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self-love, we learn to interpret others’ deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open. If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps
It is All? The will of God

Now the question is, should I recount what happened in sequence. The seven years, one week, month, year at a time. Do I start in the middle and then go back to explain the hows and whys. In so many ways my mind has yelled all this at me, thrown me into it full force again without my permission.
So many obscure, obscene, horrific events, one after another resulting in false incarcerations, permanent injuries, an attempt on my life, and ultimately, a near immunity from the law in the effect of the fact, armed with reports dating back from the start, easily able to prove every human rights violation and offense upon my person, most state and local officials would prefer I not stand b enforce a judge. I won’t be able to do this sequentially as I know I’ll roll around, things will bring up the other thing that needs to be mentioned. Then I’d hop up to that last thing mentioned and forget the original *. Given I spelled out the issue, I suppose I could write these sequences but I want it to sound like me. So it will be what it will be. The best format I could think of was an interview format in which I ask every possible question to a true skeptic who doesn’t believe the actuality. A mock interview in which the interviewer is asking every question that any amazingly adept prosecutor would ask, and be able to answer. So that is another way I wrote it up.
But till then many times I’ve cut and pasted and the results are less of the same bit more of what is NOT

This isn’t a story about my life, it is a story of survival, the Police, both local and state the very ones who had engaged in the very rights violations and other illegalities that then, in my innocence, made me a liability.
If I detailed every bit fr beginning to end it would sound nothing short of mechanical because I’ve been asked or told to tell it too many times. Or felt I’ve had to, to survive. Not to be believed so I have to tell it again: and again. It’s traumatizing now to tell a story of surviving a war no one believes you fought. A so mission you return from severely injured to be told by that same government you are not. And that you were not even there. Returning from these repeated nightmarish experiences embedded my system into fight or flight.
And I have little protection….

Americans struggle to see reality clearly, even if it happening before their eyes they may go on to choose to deny it, in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot of reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows how constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ utilizing hundreds of Apps that allow contact without the effort.

I am by nature a skeptic. I have always and still do; question everything. Perhaps ones they could better control. Use for warfare. I know far fetched but where my mind goes…do wonder whether technology was created to increase the likelihood we would become more distant from one another while invariably talking into lassitude.!easy to do when every one else
premise of this book is less so autobiographical as it is an exploration into the actuality of the American governmental system, the ‘war on drugs, then subsequently and as ‘serious’ the war on terror. Given it was only in effect of all I survived and learned in hindsight through my attorney the attorney general DOJ & other sources, most notably the four boxes of original documents obtained directly after any insult before they would, as they were, redacted, deleted or otherwise falsified.
The inciting incident was a warrantless search and seizure, or perhaps it truly began with my voracious curiosity, my only offense.

Any doubt I had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced otherworldly grace and beyond my own doing. I live now today with the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time had been up far more times than I am meant to be here and he Alive

But this isn’t about what if these events are not only out of our control, but we can live no other choices of my own volition. My choice to work, be credible, not disabled, repeatedly harassed by the same entities meant to protect me, those who had already injured me severely? I’ve never been one to play the victim; but when you can honestly find no fault in your intention and conduct except for curiosity and the desire to explore it l, it is difficult to not run on resentment, permanently injuries a constant reminder to the truth of what was done to you
truth is truth
And if I could change it, I would
If I could instead assume all responsibility as opposed to simmering in a fit of anger I’ve either asked for or yet in life experienced? You’d Prefer it.
Infinitely
let me start a little closer to the beginning. For the time being at least.

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.
I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years repeated b tenfold.

They say to look and see where you are responsible. I am responsible for continuing to believe a truth that had I not spoken about could have landed me in a hell I could not have escaped or could have allowed this to slowly unfurl in other ways they had planned. What seemed better to me. What would I do differently? Nothing. Each move I made was out of defense in the effect of on of their actions, whether a third time that week again pull over, to a full-on false arrest without telling me the charges. None .to be later declared false incarceration and the changes that day dropped. Yet slapped back on my record three weeks later for five years. My public defender ran from any possibility of fulfilling her role and ran from my fiancé asking her help then failed to answer any questions regarding why a change she witnessed he deemed false was still there? To take all employment pops etc away from me. And this was after five years of their having tried everything. Well, then again the next year I’d learn everything includes murder.

I moved back here with A Masters in Counseling from Kent State, I was prepared to begin an Internship with a local therapist who was already situated in the area. We had planned to implement a drug and alcohol counseling wing at the Seacoast Mental Health Center, a local counseling center. Three months before we were going to begin, I was in a major car accident following an amendment violating search and seizure. But first things first.

The DEA & Federal government acted without a warrant no judge’s signature and no evidence. So perhaps I should say instead it began with a young lady’s obsession with me, ultimately feeling rejected by me then saying she would tell her daddy about me. He was the ex-chief of PD in Newmarket ….

Though I’m willing to expose my truth and story, by no means is this a memoir or autobiography. It is what happened and what Americans need to be aware of. If they are not already. And most, are conditioned to believe nothing but utmost honor and truth from anyone with a badge
Some just don’t see the ironies of reveling in these
This is a book that has the information you won’t come across anywhere else. Because what I will disclose is rarely it is ever spoken of, even amidst those who engage in it on a criminal level to tye victims of their crimes
They are silenced and if not by harsher means than defamation, and complete reputation and physical annihilation, and you will have made out well. In other words, I’d you survive what I did and come out the other side free and alive, You’ve done what few have
And there was a reason. And I won’t say anything when too many before HAGE perhaps been scared. Even those officials involved in such horrific offenses rarely utter the reality of it. As though it makes it imaginary. But it’s all too real to the victims of it. The ones that won’t be believed when the state and federal authorities are setting the opposite about her.
People have been conditioned to hold great confidence in the authorities of this country. And as we have seen during times of crisis we are willing to do almost anything they tell us. They are learning what it’s taken for us to come to subject our children without reservation (COVID year T- 3) to vaccinations we would’ve never considered three years ago once that changed genotypes and that was 12 and younger would possible outcome could that have in the next generations to come but that’s not what this is about it’s not about conspiracies it’s about fact truth and what did happen.
Bigotry and covering for one another remains all too pervasive, the chief being the one mooning into any cknolintd, often themselves part of any misconduct.
This book is not based on research but is more telling of the state of the transparency or f our governing forces than any number of interviews. Because no one, most especially those in law enforcement are willing to give voice to the misconduct that goes on and further still, the fact that no officer will tell on another, no matter how grievous the offense. This gives cops total power and immunity, never having to worry about the law catching up with Them. Is this truly the way to keep them accountable. My experience told me that they were at best, confounded by what to do next fork by their blue code to the other and what was right to do & worst nothing better than animals, waiting for their next opportunity.
If you decide to read this book, believe its truth, and understand that such has happened before, such as with Thomas Drake, at least I know that was his Last name. Here you will gain Information you will not elsewhere, as most who have gone through what I have been falsely incarcerated or in some other way silenced.
The best part of this book is, it is not based on research but on personal experience and obtaining records which directly proved each of the elements I hope to finally in this book describe, SO many attempts made, only to flicker out, again and again, I am determined not to let that happen. I Will Face what I went through again alongside the very likelihood of even further disbelieve and stigmatization, But I am willing to sacrifice myself in this way as I will not allow the knowledge that I gained over the last decade and a half of my life, knowledge that the majority of Americans are completely unaware of but that I fell truly need to know. And it is not to sensationalize what I went through as so many have faced far worse. I can not even fathom being an African American in the 70s or even Now, having false evidence deliberately used against you, or evidence that would exonerate you withheld, so the sensitive was carried out, and you? Are innocent. The sentence is 25 years/ Perhaps life. This has happened an inordinate amount of times, mainly during the war on drugs, or what is more accurately, the war on blacks.

So why was I specifically targeted? I am not sure that is wholly relevant to the politics of this story,
I decide to qeirw
This is a rough draft but it’s a sample
This is a rough draft but it’s a sample

I’ve begun this story over a thousand times, whether it attempts to document
what happened or as it runs through my mind, in spurts and bits, pieces unwanted, crowding out any ability for productive thought or nonreactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever.

Any doubt Had had been in greater being evaporated the more I experienced otherworldly grace and beyond my own doing. I live today with inner peace and the utter conviction that I will not go before my time. Because my time has been up for a while and I am still here, to times pulled through bt forces that went beyond merely me and you, Was that my perspective, No, actually by scientific weight, it Is the truth, Otherwise 99% likelihood it would have been the other way, And the words of the dead don’t write themselves. Nor the words of the damned. They don’t have the patience to uphold

I never was an angry person. Let things roll right off me.
I became angry. An animal caged too long, poked and prodded for years by those whom I’d been conditioned. Always I ended up more damagedAmericans struggle to see reality clearly in a time propaganda and delusions have overtaken the people’s minds. I write this book to give those who read it a shot of reality not based on evidence but direct experience alongside having to dig deep to comprehend the events that were occurring and why. Law wasn’t what I studied but I can assure you after these fourteen years I know it better than most. No questions
There is more than ample scientific evidence that shows how the constant use of technology changes the brain, how technology has ‘enabled’ us to isolate more yet still have the illusion they are in ‘touch’ utilizing hundreds of Apps that allow contact without the effort.